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[Lyrics]
too smart for my own age
i have a lot of niche tastes
too lonely for my own good
not worth being misunderstood

too callous to be friendly
offputting and unworthy
i want to be more likeable but it would 
only hurt me

i have to ask myself if it even matters
if finding love that doesn't hurt is worth the tatters

i have to ask myself if i'm even worth it
if it counts as abuse if i really deserved it

so i have to do what's right, does that make me too weak?
oh can they really see?
i'm useless and cowardly

if i have to right my wrongs, then it's too much to fix
just spit it out and admit
you secretly enjoyed it

block it away
don't talk about it today
my dirty secrets
oh what would they ever say?

getting closure
come a little closer
whispers desecrate
all that i thought was kept safe

behind every mirror
it's a little clearer
my filthy desires
tugging on crossed wires

so clear, yet so dirty
it's not gonna kill me
ensuring my own demise i'm
a slave to my own lies

don't know what to do
say i'm blind to
my scarlet letter

but is that the truth?
my evil, it knows no excuse

enabling me
won't make me feel
any better

close the chapter
live a happy ever after

too smart to be exploited
it makes me feel unwanted
too sick for what's acceptable
not enough to be a spectacle

the affection i'm craving
the numbing and the breaking
enough to be useful
but not enough to be worth saving

i have to tell myself it's all inconsequential
that there's no point in crying over missed potential

i must remind myself i was never in control
or else the guilt will be too much to ever console

i should've done what was right
but i was too afraid
oh all i have betrayed
i'm crushed under all the weight

i just want to feel alive,
sensation that i've missed
i swear i tried to resist
but what if i enjoyed it?

lock me away
to never see the light of day
crimes against nature
perverting my shades of grey

getting faster
spit on greener pastures
need more punishment
to deem my purge sufficient

behind every mirror
it's a little clearer
my filthy desires
tugging on crossed wires

so clear, yet so dirty
it's not gonna kill me
ensuring my own demise i'm
a slave to my own lies

don't know what to do
say i'm blind to
my scarlet letter

but is that the truth?
my evil, it knows no excuse

enabling me
won't make me feel
any better

close the chapter
live a happy ever after

blinded by reality
its many brutalities
leaving me so haunted
this isn't what you wanted?

so muddy and filthy
and it almost killed me
surviving my own demise
what it took to open my eyes

gone past the abyss
lifting the mist
boiling over

living in the grief
you shouldn't have had to save me

reaching out your hand
to understand
a two-faced clover

close the chapter
no such thing as ever after

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MP3: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1kyoji_C7JtCmi3vIETFnO8-BO5iNN7pe?usp=drive_link

Inst: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1Mq6UZAJMy_txX_rx2F0bQJtJbOhwt9Lx?usp=drive_link

SVP: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1ansSFTiYj9rInRwqhf_oLvq_xEE2RJPU?usp=drive_link

Oneirophobia // Yi Xi [CoF]

YouTube: https://youtu.be/xLL1umzbvF4?si=UpJ3fZM2XKoq26nX
LYRICS
i know it's a sham and i did all that i can
but it seems like a dream to be anything but machine
can't feel a thing pain cannot hurt me
no sympathy all of you burned me

been crying out for years but no one every heard a thing
the steam has filled my lungs with horrid things
so will you please end this hell
i'm nothing but a shell

how in the world did you even get way down here
know that this place is full of monsters and awful
people i hate them all of their faking
acting like king while destroying everything i hate it
so what i said it out loud
you would think it too if you even had a clue 'bout that



been crying out for years but no one every heard a thing
the steam has filled my lungs with horrid things
so will you please end this hell
i'm nothing but a shell
of human i cannot recall
heart of copper and wire
and iron will that could compel them all
will i ever go home

i'd like a second chance
to let them know
i will be back

i know it's a sham and i did all that i can
but it seems like a dream to be anything but machine
can't feel a thing pain cannot hurt me
no sympathy all of you burned me

Hearse Hotel - BLOOD BOILER (Ft. Yi Xi SynthV)

HIIII!!! SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO UPLOAD THIS!!! 

The artwork was done by j.ddoodles on instagram!!! 

Youtube upload: https://youtu.be/jM4OBf4Xchk?si=Vaw3X8KWLHvLJxw6

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Lyrics:

Hey, can't you see my face?
You can't leave without a trace
"There's not much I see in your space", I can see more than you can

You're the accomplishment, a masterpiece, all that they hoped you'd become
But I can see your flaw, but it can't outlaw, doesn't mean that i've grown numb

Hey, what's the big idea?
I thought that I wouldn't see ya
I'm stuck here writing words, you see, but I just can't get it down!

You're now a superstar, ignore my scar, be the worst that you can be!
I look into your eyes, straight to my demise, and I hate what I've become

So go on and walk along steps that I depend apon
Grow so deep into a knave, oh, look at the path you pave!
Poke fun at someone's life while you sit down in your hive
Past and present, which is now?
I'd chill out, but I've had it now

I'm breaking this whole world apart, are you liking what I'm seeing?
I'd hate to tell you everything, cause you say you're only teasing
Yet here I stand, and my world has gone so bland
And ain't it grand how things couldn't go as planned?

Well hey, i'm born anew
There's a lot that I outgrew
I know how to improve myself, and the kid you know is dead!

But I'm the outcast here, do I give you fear? I just wanted to feel loved
But yet I hope to try, and I will not die till I see you smile back

Whatcha doing with that blade? what's the point in throwing shade
Now you're calling out my name, I'm an animal to tame!
Poke fun at all my life, all you ever have is strife!
Past and present which is now?
I'd stay calm, but I don't know how

[ Guitar solo ]

I know one day you will see the impact you had on me
Your heart's as cold as stone, and you can never call my phone
I wish that I knew you underneath that blur
But there's not much that I know for sure

I know one day you will change, you could have a better range
A heart as cold as stone could maybe have a change of tone
Yeah, I said, "Maybe you could change yourself, be better if you want!"
You'll refuse, you'll refuse, and like him, you're still obtuse

I'm breaking all my limbs apart, are you liking what you're seeing?
I know that it's not everything, and they say you're only teasing
Yet here I stand, and my world has gone so bland
And ain't it grand how things couldn't go as planned

It's breaking my whole mind apart, are you liking what you're seeing?
I'd hate to tell you everything, cause you say that i've gone crazy!
You only care if i'm gonna get locked up
Now would you say that's a little bit fucked up?

IGNOMINY (Ft. Yi Xi) [SynthV Original Song]

Original/SVP: VocaloKAT  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oKyqHbk_WlU

Tuning: me + utatanep1ko!!
Mixing/Art: me ^_^ 
Vocals: Yi Xi, MAIKA 
Software: SynthesizerV Pro + VOCALOID4
MAIKA Vocal Renders: utatanep1ko

【Yi Xi x MAIKA】Self Proclaimed Angel【SynthV x VOCALOID Cover】

Cover credits: @/SPOOKI01 on YouTube!!
Art credits: Me :3!!

32ki - メズマライザー (Mesmerizer) feat. Eri & Yi Xi SynthV + TTS

Original: RIProducer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDhqYGbJtN8

SVP: sakuravikofficial https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bt5tXRncpG8

Tuning/Mixing/Art: me ^_^ 
Vocals: Yi Xi, Kasane Teto AI, Kevin, DEX
Software: SynthesizerV Pro, Vocaloid4
DEX Vocal Render: utatanep1ko

【Yi Xi】Fruiting Bodies【SynthV Cover】

One of MARETU’s most underrated songs with the most underrated singer😔🤫

And yes. It’s meat girl

SynthV カバーイヤイヤヨYi Xi  奕夕No Way in Hell!

~ "Chimera Theater" ft. Kasane Teto, Hatsune Miku & Akita Neru
The sequel to SoChromatic's 2nd hit song, "Cirque Du Mirage" (Part 2 [2/3] for Chromatic's Circus AU)!


Song by SoChromatic
Illustration: SoChromatic
Video Editing: SoChromatic
Vocals: Kasane Teto SV, Hatsune Miku V4X, Akita Neru (Tsuina-Chan & Kyomachi Seika), Kagamine Rin V4X, Kagamine Len V4X, GUMI (Chanting), Eleanor Forte (Chanting), Stardust (Chanting)

Official YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EE7e0qefn7Y
Official BandCamp: https://sochromatic.bandcamp.com/track/chimera-theater
Official Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/11NE17w9j1o2yLjNjdPGuv?si=tfnS5xrdQdKNuimWuFhjeQ

This song was reuploaded on SoundCloud with permission from SoChromatic.

Chimera Theater【SoChromatic】(ft. Kasane Teto, Hatsune Miku & Akita Neru)

Sorry it took so long, Gumi's full version is next.

Base UST: NEAR
Yi Xi design: MARES
Original song: 沈める街 (Sinking Town) - Yoeko Kurahashi

[Yi Xi] 沈める街 * Sinking Town

END-WORLD NORMOPATHY  razaplays feat. Kasane Teto & Yi Xi

Old lyrics on new digicore style beats. let's go geek mane

Max Level

Vsynth Song Producer, artist, storywriter, 
17
He/They/It
contact email: saturncandiesmusic@gmail.com

IGNOMINY (Ft. Yi Xi) [SynthV Original Song]

Saturn Candies