I felt this same way bro, but I was 13, I was young but same exact situation and same feelings

Damn this is making me feel lucky. My friend tried sui after her bf killed himself. I helped her on the phone not commit. We have been together for 2 years now.

I love how fucked up and real asf this song is

It’s been so long, Why does her absence hurt still?

Finally found it. The end for my suicide playlist

original sample by chloe george - ig: @chloegeorgeya

@rxseboy - nothing hurts anymore (prod. con)

Leaving

Leaving (feat. the bootleg boy & Heroe)

i don't wanna be me anymore

i don't wanna be me anymore (feat. Julia Alexa & Zaini)

I wrote this a while ago, so a lot has changed ever since, sorry for my inactivity on soundcloud, i had no way to record for a while, but I'm back now, and thank you for listening.

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Broken but Thankful, Pt. 2 (feat. Shiloh Dynasty)

Heres a song off my upcoming EP called Heartbreak & Bad Habits
hope you fuck with it
Kuzu Mellow: @kuzumellow
draffish: @draffish
art: @oddyssi

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Heartbreak ft. Kuzu Mellow (prod. draffish)

You Are Not Charles Bukowski

instagram: @cavasoul
artwork instagram: @organict3a

lyrics:

i don’t wanna go to sleep and waste my time to be awake/ only time i feel of use is when i’m with you in the day/ cherish every single moment before you ever go away/ i know you gotta go but i just wish that you could stay/ yeah you’re all i ever think about even when you’re with me/ you have made my dreams come true like the place called disney/ we could get away i don’t think anyone would miss me/ live in isolation on an island tell me you’ll come with me/ from blue moods to blue skies you change up the weather/ i’ve never ever heard someone tell me to do better/ you just look so good when you’re drowning in my sweater/ all the fun we have is lighthearted like a feather/ every single day i look back on it smiling/ you could call us hoarders all these memories we piling/ watch romantic comedies both of us are bawling/ it’s like i can’t stay on my feet cause i just keep on falling/



last night i had a nightmare/ where i woke up and you weren’t there/ feel like i’m going crazy/ i just need to see you baby/



yeah last night i had a nightmare/ you said you had to go/ you left me in the dust/ except i’m laying on my floor/ i asked myself what i did to make you wanna leave/ i got a text from you saying that you didn’t love me/ anymore/ heartbroken and i don’t know what to do/ all the time and effort that i put into you/ is all wasted and the skies are no longer blue/ i feel anxious i can’t be here i think i need to move/ so i pack up all my things and i put them in the trunk/ trying to forget that i recently got dumped/ now i’m speeding on the highway and the rain is pouring down/ i was feeling scared cause i had to leave my town/ it just felt so real and i just hoped it wouldn’t last/ i’m bracing for impact and the car was coming fast/ life flashed before my eyes you were the last thing i’d see/ but then i woke up and you were there right beside me/

last night i had a nightmare (prod. slowet)

i'm so sorry </3

ft. @powfu @mishaal

produced by con

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@rxseboy x @powfu x @mishaal - when we were 16 (prod. con)

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listen close to my words

produced by Ocean Beats
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpipAjo9fIhDMXOoo0Mm86Q

@rxseboy - i'm a ghost but it hurts (prod. ocean)

Follow @rxseboy @powfu cause they're both insanely talented.

prod. by Thomas Reid

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Rxseboy:
I was out here for a minute on my lonely.
You were doing drugs in your room feeling broken.
Told me, you were having trouble staying focused.
Got with the wrong crowd, thought you could open up.

Backfired, you were eighteen.
Every memory turning into a daydream.
Zoning out.
What’s that about? you won’t tell me.
Lied to my face when you said you were healthy.

I never said ‘leave.’
I begged you to stay.
Every other day said you wanna go away.
Putting food on your plate.
Then it switched to a platter.
You looked in my eyes said it didn’t even matter.

Used to stay home, watch a movie on the couch.
Now you all alone wit a pill in your mouth.
Take a sip of the alc’ while you thinking of me.
Envisioning every single thing that we never could be.

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Hoping you stay
Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Are you okay?

Rxseboy:
Stressed out, blaming everyone around you.
In the same boat, but I wouldn’t call it powfu.
Everyday, wanna make up, dunno how to.
Said you stopped drinking again, girl I’m proud too.

Get too high, I could bring you down.
On a trip, hit you back when I’m back in town.
We got two different lives.
two different vibes.
Doing drugs, I don’t, that’s two different highs.

Promised me I could hold you.
Look at your scars, think I’m here with the old you.
We were so young, living lavish with no rules.
Now I’m doing work while you still getting home schooled.

Disappointed in us and I can’t lie.
Disagreed when you said that we can’t try.
Know you said I’m a fool, girl am I?
Don’t forget that I’m here on standby.

Powfu:
Yeah, I’m on standby
If you wanna talk you can pass by
Used to visit me at work all the damn time
When you leaving me “on seen” I’m a sad guy

Quit this shit I’ll hate myself if I lose you
Pass the torch before the flames consume you
Tryna figure out a way, running out of options
(I’m trying to help you!)
Just stop this please
Before it’s too late
You don’t think I’m serious I’ll tat it on my face
You don’t need drugs, be addicted to my love
Your friends never cared but I’m here to keep in touch

My parents still together and they met in the 70’s
Me don’t gotta split be the couple of century
Yuh feels like a movie but I’m still in love
When we offset
I’ve been thinking of you more even though we talk less

Sink in the sand
Always turn away when I offer you my hand
I see that you’re hurting
Don’t deserve it
Sitting in the dark, open up your curtains

I don’t wanna see you die
I don’t wanna be that guy that sits on the side
One step at a time
We’ll take you one step at a time

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Are You Okay?

Thomas Reid & Rxseboy - Are You Okay? (feat. Powfu)

prod @eric-godlow

lyrics:

yeah she cries allot, and honestly its pretty hard
it feels like evertime we talk we end up further apart
and, i don't know where to start, 
it feels like everytime i talk to you i'm breaking your heart

it's so bizarre, its so crazy, 
i never thought that anyone would ever date me

she said stop, stop toolin with my head
you promised me you'd never leave, that's what you had said, 
now i'm all alone, you got me cryin in our bed, 
most of all i miss my parents, i miss my friends

i hate the way i'm feelin and its only gettin worse
i got you screamin out "stop", while i scream it fucking hurts
words can do some damage, didn't know that they would scar
still i love you more than anything i hate when were apart

yeah she cries allot, and honestly its pretty hard
it feels like evertime we talk we end up further apart
and, i don't know where to start, 
it feels like everytime i talk to you i'm breaking your heart

it's so bizarre, its so crazy, 
i never thought that anyone would ever date me

no, i don't wanna yell but baby girl you're all i have
i need you hearin what i say and if you need i'll run it back
i know that life can feel dull when you're lonely as fuck
its like you're trippin over everything you're stuck in the mud

its so absurd huh, the way i'm writin in the verse
i got some flow you never heard before, there's pain in every word
and i ain't never been the type to be like "nothing ever works"
but if i am its cause i lost you that's some shit that i deserve

i can be your home (prod. eric godlow)

Sins

@sadboyprolific
@le_play

lyrics:

SadBoyProlific:

i hate when im left on my own again
im just a broken kid hoping for someone to hold em quick
lost in emotions and potions this 
is me reaching and you cant even notice it 
you took my heart and then froze it quick
locked up the door and my chest and regret that i opened it 
vision is slow and cant focus i feel like my head is exploding 
shits getting old and my time is approaching 
this is a mindset i think that my minds fuckin broken 
just look at the way that im coping 
ounce nothing less what im smoking
this is the life that ive chosen 
and ive had regrets every step of the way 
puffed up my chest as i left through the flame 
left you for dead and in my head im insane
dead for a red as i bled out in pain

Le Play:
what do you want from me 
this is just honesty cuz honestly ill fall asleep
before it gets hard to breathe 
ill constantly just fall to piece 
you know its hard for me but still you pry so modernly
this is a tragedy or more just like a comedy
keep playing the victim i know all of the lies your tryna sell
im stuck in this room thats full of these mirros all i got is myself
you know i live for the pain 
you know im stuck in the rain 
i do it again and again and again 
and everythings broken and always in vein

boots (Le play X SadBoyProlific)

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Artwork / Recorded / Mixed by @illfaith



[Lyrics]
I feel so unoriginal
The side effects are almost invisible
This song might leave me close to critical
The aftermath of a life lived cynical

I know I know I've heard it all before
And when you leave please shut the door
Last thing I need is another love more
Cause you know when it rains it tends to pour

I left my umbrella right beside your bed
We drank too much; the words ring in my head
Wonder what life's like if I'm dead
Maybe I should have kept on my meds

It's hard to believe everything you've said
Harder for you to trust me instead
If all else fails and your love has fled
I'll kiss the photographs you left on read

Everytime I let it go
You come around with that hello
Swear this time won't let it show
But if I know you know; we know

We'll end up back in bed to throw
Away the pain; at night we glow
Like fireflies in bitter snow
Tomorrow wishing we had went slow

Wake up don't know what to do
You're gone but I already knew
Check my phone "I'm missing you"
I can't believe I miss you too

The alcohol had me a- skew
Can't forget what we went through
Girl, you don't wanna be my glue
Too far broken afraid it's true

Do you hate me the way I hate myself?
I can never seem to do what's good for my health
A million riches, but you're my only wealth
Broken frames left of us on top the highest shelf

I feel so unoriginal
The side effects are almost invisible
This song might leave me close to critical
The aftermath of a life lived cynical

I know I know I've heard it all before
And when you leave please shut the door
Last thing I need is another love more
Cause you know when it rains it tends to pour

I left my umbrella right beside your bed
We drank too much; the words ring in my head
Wonder what life's like if I'm dead
Maybe I should have kept with you instead

Unoriginal (prod. Tennis Player)

Feel So Blue (feat. Powfu & Beowulf)

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Snøw & Skinny Atlas - Feel So Blue (feat. Powfu, Jomie & Beowulf)

“Because it's my life. If I give up now, I'd feel sorry for myself." ~KM

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