anyway, speaking of being gay, have you ever played DDR?

trashed in the tech club

my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

sit across the room, who else could be in my view but you, feel so far away, feel so far away but i could kiss with bullet casings, bullet casings riddled cross the room, im rly gna miss u too, bombs in the lunchroom rly gna miss u 2, remember i had never met u, but now ur in view, predators form when stress builds up inside, served with a side of library suicide

library suicide

Official Music Video:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpJHx6ZHOns


Lyrics:


I’m so sick and tired of your shit
Tired of you bitch
Tired of your lip

You can try to tear me down 
Make me quit
But I’m not stupid
I’m the fire that you lit

I’ll make you hate me more
Watch me win
I’ve been over you since then
Things only beginning 

Suck a dick
And go eat shit
I don’t need you
Don’t need no bitch
Fixed my life
Things changing quick
Camo boy 
Come from the sticks 
I know you hate me
That’s ok
I’m finally happy 
No more pain
Things are better 
you’re away
I fucking hate you
Stay away 

I got these boxes of your stuff
I burned it all
I hate your guts
I’m looking better
You look rough
Im finally happy
You not much (x2)

Boxes

Lyrics:

I'm so sick of all this shit
took a knife gashed through my wrist
my heart aches
you're such a bitch
don't know why you act like this

why can't you see
the way you left me
why can't you leave 
scars left me empty

these scars I've made
remind me of that day 
when you took my soul
with the tip of your blade

these scars I've made 
remind me of that day 
I was said and done
no hope to escape

you don't know what I've been through
you're a bitch and fuck you too
the choice was yours, now you could choose
you left me hurting and you knew

these scars I've made
remind me of that day 
when you took my soul
with the tip of your blade

these scars I've made 
remind me of that day 
I was said and done
no hope to escape

Scars

Lyrics:

i hope you blow your head off
i hope you fucking die
i really hope you suicide
i hope you hate your life
i dont really care if you cry
just please fucking die
i really hate your fucking guts
why do you fucking try

please die

I Hope You Fucking Die

Lyrics: 

ill make you pay
i'll make you pay for what you did
a fucking mistake
a fucking mistake i cannot rid
i'll make you pay
i'll make you pay for what you did
no need to explain
we'll see what happens in the end

just like soloman can't mess with these hoes
they break you apart then they go with who knows
fuck with me one time
whatever i'll go 
fuck with me 2 times im breaking your nose
yeah

ill make you pay
i'll make you pay for what you did
a fucking mistake
a fucking mistake i cannot rid
i'll make you pay
i'll make you pay for what you did
no need to explain
we'll see what happens in the end

i'll make you pay

Make You Pay

i really like this song, so dont take it down sc

I want you to be
as miserable as me
i want you to scream and I want you to bleed
i want you to hurt
i want you to hurt
i want you to be buried deep down the dirt

I WANT YOU TO HURT
I WANT YOU TO HURT

Why arent you sad?
why aren't you mad?
why is your life great
and why is mine so bad
I wish you the worst
I wish you the worst
I wish that i could see you be carried away inside of a hearse

I WANT YOU TO HURT
I WANT YOU TO HURT

Wrath - Fried by Fluoride (yet another reup)

h4rtbrkr - zeroday (demo)

Cultist Girlfriend

https://soundcloud.com/1heelflip

staying up all night in my room 
i don’t get out much because i don’t want to
everyone fucking sucks except you 
i don’t wanna live unless you want me to 
but do you care about me like i care about you?
i’d let you watch me bleed if you asked me to 
all i could ever want is to talk to you
but i’m in the techclub hoping i see you soon 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 

you’re all that i want and you’re all that i need
when i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
guess i’m just destined to hurt and see shit through  
i’m in the tech club thinking of you 
destined to hurt
destined to bleed 
destined to break is my destiny 
i’m breaking down and falling at the seam
whether i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
i feel i’m too far gone to see my hopes and dreams 
i wanna fucking scream 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 
and i’m really hurt 
you’re hurting me
yeah you’re in my head 
yeah you’re hurting me

bleeding out in front of you (ft. heelflip)

fade away

https://open.spotify.com/album/4eCm2pF8J8J2oU3gxHJAKH?si=2oRDTp0wR7yl4qMkkUHRbw shoutout RARECHUD for the cover
--
ya went rite thru my fucking heart
likea bullet from the start
yea u went rite thru my halls
sprayed bullets on my walls
i was sprinkling 
from the ceiling
you were burning
burnin me down

blowin me up
like a pipe bomb
i and i dont know why
and dont know when to go
blowin me up
like a pipe bomb
blowin me up
likeapipebomb

oooooo

pipe_bomb

zero day, thru these halls navigate
im w twin, shootin' shit
we burned our shit up in a pit

zero day came knockin' quick
first of may, ima lose my shit
breaking down, at the seams
zero day is all i need

ooooo
and theres no going back now
oooooo
quiet moments, wont last long now
ooooo
and im never going back now
oooooo
throw your life right in the trash pile

zero day, thru these halls navigate
im w twin, shootin' shit
shoot you dead, bitch, watch you twitch

a world that turned away
from the army of two
sought to leave our mark
today ill die by you



zeroday

Pls follow Fried By Fluoride
https://open.spotify.com/album/07ds3GizG9fhauv0YzPgwo?si=OSgLiL5bQUuj-GVcuU-7zw

Fried By Fluoride- When Pigs Fly

everyday, i sit pondering
everyday, i spend wide awake
spending days, in my bed wondering
spending days on end, wide awake
they all worry about extinction
i just worry about myself
i'm just worried about me
invested in all the bullshit
and i don't understand why
i always have to feel this way again
i wish i could control it
the image burned into the front of my head
they all worry about extinction
i just worry about myself
invested in my decision
i invest time in myself

extinction

i wake up still unemployed and
make myself a cup of soylent
logon to my favourite website
and scroll through till the end of daylight

you say that i'm
simply wasting my life
oh, all my days are gone
wasted on reddit.com

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

my cat is so obese
post him on reddit so that he
can be laughed at by online people
dont sit here and try to tell me that i'm evil

i'm wholesome 100
you're probably a normie
who doesn't like big chungus
and browses ifunny
i saw a kid who liked fortnite
so i bullied him to suicide

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

Kind Stranger

I am doomed and i am screwed
I walk around in a living nightmare
I hate the present and i hate the past
wondering why im a dumbass
i fucked up the last few years
i did dumb shit and now im here
i think abt it and i get pissed
i wanna break things when i reminisce

Im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed im so doomed
oooooo im so doomed

I hate myself, and I hate my life
I sulk all day, and nothing feels right 
All I do is complain and whine, I’m afraid to live, I have no spine
I’m a piece of shit, I’m irrelevant, I’m embarrassed and I’ll admit it
I wish I could just be like them, but I’m all alone and I have no friends

im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed
im so doomed
life is shit when everyone hates you
im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed
im so doomed
oooooo im so doomed

So Doomed (ft. NEET)

Blowing My head off

I’m Sorry That I Blew My Brains Out Across The Room

Practicing self destruction
I can barely function
I fucked my whole life up
I think that my times up
Theres no coming back now
Everyone is sad now, sad now

Times up i know that my life sucks
Nothing worth saving I am barely living
Waging and praying just to end it
You wish i was dead now dead now

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Useless this why I choose this
Maybe im just stupid dumb and clueless
Houston can you read me can you even hear me
Do you even need me Need me

Chemicals in my brain
I am not the same
I watched too much youtube
I ate too much junkfood
Had too many vaccines
Now something is wrong me, wrong with me

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Lifes fucking worthless

trashed in the tech club

oliver .