non rap stuff

in my own collective thoughts hurting rn

Alt and punk

featuring @luvwillow
produced by @imxofilo

@imxofilo
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, idc if its all fake
cuz i be at my lowest, i cant handle all this pain
yea it will never ever ever ever feel the same
(x2)

@luvwillow
tell me that u love me
ur love is sweet like honey
girl i think its kinda funny when u try to touch me
ur so toxic im in love
my hearts flying like a dove
do you see that when i cry?
thats how i know ur all mine
cut ur name into my arms
do u wanna see my scars?
baby i'd do anything
cuz baby ur my everything
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, even if its fake

@imxofilo
im so lost in the dark
there is no light
tell me that u love me idc if its a lie
cuz ur the only thing thats keeping me alive
and if ur not here with me, i think i might just die
i wanna disappear but idk what to do
i dont feel alive
the only thing i want is u
ur like a drug to me
i love u endlessly
i might be ending me
it might be recklessly
i feel like i have nobody to go to
everyday i come home crying here to u
darling dont leave me
hold me in ur arms
tell me ur here for me pls dont break my heart

even if it's fake +luvwillow (xofilo)

https://soundcloud.com/rainingonroses

lyrics:
so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright

loves complicated 
i know you’ve waited for too long 
i wanna say it 
just don’t wanna come on to strong 

it’s like everytime you come around 
you find a way to break new ground 
i sing my pain out so loud 
now all these walls are coming down 

coming down 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright

i know that im gonna be alright 
cause i’m so done with all the stupid fights 
i dont always do what’s right 
i feel like shit so i get high 

all the bullshit was killing me 
when your love was all that i really need 
i don’t know how you couldn’t see 
me and you was meant to be 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright

So What!

RainingOnRoses - So What!

not it v1

in my head [prod. acey]

★never felt better, guess i'll see u never★

[artwork]
myself lol

[producers]
@benjithemachine
@recyclexbin

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/never-felt-better-prod-benji-the-machine-x-recyclebin-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
why you act so sad
guess you fucked up real bad
can't you see that

hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

verse:
they just wanna see me go and fall
a few times
guess they always did when i look back
in hindsight

never wanted anything
more than this
guess it goes to show
which friends are ur closest

if u hate on me
then ur a goofy sorry
you think i wouldnt
hear the shit u talk

ha hardly

why u such a lame bro
u should go outside tho
maybe touch some grass
but its up to you tho

bridge:
you both stay here
while i go up yeah
i dont fuck with goofys
get out of my life quick

while i cop some new clothes
i dont care what the price is

repeat hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

★streaming★

★never felt better★ (prod. benji the machine x recyclebin)

VISUALS: 
https://youtu.be/nOPnwawM0ow

ARTISTS:
https://soundcloud.com/itsyungvan
https://soundcloud.com/erisu-san
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai
https://soundcloud.com/frvrndalwys
https://soundcloud.com/diamoonofnhg
https://soundcloud.com/deadbrokeofficial
https://soundcloud.com/darkblu10314

BITEKI COLLECTIVE - JAPANESE GIRLS (FT. YUNG VAN)

TRACK 1 OF BITEKI VOL. 4 // FT. ERISU & SUISAI

https://soundcloud.com/erisu-san
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai

LYRICS:

Her gaze was heavy
Cause she Put me in a trance, OH!
Watch her eyes glow!
Baby, watch her eyes glow!

She was pretty,
Broken jaw and bruised up ankles!
Let blood the flow! Baby, let the blood flow!


She tried digging what was in my head!
(Watch her eyes glow! Baby, watch her eyes glow!)

She wanted blood, it was all I bled!
(Cast a spell hoe! Baby, cast a spell hoe!)

She left me cursed, burnt cigarettes!
(Watch her eyes glow! Baby, watch her eyes glow!)

She wanted HELL; I let her pay her debt!
(Pay your Debt in BLOOD! SUSPIRIA!)

ERISU - SUSPIRIA (FT. SUISAI)

twitter @rainingonroses
instagram @rainingonroses
youtube @rainingonroses

Artwork / Recorded / Mixed by @illfaith

Ask If I Miss You, I'll Lie

☆spread your wings, just like a fairy!☆

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/adharmasatru

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/uglyzucc

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/fairy-w-adha-prod-uglyzuccnitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
ever since i heard you lost your wings
but still did your best to not give up
to try to face him regardless
i wanted to hold u just like this 

i know how hard it must've been
im proud of you

hook: (scoobert)
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow

bridge:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

verse: (adha)
fairy wings on an angel
when im with the worlds less painful
i feel confident and i am able
to love myself could u make me so grateful

you build me up
and you changed my life
and i fell so hard
i didnt even have to try

years pass, tears fall
waiting for your call
but ur calling me
like every night

i wish that i could find
the words to say to you
although i tried
nothing comes closer than

i love you

repeat hook:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow
--------------------------
happy new year ily <3

★spotify★

★fairy★ w/ adha (prod. uglyzucc)

Before The Fall (prod. WolfGang Pander)

21 | they/them
you'll always have a home with me.

nightcore versions: @cutemfontheblock & https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr
b-sides @scoobert-doobert-1738

★never felt better★ (prod. benji the machine x recyclebin)

☆scøøb☆