in my own collective thoughts hurting rn

featuring @luvwillow
produced by @imxofilo

@imxofilo
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, idc if its all fake
cuz i be at my lowest, i cant handle all this pain
yea it will never ever ever ever feel the same
(x2)

@luvwillow
tell me that u love me
ur love is sweet like honey
girl i think its kinda funny when u try to touch me
ur so toxic im in love
my hearts flying like a dove
do you see that when i cry?
thats how i know ur all mine
cut ur name into my arms
do u wanna see my scars?
baby i'd do anything
cuz baby ur my everything
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, even if its fake

@imxofilo
im so lost in the dark
there is no light
tell me that u love me idc if its a lie
cuz ur the only thing thats keeping me alive
and if ur not here with me, i think i might just die
i wanna disappear but idk what to do
i dont feel alive
the only thing i want is u
ur like a drug to me
i love u endlessly
i might be ending me
it might be recklessly
i feel like i have nobody to go to
everyday i come home crying here to u
darling dont leave me
hold me in ur arms
tell me ur here for me pls dont break my heart

even if it's fake +luvwillow (xofilo)

not it v1

in my head [prod. acey]

literally mixed by @scoobisalright 


##painasf!

(lyrics)
it was you
you’re the one that made me feel this way
now it’s hard to sleep at night cause the thought of you
if you knew how I felt everyday
maybe you’d never leave and id still be ok

so how’s ur life now that I’m gone
it’s sad you’ll never hear this song
everything I sing is about you and everything u put me through
my heart sank when I got the news
it wasn’t hard for you to choose
i refused that it was true n in the end I just lose

where are you?
girl I need you
i’m all alone again so it don’t matter anymore

it was you
you’re the one that made me feel this way
now it’s hard to sleep at night cause the thought of you
if you knew how I felt everyday
maybe you’d never leave and id still be ok

it was you </3 [shinju & garasu]

★now i stand here, looking starstruck!★

[featuring]
@bedhead2001

[producer]
@uglyzucc

[artwork]
@d33pcutx0

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/starstruck-w-bedhead-prod-uglyzucc-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
i finally caught you
dont run away from me ever again
please tada
dont go where i cant reach you

stay with me forever!

hook:
i am feeling like an outcast
surrounded by the silence
calling out is all i do

why cant i fall asleep forever
i hate this more than ever
waking up is hard to do

ill scream out
into the void
yeah i know its all in vain
but i just cannot explain

why it helps me feel better

verse one (scoob):
every word that u said
has been scrambled in my head
swear u left a mess yeah
swear u left me staring

at the life that u lead
now im all alone in bed
swear i miss ur touch girl
swear i miss it all bad

now i stand here, looking starstruck
and i am cause u know i miss it so much
and im having nightmares, really bad ones
could u stop them, please come back n stop them!

bridge:
ill say this once
so i hope you'll forget it
ur on my mind still
i fucking hate it

so take ur leave girl.. because!

repeat hook:
i am feeling like an outcast
surrounded by the silence
calling out is all i do

why cant i fall asleep forever
i hate this more than ever
waking up is hard to do

ill scream out
into the void
yeah i know its all in vain
but i just cannot explain

why it helps me feel better

and u told me that the old me
was the one was yr one and only
if it’s one and done then fosholy
i would hate for this to be boring

i’ve been staring at the ceiling
wallpaper peeling
my fingers bleed when i’m anxious

u thought that i was appealing
so what is the deal then
tell me right now i can’t take this

ending (bedhead + scoob):
ok maybe i can take it for a little while
i’d do anything for u baby to make u smile
there’s a reason i come to you from like any mile

i know it’s many miles
but u won’t need me til i’m gone

i am feeling like an outcast
surrounded by the silence
calling out is all i do

why cant i fall asleep forever
i hate this more than ever
waking up is hard to do

★streaming★

★starstruck!★ w/ bedhead (prod. uglyzucc)

goodnight and goodbye

reach4u / unconditional

produced by @kggn @resolve1k / mastered by @blushxoxo

~~ instagram.com/memorie0_0/ ~~

out now all platforms: https://fanlink.to/memorieblame

lyrics:

you can hurt me all you want
tear me apart
i think shes blind because she cant see my scars
you said you hate me so im slicing my arms
iwanna run away escape from the harm
i gave you everything it wasnt enough
you said you love me and im calling your bluff

i make them feel the pain
to see how it feels
its all so hurtful its painfully real

you can break me down
hate when youre not around
quiet! dont make a sound
do you think we'll turn this around

find me laying dead on the ground
i was lost i thought i was found
talk to you i slip and i drown
wonder if she'll come around

it doesn't hurt so bad these days
i think that i've grown used to the pain
if you would talk to me i'd explain
walk away from me forget my name

in pain and youre always the one to blame
i quit this fucking game
and youre fucking up
i cant take this much
make me wanna run
throw away whats left of us

(because thats the way its meant to be)

blame game

spotify

blame game (kuru & inno)

★now i swear my heads a mess again..★

[featuring]
@ilyaxhes

[producer]
@uglyzucc

[nitecore mix]
soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/elkia-w-ashes-prod-uglyzucc-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
the boy told the adults
whatever they wanted to hear
and grinned at everyone
with a fake empty smile

the girl said to him
the first words she had spoken in a long long time

hook:
sitting down is all i do
bored until i thought of you
now i swear my heads a mess again
(left my head a mess)

sick of all this empty space
won't you come and find a place
fill the hole that you left again
(fill the hole that you left)

won't you call
(won't you call again)
trapped in walls
(i can't leave my room)

verse: (ashes)
your so toxic
feel so nauseous
i don't get it
i don't want it

bones are breaking
i been drowning
money i'm counting
hands still shaking

friends still faking
my heart is aching

bridge:
hope one day I'm better
than i am
i know it won't happen overnight
i know that

sitting down is all i do
bored until i thought of you
now i swear my heads a mess again
(left my head a mess)

sick of all this empty space
won't you come and find a place
fill the hole that you left again
(fill the hole that you left)

won't you call
(won't you call again)
trapped in walls
(i can't leave my room)

ending:
you seem so empty

★elkia★ w/ ashes. (prod. uglyzucc)

prod @1vacy

ive been waiting for that someone
to help guide me thru im fallin for u
idk how to go about tellin u
i wish you felt the same too
u got me goin back
making me feel bad
for all the things i said to u
yk i didnt mean to
i never meant to hurt u

could never tell if u truly wanted me
now im overthinkin for feelings i can’t guarantee
u got me thinkin the time we wastin
i love the way u lied to me
before i knew it wasnt meant to be
but u said u couldnt go on without me
now ur a memory

i never meant to hurt u </3 [vacy]

@prodsardonyx

ever since u left me ive been feeling really blue
try to hold back but i keep on running after u
things u never told me i wish that i really knew
ill never know what u were going thru
we both hate the life that were livin
tell me whats on ur mind that ur missin
i can see it in ur eyes u wanna be set free
wanna be set free
but what about me..
idk what u want me to think now
the way u made me feel
got me walkin with my head down
feelings that u showed me
all are in the past now
cant help but pace around
what do u wanna tell me
what is it that ur hiding from me
laughing at me cause i cant see
that im blind to all ur lying
not really sure where to go now
feelin really low im on the road
months ago u told me i was the best how?
not even on ur mind now..

running after you </3 [sardonyx]

unreal [prod. acey]

★never felt better, guess i'll see u never★

[artwork]
myself lol

[producers]
@benjithemachine
@recyclexbin

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/never-felt-better-prod-benji-the-machine-x-recyclebin-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
why you act so sad
guess you fucked up real bad
can't you see that

hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

verse:
they just wanna see me go and fall
a few times
guess they always did when i look back
in hindsight

never wanted anything
more than this
guess it goes to show
which friends are ur closest

if u hate on me
then ur a goofy sorry
you think i wouldnt
hear the shit u talk

ha hardly

why u such a lame bro
u should go outside tho
maybe touch some grass
but its up to you tho

bridge:
you both stay here
while i go up yeah
i dont fuck with goofys
get out of my life quick

while i cop some new clothes
i dont care what the price is

repeat hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

★never felt better★ (prod. benji the machine x recyclebin)

Track 1 from our debut EP, 'Superclean Vol. I'.

themarias.us
instagram.com/themarias.mp3
facebook.com/themariasmp3
twitter.com/themariasmp3

I Don't Know You - Single

I Don't Know You

misogi - i'll never cry again

sample: ak9 - when you come home

i'll never cry again **(misogi)

@kassgocrazy @Thislandismusic
some co production done by yours truly

ttm (prod. kassgocrazy & thislandis)

undrwtr (prod. mixed matches & lukrative)

Lyrics:
There we go, the silent night embraces
Like an old friend, familiar and kind
But with every breath another light dissolves the harmony of heartache
Then suddenly the shadows of the room are filling up your mind

But don’t you let them in
Cause even though a little sorrow can liberate us all
You shouldn’t let them win
We’ll find a way how you can brighten the dark days after all

A crowded room, but in your head you’re lonely
And a choir of thoughts distorts into white noise

But don’t you let them in
Cause even though a little sorrow can liberate us all
You shouldn’t let them win
We’ll find a way how you can brighten the dark days after all

You never notice at all, the love you’re surrounded with
The loneliness won’t fade



Music by Roos Meijer & Javièr den Leeuw
Lyrics by Roos Meijer
Drums by Quinten de Jongh
Bass & bass synth by Javièr den Leeuw
Keys, guitars, percussion & backing vocals by Anne Lieke Heusinkveld
Guitar by Sam van Hoogstraten
Guitar & vocals by Roos Meijer
Production by Anne Lieke Heusinkveld
Mix by Anne Lieke Heusinkveld & Jesse Koch
Master by Wessel Oltheten
Artwork by Michiel Mutsaerts

Harmony Of Heartache

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☆spread your wings, just like a fairy!☆

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/adharmasatru

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/uglyzucc

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/fairy-w-adha-prod-uglyzuccnitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
ever since i heard you lost your wings
but still did your best to not give up
to try to face him regardless
i wanted to hold u just like this 

i know how hard it must've been
im proud of you

hook: (scoobert)
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow

bridge:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

verse: (adha)
fairy wings on an angel
when im with the worlds less painful
i feel confident and i am able
to love myself could u make me so grateful

you build me up
and you changed my life
and i fell so hard
i didnt even have to try

years pass, tears fall
waiting for your call
but ur calling me
like every night

i wish that i could find
the words to say to you
although i tried
nothing comes closer than

i love you

repeat hook:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow
--------------------------
happy new year ily <3

★spotify★

★fairy★ w/ adha (prod. uglyzucc)

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