i cannot speak or make a sound
my time is up ive been found out
he holds the key and the highground
and i couldnt save the casualties
youre getting numb while i feel your pain
i medicate to calm down my brain
something is up with the walls im insane
now youve caught me hands up and im feeling so lame

thank you for listening<3

found out

Spent 19yrs Underneath The Surface Of The Ocean N Now Im Growing Coral

ignored every sign

prod. pekarot

ive become a carbon copy of all of the things that i used to despise
maybe ill feel much better with some conversation and the touch of your skin tonight
jump my bones
bleed me dry
take it all from me i swear its fine
i dont know who i am without our hand’s intertwined 
and the picture i keep is a symbol of time
im way more fucked up than I realized 
shot myself in the foot, i ignored every sign
i pray to god we hit every red light 
cause when moments are fleeting, the now must suffice
maybe we can fall in love again for a night
forgive and forget, I dont care who was right
He might be remembered, but we’ll never die
search for salvation in all your goodbyes

Oh what a shame we became 
Such a fragile broken thing 
Wish we could’ve stayed the same
Oh the pain that it brings
When I think of all the ways that I could’ve seen it coming 
Would’ve fucked up anyways
Still dont know what im running from , so the songs are how I deal with what we’ve become
The glow in your eyes is as bright as the sun and it stays there even when push comes to shove
you mean more to me than you realize 
Girl you color my sky
why the fuck would i lie?
your face is a mainstay inside of my mind
read the texts back in your voice like every time
give me the chance to take you on a drive 
the way that you hold me makes everything fine 
moments so perfect at every red light
and i wish i could feel it at least one more time

red light (prod. pekarot)

as i come back to this place 
i see the lights dim on the way
when the sunset takes a vow
i wish that one day you’ll be here now

i’m alone, i’m alone
i’m alone, i’m alone
i’m alone, i’m alone
i’m alone, i’m alone

prelude to disaster (neverforever)

(prod. cxrter x the sound clown)

lyrics:
oh my youre the danger zone
i let you get so close
then you go and take control
of every muscle

you have me by a piece of string
ill be your puppet just let me in
ill give it up ill let you win
do i mean a thing

here we go again
acting innocent
lately its been different
youve been so distant

oh my youre the danger zone
i let you get so close
then you go and take control
of every muscle

oh how its killing me
you love to watch me bleed
still do it so willingly
anything you need

you have me by a piece of string
ill be your puppet just let me in
ill give it up ill let you win
do i mean a thing

Danger Zone

prod @bloodcryy x @radkoun

im w the gang im getting high right now
im in the, im in the sky right now
you make me feel something inside right now
but i cant tell you imma lie right now

all i do is lie to you
all i do is hide the truth
baby only if you knew

all i do is lie to you
all i do is hide the truth
baby only if you knew

all i do is lie to you
if you knew the way i felt you'd have all the power too
she's been running through my head buzzing like a power tool
i cant say nothing, i cant say nothing play it cool

picking flowers, do she love me, do she love me not
big body in the paint, baby im a juggernaut
in my, in my heart got the top spot
everybody trying to be you but they know they not

im w the gang im getting high right now
im in the, im in the sky right now
you make me feel something inside right now
but i cant tell you imma lie right now

all i do is lie to you
all i do is hide the truth
baby only if you knew

all i do is lie to you
all i do is hide the truth
baby only if you knew

all i do is lie to you
all i do is hide the truth
baby only if you knew

only if you knew

if you knew

lie2u (bloodcryy x radkoun)

(prod. afterlife)

devin's hook:
call me up again
when you get home safe
never know whats going on
in my own brain
but youre the reason im alive today
yeah youre the reason i survive my days

sevenfeet:
Your head on my shoulder
keeps me warm even when I’m acting colder
and you’ve been patient when I’m struggling staying sober
I just hope you stay in to my arms as we get older

You’ve been chipping at the layers of my heart tryna
Make a difference to the way I hold my guard im
Kind of learning what I think it means to love again
I’m feeling things I’ve never felt do you understand?

That I’ll answer when you call, I mean it
You said you’ve been betrayed, my dear I know the feeling
Long black sleeves and I can tell you’re freezing
Let me make repairs cause I know we’re both healing

scorpio:
when i look into your eyes
i see a new life
shining in a dazling light
a future with you, so bright
i know
im dreaming of a place called home

majoraeclipse:
When I'm wasting away 
Alone in my bedroom and light up a strain 
I fight with the sentiment to be what you wanted 
I think I know that I can't be that, if I'm being honest 
I'm growing tired of you 
If things had been different, I might've been cool to have around
I guess I'm kind of a fool 
For thinking I could make it from the start 
Now the consequences tearing me apart

kiddamo:
dont tell me that you love me
i can see it in your eyes
if its till death do us part
then girl lets die tonight
i know it dont feel right sometimes
im walking on thin ice sometimes

theres more to your story beneath the cover
ill turn the pages until im your lover
ill put them in a bodybag if you find another one
up all night long so

heyzbee:
Hold me dear
I need you here
Surrounded by things 
That cause me tears 

While I’m falling apart you’re always there for me
Ive been failing back to back for centuries 
But when you’re with everything becomes a harmony 
All alone, you’re the only thing that I could see

augustin:
call me up im wide awake
it would be a dream to hear your voice again, im lonely
i wish i could run away
run into the past and live my life as the old me

and you know i still try baby 
i still try, still try baby
and you know i still try baby 
i still try, still try baby

home safe

(prod. The Optimist)

lyrics:

Hook:
lost in love
say that there's more to us
i need to know because
i love you
i love you (x2)

Verse:
my heart is yours for taking
and you're forever saving me
your eyes there's no escaping
and they're simply spacing me

hold on just a little
ill give you my initials
and when your bones are weak and brittle
ill still want you just as much as then
as then
as then
as then
ill still want you just as much as then

Hook:
lost in love
say that there's more to us
i need to know because
i love you
i love you (x2)

Bridge:

Hook:
lost in love
say that there's more to us
i need to know because
i love you
i love you

Lost In Love

lyrics:
(me)
Oh, I don't know if I wanna die (wanna die)
What would change if I lied (lied)
Please show some fucking empathy
Keep lookin' back at our remedies
Oh, why do I fuck up everything? (fuck up everything)
My whole life turned into a downswing

Why am I such a mistake? (mistake)
Just gimme a damn break
(gimme a break,, gimme a break)
Nobodies perfect
Sorry I'm indirect
I'm tryna be better
Oh, gimme back my sweater (gimme back my sweater)
Was I ever really worth it?
No I'm not ok I assured it
Think I reached the worst epitome
Better off being infamy

(Vails)
I'm so sick of saying no
I'm embarrassed never anywhere to go
Leeching off my friends
They got my back
I know I'm always straying from the path

I should stay inside but I'm hunting the drugs
Just wanna feel no emotion
Like nothing at all
So surprising the amount of people staying by my side
Even though I'm on the worse route
I'll follow the lines
I wanna die
I'm not gonna lie
It's to much to handle
Maybe I should cry
I wanna die
I'm not gonna lie
It's to much to handle
Maybe I should cry

wanna die w/ vails (johnnyfriend)

neverforever
mix, master, lyrics by me
(lyrics)
i could lay on top ur chest
n i would be right here to rest
n u would leave a thought on top of my head
whats it take to rid of doubt
i been gone for long, it dont count
what you did for me, how i couldnt leave
n it just wont be forever
if you dont let me be there
i could give u all i had
if you didnt leave oh
i just wish you were the one for me
but as this time moves on its looking bleak
n i just didnt know how long i had in this life
oh

10/21/2024

A Future With You (neverforever)

The Silence

discord: scorpio4488

side project w/devin's world: @frozen-grotto

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