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~lyrics~

and i just want to disappear
but i could never walk away from you 
and if we switched places 
well then forever i would wait for you
yeah i know that you dont feel the same 
but i cant get you out my fuckin brain 
you went against all your fuckin claims
clearly you dont care how im feeling babe 

so dont be faking glossy eyes 
youre breaking me, your not the one to cry 
i guess you have no fuckin spine 
and all those promises were fuckin lies

and yeah ive always done my best for you 
but i guess i was just never enough 
and yeah ive never been this stressed for you
i aint know that things would get this tough 
i just hope you arent as hurt as me
but i dont think you ever deserved me 
you said its heaven, here on earth with me 
now i feel dead so drop the dirt on me
i understand that im not perfect 
but i dont think that i deserve this 
id give my sould to preserve it 
now youre gone, tell me was i ever worth it 
was i ever worth it?
or were you bein honest when you said im worthless?
i dont think that i deserve this 
youre breaking me, so dont you fucking dare act hurt bitch

i understand that i'm not perfect. (p. michael harrison)

Fight Us!

mixed/mastered by me 
-
produced by https://soundcloud.com/prodpitfall & sscars

i don't really care (sscars x pitfall)

shoutout @memoryfactory on the feature
AMV by biteki: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sPqBtBqltMI
LYRIC!!!
On a quiet sunday evening, you stand on broken ground
I know you may be grieving, but there's nothing to be found
I dont know, why you come here
Waste my time, its  unclear
Things dont always make much sense
I cut our ties our dividends 

Back in time you were my friend
Actually you were more than that
You were the one i loved, and i adored you back
We were once together long ago
But things dont work out in this show
if things dont work out the first time, i doubt they work twice

[memory factory]
no worry, you found me
just hope i'm on the way
don't worry, things won't work out
this broken glass might hurt now
but not for long
tell me to please don't act like it's just a scene

broken ground ft. memory factory [prod. coka$ian]

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

-----

anima

cvrnagexoxo
@kennedysucks
prod. fakegod
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Ice so cold it could heal my wrists
With a blade so big it could cut my lips
Got a van with an AK
If you wanna live better vacate
Heyday
Mayday
Aahh
You wanna talk
You better walk
Spoke with your bitch, and she sucked on my cock
Been through a lot
Still fuck the cops
Rotting away but I'm never gon' stop
How could I stop
Everyone drops dead
Why would I waste it in my bed
Voices residing in my head (head)
One more click and then I'm dead

My time
Has come for high tides
My life
Rots away as I die

I hate the blood, I need some gas
He said I think that I can help
He said how much you wanna cop
I said as much as you can sell
I got a Glock with 30 rounds
and if I take it out my belt
I'll marry 29, out to save the last one for myself
I'm not a killer, but don't push me
I'll try anything once
I'll have your momma wonder why you ain't been calling as much
And you'll be six feet underground, and she gon' look for her son
I give it four to five months before she's digging you up
You a bitch, I never feared another man on this earth
I got an AR
I'm about to show yo ass how it work
'Cuz talking shit will leave yo ass stuck with a mouth full of dirt
Buried alive, bitch, cuz I wanna make sure that it hurts (Kennedy!)

Ice so cold it could heal my wrists
With a band so big it could cut my lips
Got a van with an AK
If you wanna live better vacate
Heyday
Mayday
Aahh
You wanna talk
You better walk
Spoke with your bitch, and she sucked on my cock
Been through a lot
Still fuck the cops
Rotting away but I'm never gon' stop
How could I stop
Everyone drops dead
Why would I waste it in my bed
Voices residing in my head (head)
One more click and then I'm dead

My time
Has come for high tides
My life
Rots away as I die

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BURIED ALIVE (w/ kennedyxoxo) (prod. fakegod)

ARF ARF GRRRR RUFF WOOF (im so sorry)

i got blackmailed into putting these lyrics on here @tactiical LMFAOOO

[shizu]

tellin me to run run run run run run
i am not the one one one one one one
using me for fun fun fun fun fun fun
she hit the phone and i don't know any better

met her under the sun
(they say) never fall in love
but all this time in silence
stuck inside, violently numbing
so still searching for something else
to tell me that you want me
memories all fade away
but without you i'm nothing
trust me

[ri4h]

i trust you but i dont want to
cuz what do i do?
when you say "i love you"
i'm scared of losing you
i know that i need you
but i
oh i need you by my side
can you hold me thru the night
i know its rough but can we try
can we try
oh no, i'm scared
i need, you here
i can't, compare
oh it's, not fair
oh can't, you stay
you're driving me insane
so don't you run away
oh, run away

[shizu]

tellin me to run run run run run run
i am not the one one one one one one
using me for fun fun fun fun fun fun
she hit the phone and i don't know any better
[x2]

runnn ft. ri4h (chaos x goo)

Produced mixed &mastered by Samuel sedlacek

Written by Samuel sedlacek

Save Yourself First Ft Love Jai

shoulda blown my nose before recording lmao
hope u guys like this cuz i had so much fun making it

=lyrics=
smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

yeah you already know
yeah you already know
smellin like ass, someone get a candle lit
smokin on gas, we smokin on cannabis
brand new pack, lil bitch get the hang of it

2 guns
they say they be rollin up 2 blunts
fucked up, you're a nuissance
run away, find out who it was
don't believe in the karma
they'll be eating your heart up
deck your body in prada
shutting down with no startup

shutting down, no startup
cuz everyone is so toxic
coming back, samsara
now im pullin up to the moshpit
(i suggest you run)

get the fuck away from me before you make it worse
get the fuck away from me
yeah you already know

smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

yeah you already know
yeah you already know
smellin like ass, someone get a candle lit
smokin on gas, we smokin on cannabis
brand new pack, lil bitch get the hang of it

all plats

already know [prod. branwen]

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fake love [p. jkjmetasco]

mistaken, full emotion
fucked up and overdosing
i know i had it all
i guess im always falling
tears drop, it's always snowing
i wonder where im going
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking

it's all the fuck i got
in my bed and grave i'll rot
you're all the fuck i want
you're all the fuck i want
girl i hate that
if you wanted more attention then just say that
got a lot of friends that tell me i should probably stay back
if you really loved me then you wouldnt be a trainwreck
i dont give a fuck because you're tearing up my patience

mistaken, full emotion
fucked up and overdosing
i know i had it all
i guess im always falling
tears drop, it's always snowing
i wonder where im going
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking

trainwreck [prod. drma x jibaorockin]

Mgmt: samsdiaryofficialmusic@gmail.com
Self produced 

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Save Yourself First Ft Love Jai

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