Follow Me? :D

Suicide 自殺

prod. michael harrison

i hate this song .

screech

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

prod @notmorgn

chasin shit is so old to me 
but i could only fuckin breathe when you're close to me
and when im gone just remember im sorry
if i had a choice i would stop it in a heartbeat
but i cannot change this the way im created
yeah im livin off hatred at least i am creative
put my stacks in the bank when i die
i dont really feel like sharing bitch im selfish inside 
please come over don't ask me if im sober
cus i already told you im feeling bipolar 
some days im gucci other days im not
where'd the other days go I took too many shots

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

you're taking no hint from my actions
when u snap chat me i always hit back then
and when you're feeling down don't cry
i'd let u lay up on my body till the sunrise 
or till the sun dies look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me because soon im gonna die
6 feet under maggots crawling 
on my body and my bones
its quite weird that when im dead 
thats when i feel most at home

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

or till the sun dies look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me because soon im gonna die
6 feet under maggots crawling 
on my body and my bones
its quite weird that when im dead 
thats when i feel most at home

anything for your love

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu

yt: https://youtu.be/SLIKZXjkIu8

i thought that i had told myself
not to fucking fall in love
now i fucking find myself
singing to you in my songs

im sure im gonna hurt you girl
so you better stay away
know that youre at loss for words
i just dont know what else to say

i dont wanna be
the reason that you bleed
girl you better leave
yeah im trynna make you see

youre better off alone
at least youll still be free
while im smoking weed
for the scars im trynna heal
x2

while i find myself x3
ill never find myself

find myself (prod. kuroime)

Pain - October 22nd

Everything on the track was made by me.
<3
LYRICS:
(intro)
Im sorry i couldnt meet your needs
Cuz of what i am not thats just how my demons feed
I dont know who you want me to be
Im just another nobody

(Verse)
follow me baby
i dont wanna be alone
Drive me crazy
cant care of my own

Never switched a light in your house
If theres something wrong with me just go all out

Dont tell me no more lies, i will flip out.
Had enough of this, cant look me in the eyes

(Break/Pre-Chorus)
You wouldnt look at me 
when i told you that you're beautiful
Yeah ive been on my knees, unmovable
but you go back to him as usual

You're still hiding something i can tell
I see it in your eyes you feel ashamed
Never been bad, but I'm in hell
Ive never really cried, i just feel drained

(Hook)
Dont fuckin text me, out all night. 
Dont fuckin talk to me im alright.
2018 new year, Ill be grinding now
Ima ride these waves somehow

2xU - Secrets

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Make It Through Fall

skull design by https://www.instagram.com/thehailing/
prod. @notmorgn

they say you gotta make a change
if you wanna feel better
now i’m pushing weight
bursting out my favorite sweater
fuck the opposition
imma smoke em in a second
yeah I kill time that’s the way
that I spend it
and i don’t wanna die but my brain think different
wanna feel fine but i act so distant
and i don’t wanna doubt but my dreams fictitious
not enough energy to break out the system
wake up with the same mindset
my plate got to much to digest
inspiration too rare to even find it
so i fight my way through the violence
had the dream again
the one you’re screaming in
the one i wake up
still feelings deep within
i’m so sorry
i had to do that
i broke everything
the pieces wouldn’t glue back

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

i’m just here filling up the space
i’m just here filling up the space

my vision 20/20
but my problems aren’t clear to me
im seeking opportunities but 
fuck them up so frequently like
i can’t stop it
i make myself nauseous
i turn a good girl to
a bitch that is toxic
i don’t wanna always do that
just wanna make you happy
if your moods bad
not feeling too good
about the truth myself
but i gotta dust off
what’s on my shelf

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

2xU - Secrets

Robin Lucious