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woa woa woa woa

sippin on sum henny im not kidin but im rly on my shit again
dont wry im indifferent
2 all the shit u put me thru u make me think i wish i was a kid again
so i dont gotta deal wit all of this

hollow heart
needa restart
journey embarked
plz find me
(i cant heal, its surreal, i cant feel nah i cant feel)

anything but hatred frm the btm of my hollow heart
id do whatever i had to do to wrap u in my arms
dont think itll happen so im tippin back moscato yuh
i aint finna stop until im finished wit the bottle nah

i aint finna stop until i make it 2 the big leagues
its my fucking time 2 shine i got talent inside of me
never had the motive or the means 2 even do so
but now im in the scene n ima run it shoutout @dizzyfrompluto

shoutout @dizzyfrompluto
shoutout @jadedloner
if i didnt have yall there i nvr woulda made it!

nvr woulda made it woulda never even started
parked it
heartless
sunk in2 the bottom

now im climbin 2 the top yall know me as an artist
and im just rly havin fun this shit aint even serious

i been out here workin on my craft but yall been goofy
rappin bout ur thousand dollar hats n all ur gucci
when u aint even got it like that u just a groupie
man i fuckin hate it when u say ur life a movieeeeeeeeee

den a buncha ibfwvbwerivbbvvouvouewvougwveouwevobu :>

2 (caves x jolst x emptychest)

lyrics <3

I'm sick of the bad weather
I ain't gotta lot 2 give but I'm a go getter
maybe I'll get off the shit and then I'll feel better
but thats never gonna happen til my strings are severed

I ain't ever been the type to be a goal setter
I'm a pessimistic kid wit no hope to last out until November
but that shit ain't ever mattered
ima out the 40 to my head and let it splatter
splatter splatter

let the fuckin mirror shatter
put my fist in2 it let it bloody up until my thoughts are scattered
turning up the radio to listen to the police chatter
they just put like 14 rounds into a bystander

ion fuckin get it
how we gonna let em move on when they kill our children
how the fuck we let em sit there and just waste the minutes
when a kid pulled out a gun and murdered 19 students
it doesn't make sense

ion think ill ever understand
how society gon let em slip by wit the shit not go n stand
up for ourselves again
cuz all we do is bitch on social media and make a post about it

I think I could live witout it
but if it wasn't for the internet our message could never be heard
but we can't stop at talking bout it
we just gotta go and put sum politicians 6 feet in the dirt

put em underneath the fuckin floorboards
o u thought that I was done talking? lemme say more
this is what they paid for
to create chaotic tendencies amongst all of the people

they started the race war
just to scare of us each each so we cannot stand and then demand more

this is what they made for
hopin that we kill off every tenant tryna stand against the landlords

stand against the opposition
put me in an odd position
why can't anybody listen
to the shit I have to say

lately I been rockin wit it
maybe we should stop a minute
think about the wrong decision that we as a people made

when we elected the current officials
the things that they vote for are fuckin abysmal
they only care about their own beneficials
and let us just r o t in the mess that they tripled




4 (sorrow bringer)

i remember fl 12 up on my satellite
i remember when i got the shitty focusrite
2nd gen solo wit the broken always lit up light
dropped 200 on it but atleast i got a mic

i got a way to uncompress all of my feelings
the folders way too big its gone corrupt no chance of healing
anxiety and  stress just raise the pressure to the ceiling
until i fuckin burst and all my friends just see the real me

but i dont know who i am
im almost 21 years old and what the fuck is my plan
im sick of people claiming family but dont give a damn
i try to grasp on to what i love but my fingers are jammed
fuck

shoutout pluto for the way you helped me from the start
was always there for me you hold a place inside my heart
ur like a brother and i cannot thank you quite enough
id love to stay but all this shit has gotten way too rough

id love to stay but i believe that its my time to go
i hope that when im gone youll listen to this as a note
i hope you start to analyze the lyrics that i wrote
when i was at my fuckin lowest wit no chance of hope

and i cannot see the birhgt side
always been a pessimistic cunt without a lifeline
never had someone to hold or even one to talk to
but that was until october 19th when i met you

thank you ally for the way you make me feel okay
thank you ally for wiping the tears off of my face
maybe ill be perfect and ill have the words to say
but at least for now im happy wit u in my place

i just hit 10 thousnad plays and its because of you
never woulda had an outlet for my navy blue
now im burnt out and i dont know what the fuck to do
so i guess il say goodbye and leave the scene to bloom
and i know that you gon be okay without me
everybody doin their own thing and founding
their collectives and their labels fuck the indsutry
aint nobody give a fuck abou you in the scene

everybody only care about themselves
try to latch onto the edge of fame and i just fuckin fell
try to battle wit the music and my own mental health
i cant keep it in no more im scared ill end up in hell

for the sins that i project upon the people in this room
am i really blowin up or am i left here to be doomed
i wanna hot box in my car wit the motherfucking exhaust fumes
cuz you never woulda been there for me motherfucker fuck you
fuck

but now im movin on to bigger things
i pinky promise im okay dont worry about me
dont worry bout the things i do dont watch me as i bleed
onto the flower carpet that i got when i was 17

so believe me when i tell you that im sorry
i know my disappearence is super fuckin dishearteniing
but its good for me dont see it as alarming
im like a loaded gun with no safe method to disarm me

i know my friends are really sad to see me walk away
got 10 thousand plays but got no raise within my little fame
i wont see the day i hit a million cuz ill be gray
and 6 feet under with the way that things have gone today

so i guess this is the end my final time has come
i declared a war not knowing of the outcome
i went in over my head i thought that i had won
but i ate my fucking words like ima eat this fucking gun

they say that you can only get so high
before you crash and burn when you fall out of the blue sky
im done acting like i car im sick of this disguise
so ima bite the bullet literally and meet demise

dont act like you knew me whenever i die
everybody saying "oh i rly liked that guy"
then tell me why you couldnt help when i was alive
so this is the ending of my life
this is my last goodbye

goodbye. (jewelryboy)

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace ft. popularreject (hero)

If theres one thing for certain
Its time 
Time Will kill us all in the end
Death is the only thing thats guaranteed in our lifetimes
And we cant take that for granted
We must embrace it and take it it all in 
Embrace
The end

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

I promise i wont be okay tho
All of the words gettin twisted around and my head is a fuckin tornado
I wanna say how i feel but i promised you thats a promise i cant break tho
When i turn up on the side of the road i just know someones takin my place oh

All these people round me
Make me feel like im a zombie
I cant tell you bout what i see
Cuz the demons gonna haunt me

and they tell me a prodigy
thats something i could mever be
the bright side i could never see
so this gon be the death of me

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

time is nothing but relentless

time is nothing but relentless (santana)

due time ft. chriad (prod. safeatlast)

As i fade away
I suffocate
I handle the blade and alleviate
The writhing pain
I felt today
When i found out the eternity of my fate

Im dealt these cards
And i cant get far
My stillborn heart
Will not restart

Take it away from me
Before i hurt myself
Im not too well

baby ur all that i need
when i’m stuck inside my shell
this stupid hell

don’t look back
when you walk away
i’m too far gone
I cant be saved

so tell me what’s real is it all in my head?
did u ever mean anything that you said
heart swellin up cuz it’s fillin with dread
don’t wanna fix it i’ll stop it instead

what is the point if i can’t even have this
it was my fault now it’s lost in the past tense 
i’m bleeding out while ur sitting there laughing
at my expense so i’m just getting blasted

i drink too much it’s a really bad habit
life is a test and i don’t wanna pass it
cant show my pain so i’ll sit here and mask it
even when you took my heart and stabbed it

don’t look at me
when i’m weeping from my sins 
im on my knees
will i sink or will i swim

follow still vanishing

suffocate (still vanishing)

@nothingnowheremusic
@killbreanna

what if it’s too late to go back
if it’s too late i won’t know that
maybe today i can photograph
my own suicide wit da kodak

2g of sticky i roll that
to let out the feelings i hold back
sellin my life it’s on rollback
i don’t ever want my soul back
so

believe me i’m okay
i would never lie to you no
believe me there’s no way
that ima let you walk out the door

stand in the doorway
blocking you from leaving your home
you belong here close to me
don’t you leave me out in the cold

don’t leave me out here to rot
don’t believe me when i say i’m okay truly i’m not
i want you back more than i thought
but now it’s too late for me i could never save you a spot

can’t save that spot for you it’s not mine to be savin
i’m not meant for you my heart is truly vacant
i can’t be there for you cant be your safehaven
i don’t wanna do this i refuse to be complacent

its too late, to save, my sanity
you cant, expect, any change

too late (nothing, nowhere. x kill breanna)

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void yuuuuhhhh


stabbed m e in the back again
everything u said was problematic
never rly cared enough 2 ask me how my day been
bad as shit
every single f unctions automatic 
everytime im smilin just know that i been fakin it

fake shit thats all u ever gave me
u would fuck wit all of my emotions on the daily
baby u were toxic thats all u ever were 2 me
thought that i was tripping but you really did me dirty
i see all the red flags
wish i saw em back then
u can keep my hoodies ion even want em back bitch  
only cared about the bag
all that u was chasin
wish it woulda worked out but that shit was makeshift
i been restless
cant sleep
all this fuckin weight on my chest i cant breathe
and the fuckin way that you left me with ease
made me really feel like im dying in peace
nah

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void

restless II (metlast)

maybe ill wake up and realize its way worse than i thought it was
im sick of time im sick of lies im sick of hearing things from above
the voices that sit in my head been just convincin me to draw the gun
and put a fucking round inside my skull and i just might succumb
to thoughts

what havent i lost
why havent i let my feelings out the box
why havent i let all this shit go
smokin on indo
tryna get rid of the rot takin over my brain

maybe im just fuckin goin insane
maybe im sick of the infinite pain
all of these feelings can never be tamed
never be tamed til im dead in a grave

so what do you take me for?
someone to use and always abuse like 
what are you waitin for?
you lit the fuse left me dead in my shoes and
what are you fakin for?
thought i loved you it was a only a ruse no-
thing to be patient for
ive been accused of the same shit that you do

the same shit you did to me

baby i am not ur enemy
thought youd always be a friend of me
thought youd always have my back til the end of our time but you shot me like kennedy

took the shot like hennesey
now im seeking my serenity
now im seeking my identity cuz

i am nothin but a 
but a

a sack of shit
i did it again oh wait
been killin myself ever since the beginnin im reaching the end of my days

 tell me you played me 
tell me you hate me
tell me like anything

you been blocking me out since the day that i met you im glad that we ended things

so what do you take me for?
tell me right now cuz im gettin real sick of it
what are you waitin for?
im never comin back this is the end of it
what are you fakin for?
you never cared this is why i resented it
nothing to be patient for
you broke my heart and i cant reassemble it

divine (santana)

prod. safeatlast, no samples <3
@breckenford

dont leave me alone here
i dont know what you see here

so i try and i try just to make you remember
the way that you left me alone in september
drink on my own ima drink til december
wont pick up the phone no i wont ever answer

so please let me go
i dont need you no more

say what you want cuz i wont ever listen
my body cant go on i cant make the distance
i cant tell my rights from my lefts whats the difference
if you were to stay or just leave in a minute

i wont admit it
ive reached my limit
ive reached the end of my life whens the next one
cant bear to look in your eyes since i messed up

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell
i hope that ur resting well

i hope that we meet again
cuz i been trapped inside this cell
and i cant break myself out

[FøRD:]

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

i cant tell you what I want in my life no more
telling the truth I think it’s time to cut the cord
deathly afraid of heartbreak cuz i can’t afford
anymore time with a girl who only ignores
so what do I do? Stick to my lonely
substance abuse “I don’t need you”, not what you told me

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back

i hope that we meet again ft. brecken

take what you need
take the rest of me
been nauseous all week
you've been haunting my dreams

don't tell me you care
you're sittin right there
fuckin around while i rip out my hair

so tell me
was it worth it
i had never meant to be a burden

tell me was it worth it
i don't wanna wake up i don't think there is a purpose

but does there have to be a reason
i don't wanna be here anymore i'm barely breathing

while you're barely bleedin
you're the only reason that i'm drowning in the deep end

so rip out my heart 
tear it apart
if i were to keep it i'd have to restart

if that's what you want
i'll pack and depart
i'll gather my shit and head straight to vermont

to be with the trees
is all that i need
i don't need you here
i just want all the evergreens

and i might fall apart beneath the trees
that overlook the spot we used to meet
i promise that it's everything i need
should have never worn my heart upon my sleeve

and i might fall apart beneath the roses
a deathwish and a pocket full of poems
i promised you but you ain't even notice
i hate myself i'm drowning at my lowest

a pocket full of poems (king theta)

shoutout to @kennyorlando for helping me finish this <3


[safeatlast:]
so cold
waiting for sum1 to hold
me as i try to get warm
get me away from the snow
at least thats how i used to feel

take me back to winters in toronto
take me back to drowning every minute in the bottle
take me to when i could be proud of myself oh
take me back to feeling sumthin other than the sorrow

AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

[Kenny Orlando:]
i wish it was easier than following my heart
cause its given me nothing but nightmares and problems
one minute im drowning 
the next second im all in
im sinking 
im falling 
right down to
the bottom
take me back to the time 
where we were doing fine 
both of us 
where the love was 
can you take me back to the city
where everything felt so pretty 
AND I HATE THAT EVERYTHING’S BROKEN
WISH I COULD TAKE BACK 
AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT 
THE DAYS PASS
ITS KILLING ME 
FILLING ME 
WITH THIS COLD AND DARK HOLLOWNESS

[safeatlast:]
AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

fall apart

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

prod. by @thesoundofgivingup and @safeatlast

im not the person u used to know
im sry im unusual
dont tell me that ur sorry girl im sorry cuz im used to those

i been nothin but delusional
im waiting for my funeral
cuz everytime i hear ur voice its drowned out by a song that goes
wooooahhhhhh
wooooahhhhhh

im fuckin sick of this everyday cycle
they left me 2 bleed but my organs arent vital
theyll drown out my screams with the sounds of recitals
cuz i am just another kid that claims theyre suicidal

a suit and tie is suitable to transfer to the other side
there is not a glimpse of hatred comin from my tired eyes
i cant even think straight cuz im riddled with a tired mind
kick me to the curb im tired of bein on the sidelines

static
stand still lock on scope automatic
take out my soul wit a blade to the back and
just end all my habits when you come in slashin
im not comin back to the past where i left you behind
end it all when i pull out the knife
pray to god at the end of the line
pray to god this the end of my life

static

prod. santana x nihil
shoutout @notcursed for helping me finish this one <3

[safeatlast:]

so cold
leave me alone here to die in the snow
steady removing the lump from my throat
scars on my feet cuz i took the wrong road

dont go
leavin my body alone to the wolves
steady removing the knife from my skull
scars on my neck from the blade that you hold

so cold
leave me alone here to die in the snow
steady removing the lump from my throat
scars on my feet cuz i took the wrong road

dont go
leavin my body alone to the wolves
steady removing the knife from my skull
scars on my neck from the blade that you hold

thought wed be together til we gone
always said ur mine but now youre not
feelin like my hearts been fuckin shot

thought wed be together til we gone
always said ur mine but now youre not
feelin like my hearts been fuckin shot

[sample:]

what exactly can i say?
i dont know grace
can i tell you who i really am?
i think i know who you are

i love you

and there it goes grace
away it goes

[notcursed:]
i didn't think i'd end up alone
in the pouring rain i call home
begging there's someone to pick up the phone
i keep pretending i'm fine when i'm lost
thinking bout how much time that i've got
so anxious on my own

you can't blame me
you just miss me
calling me out when it wasn't the truth
just lean in baby
just kiss me
guess in the end, we started with new

i didn't think i'd end up alone
in the pouring rain i call home
begging there's someone to pick up the phone

wolves w/ notcursed

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

can we still be us

can we still be us (secre x heyrick)

tell me what u want
where u goin in the nighttime?
wakin up late wit nobody by my right side
pourin up drank just to make it til the sunrise
dont know what to say i aint nun more than tongue tied

took a couple grams i aint a bitch
faces fade away so take a pic
feelings never stay so take a hit
think i took too much i gotta sit

think i took too much im steady sippin
fiji water on me bitch im drippin 
grab ahold of me my hand is slippin
off the edge im boutta see the endin

i dont wanna waste another day
dont know how much more that i can take
stayin sober sayin im cliche
had to care i had to find a way to

battle
bottles
whippin murceilagos

in fh5 i aint makin shit on distro

rattled
thoughts roll
into da mental

take my life wit a blade to da wrist hoe

takin flows from songs ill drop tomorrow
sittin in the bottom of the barrel
drownin in this stupid fuckin sorrow
never trustin next time ill be careful

 bring it back in  
got an o-z rolled up in the nightstand 
you dont know me you aint ever met my best friend
c-h-l-o-e thats my right hand
swear that mf got my back when
rollin down the window caughtchu lackin
up the k n we get straight to blastin
camera lights  we cant forget the action

soberr_24 (secre x flesh)

prod. neverfall x branwen
shoutout @20ofive for helping me finish this one up <3

[safeatlast:]
broken mirrors in this shattered home
cuts on the wrist from the blade you hold
i would rather be all alone
than pick up the phone and be set in stone

never thought itd end up like this
with my skin apart and my bones to break
ill fade away when i suffocate
and my heart escapes from my ribcage

rip it out and just tear apart
my broken limbs from my body
handle the blade and alleviate
the pain by slicin my arteries

thought that u were my everything
but you were never even a part of me
the ground beneath my feet
was ripped away from me so suddenly

[20ofive:]
look in her eyes turn me to stone
man what a surprise yeah i should've known
a clever disguise make me feel home
wasting my time now i gotta go

i gotta go now
look at my phone wow
its already 3 am

so fucking cold out
pulling my clothes down
hardly know who i am

shattered pieces from a broken heart
try to tape it back but found it way too hard
restless sleeping that's the hardest part
i just picture you yeah just a work of art

rubble and dust
i don't know who i can trust
they start building me up yeah just to break me down
their greed and their lust
and just not giving a fuck
i swear its just my luck
i feel them breaking my crown

work of art

work of art w/ 20ofive

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

prod me
guitar by me <3

restless in these sheets
the nightmares scare away the dreams
“if i could only have a chance to run away from everything”

but would i take it?
this is everything i know

i stay amongst the thieves
that took my life away from me
if i could only take a second of your time to let me breathe

but i cant save this
i can never feel like home.

practice what you preach
youre taking it
way too far to bring
a fraction of what the
world turned out to be
back to ashes 
avoid my company

chapter III: avoid my company

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

original <3- https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt/violent-taste
prod. michael harrison

do i deserve to be this broken?
i must've done something wrong
and when i speak i feel like choking
it must've been all my fault
i love him more
than i love myself
i'll endure what he gives me
nothing can change my mind,
nothing i won't sacrifice 

you've got such a violent taste now
is that what it takes to turn you on?
he want me to pour my veins out
is that what it takes to be your crush?
i'll keep a compliant face now
you know i would hate to make you stop
i'll be so silent, stay down
if that's what it takes to be what you want
(be what you want)

skele - violent taste (safeatlast cover)

rip nc 63 at a highspeed
who tf let an emo on a type beat 
gettin kinda cozy but these idiots dont like me
everybody scared that ima pop n make it my scene

30k i got capri sun in my lunchables
i been eatin hella good but i aint close to full
coulda used your hands like a man but u chose to pull
now he outta line n i dont know what he finna do

i aint a made man
spent 100 bucks on some off brand ray bans
call the drain man
do you got sum gas or am i sober for the weekend

i got big plans
glocky wit a middle finger stick it to the big man
oh you a big fan?
fuck up outta here dont even know what my name is

BIG MAN

BIG MAN (PROD. WAYTOOGONE)

you say that you missed me i cant even get a second of ur time
were you even listening when i told you half a million times

that ive been flying
floating
falling fast for you
wait for me i cant let go
when did
every   
second 
with you
feel like minutes
we died so slow 

dont look down take my hand
ill keep u safe give me a chance
i dont want you to wake up alone

please step back from the ledge
youre everything that i regret
but i still wanna be your home

got a lotta pain in me
i can feel the end coming
every days the same old thing
every single song i sing

doesnt have a meaning i
think im running out of time
i can see the stars align
i can see the stars align

everything that i regret

everything that i regret (king theta)

shoutout @xemmy_exe for finishing this, fuck zel he a bitch

[safeatlast]:

talkin that shit but i came wit intentions
next up better pay me attention
im in my bag and you cant get a mention
tough luck but i work for my interests

im gettin sleepy off double cups
boy ima run it up
pickin up scraps but im still goin hard as fuck

im just an artist wit not enough time on my hands
do what i love do it all for the fam

that boy wanna tote poles dont come my way
you aint got shit to show get the fuck out my face
2 blocks down heard gunshots thats the gang
do it for the message give a fuck bout the fame

who am i kiddin bitch ima be famous and thats on god
i got the digits im runnin the playlists bitch im on top
why is you simpin you dont gotta say it that bitch is a thot
the numbers im flippin are gettin outrageous think i gotta shot

that boy wanna tote poles dont come my way
you aint got shit to show get the fuck out my face
2 blocks down heard gunshots thats the gang
do it for the message give a fuck bout the fame

[ӼØ︎3]:

im just here for the message don’t een hit my line don’t text it 
i been wondering why did all this shit have to get messy 
i don’t understand why she had to leave could’ve gave her blessings 
it don’t matter yuh i found me a new obsession

get that bag (yeah) go get back yuh (hey)
that’s sad, damn got stabbed 
relax finger finna squeeze talmbout huh subtract 
yeah i had to leave but huh im back

intentions

intentions ft. ӼØ︎3 (mobe)

prod. jascoebeats
@beeanieboyy

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it
 
baby u can break me
and tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that 

blunt smoke trees fade
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

look at my wrist
look at the time
i gotta run
look at my fit
all black ripped jeans thats whats up
fuck what you told me thats bull shit

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it

baby u can break me
tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that

blunt smoke trees fade 
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

beanie - shadow (safeatlast cover)

i would rather wake up alone then i would ever see your face again
open up my skull to see its nothin but the sedatives
a hollow hearted individual i can never admit to my sins
a shell full of frangibles just shatter my weak skin

where do i think that im goin'?
walkin outside but its snowin'
couple blunts i rolled for us but then you tell me that ur leavin'?

baby i know that im broken
cant breathe at night think i'm chokin'
please wait up and just stay up for me you know i'm not hopeless..

wait outside for me and you'll be okay
clouds right above our residence have gone gray
time moves slow and steady but it lost the race
our planet as we know it will eventually just decay

everything that i've done has left me with the knowledge of the universe
I keep it tucked inside my mental 
everyone that i've hurt just know I did it to myself first
and it wasn't personal
everybody telling me that it'll be okay has never dealt
with the things i've seen
every time i open my eyes i see your face outside of my dreams 

everything that i've done has left me with the knowledge of the universe
I keep it tucked inside my mental 
everyone that i've hurt just know I did it to myself first
and it wasn't personal
everybody telling me that it'll be okay has never dealt
with the things i've seen
every time i open my eyes i see your face outside of my dreams 

my dreams start to rot away my brain cells
bloody scenes that i could never tell what entails
i'm incapable of breathing how'd i inhale?
all these toxins in my system I can't get well

well
are you okay without me?
if that's the case then i can turn around and just leave
insomniatic and i can't breathe
kick my thoughts unto the curb and let me rot please

let me rot into the soil
this life has nothing left but turmoil

i would rather wake up alone then i would ever see your face again
open up my skull to see its nothin but the sedatives
a hollow hearted individual i can never admit to my sins
a shell full of frangibles just shatter my weak skin

where do i think that im goin'?
walkin outside but its snowin'
couple blunts i rolled for us but then you tell me that ur leavin'?

baby i know that im broken
cant breathe at night think i'm chokin'
please wait up and just stay up for me you know i'm not hopeless..

personal (cxrter x woahsxda)

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

prod. me x @eric-godlow
shoutout @guardinmusic, one of my favorite songs n i thought id stick my own lil twist on it <333
original - https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic/comicsans

[guardin]:
if it were up to me
i would be a tree
sit under the sun and smoke a blunt full of debris
i ain't got a job & i ain't got no damn degree
but the time i spend is wise and hours split up into threes
so i'm hoping that the work i put into this shit is worth it
i ain't got nobody in my tent up in this circus
write another body make the header have a purpose
yeah i like the title but the shit you say is
if it were up to me
i would probably leave
split the door in two so i could walk through it with ease
i ain't got no destination set inside of me
by the time i hit the ground i'll start to feel it in my knees
stayed inside for twenty years and i can't tell you if it's worth it
everyone acquainted they just know me on the surface
write another body make the header have a purpose
yeah i like the title but the shit you say is worthless

searching for acceptance in the ones i call my friends
i don't really talk but i sure hope you understand
everybody talking shit can catch these fucking hands
catch these fucking hands
and lately it's been harder for me try to understand
i put myself in predicaments that i never had planned
i don't go outside if i do it's for groceries and fans
any day now i could die please etch my grave in comic sans

[safeatlast]:

if it were up to me
there wouldn't be a rhyme or reason
opened my mouth once and it
was treated like it's treason
never did i even start to think that i'd be leavin'
everything will be okay you just have to believe in
yourself
it'll help you when there's nothing to look out for
everyone around you loves you more than you account for
only halfway to the top i think we're stuck on cloud 4
but we have to split apart to make it to the next floor

[guardin]:

if it were up to me
i'd be more discrete
wander in the dark until there's blisters on my feet
tear off all my skin under the middle of the street
lights and crawl into a hobbit hole in midst of my defeat
guess the corners of my eyes can probably tell you that it's worth it
it's head vs heart and my thoughts tend to make me nervous
write another body make the header have a purpose
yeah i like the title but the shit you say is worthless

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