lyrics:

lately i can tell the difference
look at your surroundings 
everything around me 
started falling down
ima keep a candle on me
even when i'm falling
everyone around me 
will never ever know

we're not the same
it won't be the first time
you lean on assumptions
oh no it's not okay
this is a lonely world
ya it's a lonely world

float into the air it's not a thing
(its a lifestyle)
fuck it up again ya
i gotta let it bleed
ya rubble all the stone 
it's all for me
(it's not a side job)
better make ammends 
if you wanna rest in peace

not a lot to do 
not a lot to say
but to breathe the air
it's all gone away
tell me what is new
tell me what's the same
do you even care if i fade away 

fall in a bliss right now
leaves will fall 
so light in your eye lids
maybe well make it out
break the walls in
cave into my lips

lately i can tell the difference
look at your surroundings 
everything around me 
started falling down
ima keep a candle on me
even when i'm falling
everyone around me 
will never ever know

we're not the same
it won't be the first time
you lean on assumptions
oh no it's not okay
this is a lonely world
ya it's a lonely world


surroundings (prod. frevel x 5head)

lyrics:

I know , 
You’re waking up , 
Blowing smoke , 
Big gas in my lungs , 
Talking down,
Fuck it ,
We wont talk at all , 
Make sense ,
Why I cant be loved , 

Big racks ,
In my pockets ,
Keep me company , 
Nose dive ,
Into trouble ,
Can you cover me , 
Posted 
always on the blocks , 
This shit luxury , 
Notice you were coming up ,
No you’re under me ,

wake up ft.whyhaze (prod.junk & essscudo)

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

prod by icantsleeplol
(a old song ill never finish, so here's what i have rn)
ps. if i had the file for this song, i would've mixed it properly, so im sorry

lyrics:
i lay in my bed, and i sit and sigh
and i stay up all night and i go and write
about the feelings that i really cant identify
so i wonder all the ways i couldn't satisfy
her needs and expectations that she already had in mind
and i was blind by the way she looked me in my eyes
and said "im sorry" but there's no need to apologize
all the times u fucked me up and tried to justify
u always loved that game where i was inside of a box
and silenced me everytime i had a single thought
and i questioned it but you told me that i was wrong
u drilled it in my head that this is where i belong

justify (unfinished, unmixed)

prod. heyzbee & neverforever

is it sad i want to know how how bad i hurt you
you’ve dealt with me for so long, your patience of virtue
i want to be someone you cry to
but i’m still unsure what i can do
please do not lie, if you aren’t mine, just say so
our star signs, do align, but im ghost
it’s bout time, i realize, that im froze
so i hide, in your eyes, but im stoned

is it sad that im still unconscious
i’m not sure who i am if i’m honest
i been fighting with myself like it’s a contest
in the end im almost sure that im an object

i try to tell you something but you never get the hint
god i’m scared to say i like you i don’t wanna be dismissed
yeah i’m filled disappointment cuz i think i can predict
everything that you would say if ever did admit
it’s affecting my health
distancing myself
wish i could tell
god, this is hell

is it sad that im still unconscious
i’m not sure who i am if i’m honest
i been fighting with myself like it’s a contest
in the end im almost sure that im an object

object

Monroe w/ Aiden Hilton (methboiswag)

prod. heyzbee & onidtnom

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest 

honestly, i’m struggling, but i don’t think that’s fair to say 
god i feel so selfish every time i write and the say way 
i’ve been feeling recently, i don’t wanna stay the same
this a cry for help but no one cares, i do this day by day
are you listening to me, every word can you repeat?
god it feels like you’re a liar when you say you’re caring please
it’s all upsetting to me, everything you say is cheap 
you just wanna make me feel better but that’s not what i need 

AVXiD:
i been getting worse
everyday i turn
bb can we take it back a little
back to what we were
let my body purge 
let my systems burn
enter in my heart and sew it up cuz it had start to hurt

split my brain into pieces
u know that i need 
im sick of being
who im not 
somehow seeing
somehow breathing
barely bleeding
let it rot

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down (feat. AVXiD)

HmmYesI’mTrulyInformed

prod. @bloodcryy

life so hard sometime i just wanna make mine proud 
everything that i'm feeling everything that i'm feeling right now
i never thought i was nothing special man i have my doubts 
but i need to make a play i need to figure some out

cause if i don't i can't give the world to the ones that make it feel ok
ok
all the ones that mean some to me i just wanna make sure they ok
ok

i just rolled up so i can slow down
racks yao ming but they still lookin down
i just wanna ball i just wanna make it out

when i told you it means some to me i really meant that shit
nothing was handed to me i really had to go get it
and i keep tellin myself that all these dark days gone mean some
and i keep tellin myself that all this pain can't be for none

for none for none 
all these dark days gone mean some
all this pain i go through can't mean none
can't mean none

life so hard sometime i just wanna make mine proud 
everything that i'm feeling everything that i'm feeling right now
i never thought i was nothing special man i have my doubts 
but i need to make a play i need to figure some out

cause if i don't i can't give the world to the ones that make it feel ok
ok
all the ones that mean some to me i just wanna make sure they ok
ok

4 none (bloodcryy)

prod. mikeAl0ne

lyrics:
grabbed
plucked from the phone
i was stabbed
hurt more than i thought
i finally thawed
out of this standstill
i can't feel
it's not real
connection interrupted
they're always up to something
would you drop the curtain?
i compound and my fingers welt
what i touch till it's well
but it compels me to
hold on
having trouble finding footing
i know i'm gonna but i shouldn't
there's a place that I've been to
if you want i could tell you
all about it
no one
knows me like i do
there's nothing to show up
but i still bring all of me every time
and i live in every line

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

Scotty Speed