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Checkout my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi
and thanks to my brother WXLVE for everything.

Rivilin:

boot to face then im left to the ground
my hands are shaking now I turn around and face to the crowd
it’s like how did I get to this point without falling
always got a knife in my back im sick of crawling

appreciate everyone that’s always made an effort
just to reach out to me they say that my music is a blessing
but I just keep writing, this is how I cope yeah
not gonna falter im gonna take the future whole

yeah seeing my best friends fall to their old ways
I always got their back and they don’t have to owe me
cus they got mine when I come calling yeah
don’t bring up the past cus it’s always got me hurting

NPCs just give me the kick down
I got everyone I need here
vermin swarm 2021 gonna take it
fuck all the haters you know im not breaking

you wanna come at me and start making accusations
always had it out for me that’s an understatement
like fuck you, fuck them and everyone around me
never had my back when im sinking down slowly

you wanna kick me out the door making implications
then im forced to the ground with no explanation
like move back move in, take it, and don’t slip
cus this is all I got can I sink down below this

WXLVE:

everyone always looks up to me, 
but it feels like iam always drowning on self negativity
yeah, just walking through like yeah, with bleary eyes
im sick of constantly feeling like i need a new life

inside out i feel them haunting my dreams 
its time to sink or swim but im just tryna  wake from the demon within
im afraid these visions are real the man with no names closing in
with brothers close by side ill try not be eaten alive

$lothboi:

RIVILIN
THEY HEAR OUR PAIN
KNIVES IN OUR BACKS WHILE WE CHASE OUR DREAMS

FUCK ALL THIS
ANXIETY
PAIN AND SIN JUST FUCKING FOLLOW ME

Sick of pain, issa fuckin loop
I ain’t want to die, so I’m calling you
Just pay no mind, to my fucking moods
It’s unstable times, I CANT FUCKING CHOOSE

Why do I betray
Myself everyday
Minute I’m awake
I DIG A FUCKING GRAVE

Brothers FT.  WXLVE X $LOTHBOI

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yeah make way for the coward like what did you expect
yeah you didn’t think about it much but now your sons a wreck
doesn’t know how to cope or be social, 
feel like he’s the only one who feels this way no he cant maintain

a regular routine or fucking diet
cus he doesn’t know how to be alive most days he feels like he died
in that car crash a few years ago
he swears he saw the fucking light at the end of the tunnel

but he’s still on two feet, still barely coping
yeah he stays high so he doesn’t deal with his mind
cus it’s always the negative thoughts that take over each other
yeah until the tension just breaks snap yeah we just relapse back

to a childhood where we were neglected
by a family who couldn’t understand what it’s like to be different
from everyone else it’s like you’re all just NPCs
Yeah living check to check just to have nothing to show

yeah it’s fucking sad that we have to live this way
always tryna feed our family who’s hungry but they don’t understand the pain
that you go through day to day, live a nine to five, 
just the same routine from 30 till your fucking 89

I don’t  know why you fucking live like this
what happened to your fucking dreams would you blame it on your son
and would you leave all of us behind just to restart
maybe you fucking would but that’s life you don’t get a second shot

so this kids a bit older he’s almost 25 
doesn’t know what he wants but he’s got his fucking music
to live by new friends no lies, 
Every day we get a little better more plays no we never settle

for what we couldn’t have back when we grew up
yeah we all got our own problems and memories no one perfect
so we just fade, just fade out have a few more drugs
Yeah this isn’t what life is fucking all about

I Beg Your Pardon

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

can you see me from the bottom
even though the waters shallow I still feel as if it’s above my neck
does it hurt you to see me suffer
does it hurt you at all can you feel a thing

I see father, im so sorry
I see mother, please don’t worry
because the medication didn’t seem to work I couldn’t get my head straight
dreams of overdosing, shallow breathing, no it’s too late

I see the rain start to pour when I think of your name
I feel the pain when you call, say you’re here with my friend
explosions of infinity say it’s all in my head
astral projects of where I could be happy, no im not happy at all

No, don’t cry out my name, no fuck you this is it
im not who I want to be, but I know when to quit
engrave your tales in my veins just to say you want him
im ripping out my own flesh just to say I forget, no I won’t forget

theirs a face staring back at me, 
yeah what, what does it want from me
it doesn’t speak, it just follows me
everywhere I go, yeah everywhere I turn

in the shadows always consuming
my thoughts always presuming
that maybe one day I will just take a step 
And just learn to breathe

so tell me does get better than this
I don’t even know, you don’t even know so why do I ask
maybe cus im holding on by a thread
and secretly im hoping it gives

so then you can just watch me fall
until I hit the water and let the ocean sky just consume me

Remedy

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin
yeah baby  im gone you know i don’t mess with the past
but I know you just try to hit me up and fuck with my heart
now im alone darkness seems to swallow all of me
till my room fills with light and I see you hitting up my phone

cus im chilling with the vermin swarm, drug addictions all we know
best intentions peeling back my scalp you grab a bottle and take my soul
all the money I have got spent on frivolous things
try to fill an empty void with friends and designer rings
 
RipThePetals

I've got fake friends who dip when they pop off
New friends only like me cause im Petals
I've lost too many friends to the drugs, but they give me more, when i'm coming down, just to keep me around

And i can't answer the question to why your coming back to me
Your blowing up my phone just to treat me like i'm the enemy
I'll fall in love again, just a chip in my heart
Girl you broke me apart, but i can't seem to let you outta my arms

Rivilin


so what did  you say, what did you say
i don’t wanna feel like this anymore
so why did I turn, why did we fight
everytime i seem to be just at your door

so what did you mean, so what did you mean
that everyone just wants a little piece of me
the shadows seem to stalk im out of my mind
I feel like paranoia gets the best of me

yeah so baby im gone, try to fill conversation with validation
but you just want to chuck it back in my face no imagination
yeah if you just really want to hate me
At least just say it to me face say it to my face

if you just really wanted something  yeah
why can’t you just take it and let me just fucking leave
cus it always ends up this way
two best friends fighting over someone that we wanna hate


RipThePetals

Hate me, always love it when you tell me that you hate me
On these amphetamines, you tell me that you break me
All those words you've never spoken that I can't read
I’ve been abused in every fucking way so

You cant do a fucking thing to me
I see my demons when I’m smoking weed
I think about it they look just like you, when you know the truth, come crawling back to me

INVALID FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin

I wanna see you smile but I keep that on the low
I wanna make you mine yeah but you already know
that your wasting time yeah I take that as a blow
your knuckles hit the spine and now im passed out on the floor

you love to cut me down but you keep that on the low
you hate it when i leave but you keep begging for more
this isn’t love its fire and your burning at my soul
i try to win this time, but i keep begging for more

Ripthepetals

I’m over these meds and all the bitches in my fucking bed
I fall in love too easily
I'm over all of these texts that say you flaking to him, its so hard to say I want company

It's just another life I guess
Another fucked mistake my soul made
It's just another life i fucked up, baby im fucked up, give me a break

Rivilin

yeah it’s like my best intentions never seem to go to plan they’re just mistakes
you're just a toxin in my skin medicated to forget
im popping tags for serotonin always know it don’t work
so you lay me on a pedal stool to try make me feel like im worth it

but you know its toxic, don’t you know it fucks with chemicals
plagued with awful memories so im just forced to forget

Ripthepetals

I just wish that I was pretty as fuck, but ima jealous cunt, im throwing up in the bathroom
And no one else can compare to you, but it's not fair to you to say that i'm the one you want

I just wish that I was pretty as fuck, but ima jealous cunt, im throwing up in the bathroom
And no one else can compare to you, but it's not fair to you to say that i'm the one you want

KEEP ME ON THE LOW FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

yeah, is this just the price of existence
It’s nothing chemical I think it’s the distance
two wrongs make a right in the system 
and were both fucked in the head, what's the difference?


yeah I don’t feel the love or affection
sleep is better cus then my life is fiction
you always got time for him, 
so I sit in this dark room, steady wishing

yeah, I’ve been breaking bones to make it work
peel the fingernails you’re watching the skin burn
tell me what’s wrong? 
you’re always on ig live steady crying

yeah, maybe I was the asshole all along
watch the comments say that I was all wrong
I wish i wasn’t always alone, 
im always fucking alone, please pick up the phone

EXISTENCE; LOSING INTEREST FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals


RipThePetals

Icy Veins
Freeze within
Calm me down
Think like him

Passion fades from everyone I know
The flowers grow, when your all alone

It's nice to know you cared, I never cared at all
I never cared

Rivilin

ill pop a few more, i‘ll pop a few more
cus i don’t know where ill end up if I accept myself
valium to lithium yeah this is just a false hell
scratching at my faults until i end up hating myself

I turn the whip hard I flip the fucking car
and now im still struggling to put my head in place
Percocet’s to credit cards yeah my minds going numb now
do a few more lines so I can just forget about myself  

RipThePetals

Cigarette in my hand
Stains on my jeans from when the ash mixed with the tears
I'm in a false hell
And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, Im tryna get out

It wasn't fair i put you through that
Im manic, depressed, i'm in all this stress
I couldn't even tell that i was fucked up
And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, Im tryna get out

And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, I'm trying, trying

UNCOLOURED FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin

I always see your face
when im all alone when im all alone
now the embers snuffed it fades
at the bottom of a well at the bottom of a well

now its always hard to explain what it’s like to lose a friend
if I could reach up to the stars and bring him back would this all end
cus suicides and option but where will that get me
will i come back with the same fate and be embraced by misery

so ill sink ill sink never get up I won’t leave
so ill sink ill sink i dont wanna live when you’re not with me                   
so ill fall and crash yeah this isn’t how it meant to be
so ill fall and crash yeah how did you forget about me

RipThePetals

I've sat there
With the blade on my wrist
Too many times to count

Have you ever lost a friend
The pain never ends
It always lingers on and on and on
The urge so strong, so strong

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

BELOW FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

RipThePetals

Break me down
You just wanna use me for the crown
Petals falling down, they falling

Please dont trust me I don't even trust myself, i'll crawl out this hell
Please don't curse me, i'm too weak and fragile as a well
There's way too many symptoms that my doctor was told me
Bipolar was told and now im fucked and alone

Rivilin

I say what’s wrong like all the fucking time
I see tears flood when you look in my eyes
you push away like im not worth your time
I sink into some drugs so I can hide

it never really worked out did it
you hear about me convulsing on the floor
hitting my phone yeah it’s ringing 
not gonna pick it up no no no

cus last time I did you wanted to get back with me
your boyfriend found out and now  im hated for free
remember me as the kid with brown hair brown eyes
I came a long way since birch but im feeling fucking fine

yeah I gained a few plays now your fucking with me
with my so-called friends started this and left me to bleed
watching this circle yeah leave me behind 
they want to start a band without me but this is my dream

yeah I made it here on my own
I got new friends by my side they’re not fake like them
cus I can still hear my phone calling 
your calling, yeah why won’t it end

WHAT'S WRONG FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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RipThePetals

Body so cold
I'm on the road
You wanna go home

Cocaine drip down your nose
Body feel so cold

I don't like you
I don't even see you as a friend anymore

You know when it rain, yeah you bet it gone pour
Remember you came and you claimed you’re alone

I was there when you needed help
Now i'm alone, living in this hell

Body so cold
I'm on the road
You wanna go home

Rivilin

No i don’t get this, 
when you say im a fuck up and leave me alone oh

RipThePetals

Cocaine drip down your nose
Body feel so cold

Rivilin

Where do I go from here 
when I mentally fucked and I hear your call

RipThePetals

I don't like you
I don't even see you as a friend anymore

You know when it rain, yeah you bet it gone pour
Remember you came and you claimed you’re alone

Rivilin 

FUCK FUCK FUCK

RipThePetals

I was there when you needed help
Now i'm alone, living in this hell

IMAGERY FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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Rivilin

results of mistakes always end this way
yeah always coming back at me
im not gonna just turn up to be fake
take a piece of my soul yeah it’s free

should i just flake and walk away
cus its obvious the problem is me
pushing through the crowd ye calling my name
im gonna walk away and just fucking leave

Ripthepetals

I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk to me

I don’t really fuck with you no more, we were living our life just like a sweet teen movie
Fucking in your parent’s bed, no one else had a king-sized in your crib
Playing with my chest hair, it’s 3 am and there's sweat all on the bed
I see you still like my songs when I check on my Soundcloud

I hope that you still sing along, knowing that there about you

And how I fucking despise you

Rivilin

yeah like the Truman show is my life faked
cus everyone’s like an actor
yeah so predictable they’re just gonna take
yeah take everything from me

always tried and tested guess it didn’t work out
said I wasn’t gonna pass school and I should just leave
so I packed my bags headed on my way
found someone who I thought meant something to me

no, no I guess it’s just me overthinking 
drinking until I know my liver is  sinking
it feels like I am switching rooms everything im blinking
take me to a time where I am listening to Linkin park

when I was 9 years old 
yeah imagining im on the stage with them when I saw them live
yeah a kids fantasy were always so blissful
can I turn back time

PAINT ME OUT FT. RIPTHEPETALS

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

PAINT ME OUT FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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