its not personal, its strictly business
prod. @jolst @irby314

im drunk again
i miss your face
just wish that i 
could replace 
the memories 
that are haunting me 
i miss the simple pleasantries
like sitting with you
staring at the sea 
this sullen panic
slowly surrounds me 

you dont know
you dont know
wat you're doing to me
you dont know 
you dont know 

you never loved me and it shows
it hurts me more than u could ever know
that im not the one you chose...

i wake up, 4 am
staring at the clock
wishing that i was him 
u dont know what your doing to me
baby
thought you were the best
rip my heart 
out of my chest 
i know that you 
would do it all again

i know that youd do it all again
but lets be real 
you're proabably better off with him
you're probably better off with him

you're probably better off...

im drunk again
miss your face
just wish that i
was what you wanted...

Spotify

better off [+irby & jolst]

a little experimental song i did, the drums are mostly made up of things i recorded myself :) let me know what you think!

spotify

i think, and i think

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

christmas was never this cold (cxrter x tahtx)

Murder Ballad

Lyrics:
when I was a kid 
I thought I didn't exist
I painted my body white 
I was ashamed my skin
when I was a kid
I never had any friends
I’d do whatever you like 
I just wanted to fit in

all these voices in my head 
make me wish that I dead
they all say they love me now
but where was they way back when
I would never leave the house
on the couch til I go bed
thinking bout my fucked up life
wishing I was someone else

when I was a kid
(guitar break)
when I was a kid
(guitar break)

when I was a kid 
I thought I didn't exist
I painted my body white 
I was ashamed my skin
when I was a kid
I never had any friends
I’d do whatever you like 
I just wanted to fit in

all my thoughts & all my fears
are like headlights to a deer
I don't wanna die right now
but I did when I was ten
with my head up in the clouds
staring straight into abyss
never opening my mouth
scared of what they all might hear

when I was a kid
(guitar break)
when I was a kid
(guitar break)

when I was a kid 
I thought I didn't exist
I painted my body white 
I was ashamed my skin
when I was a kid
I never had any friends
I’d do whatever you like 
I just wanted to fit in

✦ Other Platforms

When I Was A Kid

<3
Been away from my "working station" for a while, wasnt gonna release this but it feels like ive been inactive for a long time. love you guys.
Heres the lyrics;
[Verse1]
Dont wanna get lost tonight
cuz baby youre my valentine
ima put the fire out
a thousand degrees when your skin touches mine

 [Break]
I cross my fingers, want you to stay
as always i dont really know what to say.
You're sitting right next to me, 
two cans filled with ice
Blank words mean nothing compared to your eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
And we talk about memories
How we used to live on the streets
climbing rooftops, always a treat
I knew the reason why my heart could beat
You were my drug, my nicotine
these memories flash by like a movie scene
I can't escape the past

[Hook]
You dont have to act like that
and i dont wanna do you like that
Dont get the idea that i ever will understand

[Verse 2]
Ive got a tendency to lose my shit when im stressed out
Ill go with honesty and tell you how i feel, right,

[Break 2]
Brush it off its a new day
There wasnt anything I could say
You didnt have to act like that
Never wanted to get back
Dont get the idea that i will ever understand
Bottom line is that im far ahead



[Hook]
You dont have to act like that
and i dont wanna do you like that
Dont get the idea that i ever will understand

2xU - for the last couple of days

Frozen hearts (ft. Guccihighwaters ) (Prod by. notmorgn)

Thanks to guccihighwaters & notmorgn!
Jacky B:
https://twitter.com/NotJackyB
https://www.instagram.com/notjackyb

Guccihighwaters:
https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters
https://www.instagram.com/guccihighwaters
https://twitter.com/guccihighwaters

notmorgn:
https://soundcloud.com/notmorgn

Lyrics:

Jacky B:
Bags around my eyes
Gotta close my blinds
Cant stand the sunlight
Sitting in my room
Its time to write
Demons in my sight
X's on my eyes
Cant stay up all night
You really hurt me
Now your gone
You said you loved me
Now i gotta stay strong
Walking down this pathway
Holding a can of jack
Hoping that i'm halfway
You were a mistake
Take drugs in my pastime
Fade into a poltergeist
Cant help me now
Don't need your advice
Leave me in the back
Isolated forever

Guccihighwaters:
I think you loved me the past
Always throwing shade
Isolated in the back
Fucking jaded
Really jaded from the past
Should i get really faded
And forget bout what we had
I think it’s time
For me to go
To run away
And find my home
Look at me
Define alone
Look at me
I fight alone
Young waster
Don’t need a chaser
No mixer
Straight to the face yeah
She would talk a lot of shit
Drink the whole bottle shit
Now she poppin all up my mentions
No kolonopin
Not like that
You used to be so different
Type back but
I’m the one dismissing

Jacky B:
Yea i'm isolated
Leave me alone
I'm heavily sedated
Put my headphones in
Block the world out
Walking down the street
Gotta change the route
All alone at night
Gotta walk to maccas faded
Yea i missed you
Not answering your calls
You traded me in
For a new guy
Now i drink just to get by


Tried to stay with you for ever
You left me like a feather
Smothered in the dirt forever
Now i'm stuck in the past
Back at the start
I don't think i'm gonna last
Don't know what i'm doing
Time to grab the glass
Take it straight to the face
I wanna leave this fucking place

Isolated (Feat. Guccihighwaters) (Prod. notmorgn)

@qawikamri
@polearm

this song is for everyone who supports me.

LYRICS:-
when i die
can you sing this lullaby? 
when you cry
remember im always in your heart

keep your head, stay strong, you'll be fine
dont worry about me, ill be fine
ill watch over you with a smile
when its tough, ill show you a sign

remember to be kind, even when its hard
even when its dark, wait for the morning light
promise you'll be alright, cos ill be by your side

so when i die
can you sing this lullaby?
when you cry
remember im always in your heart

imma leave with a smile on my face
with a can of arizona in my hand
all black fit like im convolk in new york
imma sprinkle molly rock, then hide it in my sock

ill be there in the form of a ghost
gonna haunt you for a night
when you needed me the most
ill break the law, it wont matter the cost
cos i just wanna hear the echos of your voice

When I Die (prod. Halberd)

@deliverbonjovi

cracked bottles on my grave, love
find me faded by the lake while the rain hits my head
hard times been feelin never endin
red wine in my cup, that's the best that ive been

i'll b there like a record u forgot that u had
take care, ur the only love that i ever had
i'll b there like a photo u found under ur bed
take care, ur the only one inside of my head

im gone, dont give a fuck about what u said
black heart, red blood on the end of my pen
writing wrongs in these songs, try the best that i can
gave my all to the wrong bitch, and now i feel dead
no i cannot wife that
i can barely hit without catchin feelings
and i know how much u like that
yeah, tell me how u like that

i'll b there like a record u forgot that u had
take care, ur the only love that i ever had
i'll b there like a photo u found under ur bed
take care, ur the only one inside of my head

inside my head
in the deepest parts of my mind
lays the severed ties
to myself, shown with bloodshot eyes
close them for a second
dont know, what could u miss?
secrets locked behind the lips
on her hips
blades on my wrist for the 5th time
i cant fuck with shit
i thought for a second there
that i had ur heart
like u had my ear
now i played my part
come and look right here
take a shot in the dark
when the rain gets near
i know it looks so far
but it all gets clear
with each and every knife in the back
dont miss me too much
im never coming back

Follow me <3

i'll b there (prod. deliverthecrush)

Fuck fake ass friends. on the real though, I love y'all <3
Mix & Master: @itsyungvan
Cover art: @SL33P1NCLASS

Lyrics-
Stabbed through the chest got me feeling like I’m Caeser
Et tu, Brute? got me writing a new heater
All my friends wanna tweet they don’t care though
As long they get their next song on the stereo
Fake ass friends wanna front say they love me
Strapped a bomb to my chest so don’t hug me
Words are cheap, let em talk with their money
All y’all broke you can’t even spend a hundred

2xU - for the last couple of days

Robin Lucious