Look at all this pain I’m in
I can't find myself again
I could never be your friend
I don’t like your energy
Taking its control of me
Grip too tight my lungs can’t breathe
Finding it impossible
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again

Can’t take the words you say back
Just know I never forgot that
Feelings about to attack
Hard to cope when there’s a knife in my back
Is this what you want
Love to spill my blood
You do this just for fun
It looks like you’ve won

Don’t look back
I don’t know why everybody says that
The past is somewhere that I wanna be at
It hurts to say, but I get sentimental

Look at all this pain I’m in
I can't find myself again
I could never be your friend
I don’t like your energy
Taking its control of me
Grip too tight my lungs can’t breathe
Finding it impossible
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again

idontlikeyou

i can sense a lie when you say it to my face
i collect the memories
they take me to a place
far away from home
its a plane i feel okay at
somewhere i can rest my mind
no worries
its my favorite

only hit me up when you want something from me
tried to take my heart
now its under lock and key
you claim to be bored again and im not entertaining
barely still alive and youre killing whats remaining

im okay
i promise
wasnt what you wanted
shouldve known to start with
but thats why i want it

homesick

--wrote this in the beginning of october--

im staying up all night, i cant stop to cry
dont tell me i will get better cus i'll be gone 'fore december
she loves these fucked up eyes
in another life i might be living forever i want someone to remember
the way i felt these days when they called me crazy
give me 16 days and that bitch will hate me
its okay
yea its okay
i'll be okay, she'll be okay :)

december (hateful)

prod branwenteeayemadeit!

breathing on sorbet
bitch i am gormet
i dig first class flights 
and i dont pay no 
i dont pay no entry price
that bitch is spice
that girl is nice 
yh i wanna fight

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt making sense/cents at all
i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt missing rent to ball
for my moms sake, i wish i could say
i dont miss smoking every night and every day

theres only so much i can say inside a letter cause its pricey as fuck and it wont make u feel better

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

look out my window like who da fuck is dat
i dunno im the queen of the maw
im the queen of the hive
im the queen of this life
baby life is like a combine
shoot that boy between his eyes

sorbettt

teeayemadeit

had another dream last night
that i was runnin' away from a monster
and that monster was me
it had my cold dead corpse 
hangin' from its teeth
when finally i met the reaper beggin on my knees

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

cuz i dont really give af about myself
in fact im always wishin that i could just be someone else
think id be better off locked up in a cell
i think id rather that
than being trapped in this hell

they used to tell me its a phase
but i still hate my own face...

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

i dont wanna try
ive never been alright
i dont wanna try
ive never been alright!!!

take me away rn! [+gaxillic]

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by mampitsu
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
What I got's not much
Don't know a lot
But I know one thing for sure
That I'll never ever stop
No I won't give up
These things are worth fighting for
Or even dying for
It's nice to think I have a cause
I'd make the sacrifice
I'd pay the price
No matter what the cost

I'd take the brunt so you don't have to
Worry for a thing at all
When the little things mean everything
My problems seems so
Small town living just the way it should be
Got a brand new lease
But the same old me
'til the day I'm deceased
Here's where I plant my feet
Repping the dairy state
'Cause my lyrics cheese

At least I got a family to come home to
Depression and anxiety
Two things that I'm prone to
I've suffered a lot
I'd like to think that I've grown too
Still I've got so much left to prove

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The Dairy State (Prod. w/ mampitsu)

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by @irby134
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
It’s hard for me to make peace with this
Can’t shake this sense of abandonment
You left me feeling misplaced
Like I don’t really fit in
You were a friend to me back then
But now we’re broken irrevocably
It can’t be mended
Who knows what went on in your head
The path you chose was selfish

But I stuck out my neck anyway
And I believed you every time you swore to me that you’d change
The path you chose could only lead one way
Towards your self destruction and an early grave

But what about all those you left behind
At only twenty-five
That’s too young to die
To put your vice above your life
That’s suicide

Misplaced (Prod. w/ irby)

ich will einfach nur hier weg
zu viele problems in meinem head
ich schieb anxiety attacks
lieg ich allein in meinem bett
ja baby sag mir was du denkst
sind die gefühle für mich echt?
ich bin allein und smoke ein pack
ich schieb anxiety attacks

spür ein stechen in der lunge
guess die kippe war zu viel
ja ich weiß ich sterbe jung
ich hab doch eh nichts zu verlier'n
ich hab alles schon verloren
girl ich wünschte du wärst hier
war das alles nur gelogen?
guess die liebe war nicht real

ich geb dir alles was ich habe doch es ist nie genug
lieb dich bis ende meiner tage doch ich tu dir nicht gut
ich verstecke meine narben und ich nehm noch nen zug
ich will dir 1000 dinge sagen, girl ich hoff du hörst zu

ich will einfach nur hier weg
zu viele problems in meinem head
ich schieb anxiety attacks
lieg ich allein in meinem bett
ja baby sag mir was du denkst
sind die gefühle für mich echt?
ich bin allein und smoke ein pack
ich schieb anxiety attacks

schieb anxiety attacks
liege wach in meinem bett
such die liebe seit paar jahren
find nur lügen oder cap
trinke vino ohne grund
rauch ne kippe, lunge black
meine freunde sehen zu wie ich leere blister stack

weil das alles meine wunden heilt
und ich immer weiter tiefer fall
du bist der grund für die anxiety
ich hab panik vor society

ich hab panik vor mir selbst
vor meinem schicksal, vor meinem end
deine liebe war gefaked
warum sah ich das so late?

ich will einfach nur hier weg
zu viele problems in meinem head
ich schieb anxiety attacks
lieg ich allein in meinem bett
ja baby sag mir was du denkst
sind die gefühle für mich echt?
ich bin allein und smoke ein pack
ich schieb anxiety attacks

anxiety attacks w/gamma (dxnnyfxntom x jkei)

"lim onnat"
Performed by thekidbbs + jwasabi + donmarco
Written by thekidbbs + jwasabi + donmarco
Produced by kashmovere + dreamz + fr4ud + ohtee
Mixed by thekidbbs + jwasabi + donmarco
Mastered by thekidbbs

Oh yeah

Soon as I walk in, if she bad, I'm on it (been on that)
Up until five in the morning, I be up early recording
Ain't talking bout money, I'm snoring
I come when the storm hit, I go when the war end
I like em classy & boring (fasho)

Please don't feel too entitled
We got them rocs like tidal
6:16, I live for survival
I got some brothers in Johnny's & Strikers, pushin' it like it's their item
I got a B in my name like the Actor, but I'm still balling like Michael

Go to Paris, I'm tryna meet the Eiffel
I don't care bout your crew, I don't like em
I just walk in the booth, I don't write em
I meant to hit your phone up before, I'm sorry I forgot to write you
Who do it the best? yeah, I do
When I'm back in the west, I'll see you
But until then, I'm movin' idle

I done met most of my idols
I remember I was viral
I'm probably my only rival (oh yeah)
Now she waitin' just for my arrival
I need them plaques like Pitbull
I got them wings like Red Bull
Speak on my name, I ain't hearing you
Me and twins scammin' off fanduel

We not in Hollywood, why you actin?
Your nigga down bad, tragic
He say he give a tool, but I don't believe him, I'ma have to inspect that gadget
Hate when niggas be fake flexin' and don't really have it, havin' pennies like magic (it's hard work)
And she fuck with my swag, fashion
He not addin' up, I'ma subtract him

Me and twin pop out, we the shit
No, I can't spend a dime on that bitch
Me and B.B.S been goin' hard for a minute, I think we forgot how to miss
Okay, I'm finna call up bro, he gon send me a pack, now I'm fried as shit (balling)
She so bad that I got to hit, but after I'm done, I'm not paying a tip, on god

Soon as I walk in, if she bad, I'm on it
Up until five in the morning, I be up early recording
Ain't talking bout money, I'm snoring
I come when the storm hit, I go when the war end
I like em classy & boring

Huh, I wasn't even taking it serious
I was just having funny, haha (been onnat)
Bbs, go, go, go, go, go
Thinkin I'm new to this, haha
I got it now

anxiety attacks w/gamma (dxnnyfxntom x jkei)

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