from https://soundcloud.com/ihatemylife59/angelus-fr

player two feat ericdoa, lei, zee, ch2rms, blackwinterwells, exodus1900

'90s videogame soundtrack
+fellow villagers @oroahh, @scrufff
+additional guitars from @billsburyjoeboi

stream on all platforms: https://ffm.to/charmerr

song abt extroverts n small-talk enthusiasts - i still dk how tf they do that socialising shit

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INTRO.

roah's verse 0:
who are these ghosts in my room?
they don't even care bout you...
they don't even-

talk…
i have to do this now! (nownow)
i can’t get out free this time,
imma leave with a sliver of doubt... (doubt doubt)
start talking till your brain gets fried! (｡ŏ﹏ŏ)
(run)
but nobody listens to you, (run?)
broke bones, then you left me beat and bruised! (run!)
bled out, split my heart in two... (RUN!)
now i'm just another ghost inside my room.

now run away
can't even stop
don't even speak here, we cant get along
now stay awake,
ya i'm not that strong.
i know that i can't live like this,
can't stall...

run- run- way-
can't even sto-
(you split my heart)
don't even speak here we cant get along -long
(im bleeding out)
now stay awake
ya i'm not that strong
(i can’t even talk noo)
i know that i can't live like this
can't stall
(they werent even listening from the start)

red's bridge:
and it's too late now,
it's way too late...
it's the last straw now,
i can't be saved.
if only u were here?
i'd be okay.
if only i had your charm?
i'd be okay........

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MAIN.

crazyass refrain:
“know by now i'm not a ppls’ man”
repeat

(ayo cut the bs)

verse 1:
paradox when i think about u
just wanna get violent when i think about u
rude to stare but i don't rly care
ur the cause of my problems but now i’m the fool? (wtf)

chorus:
the days when we were wavelength surfing
refreshed n euphoric i was nervous
eased up well n the book started opening
was a mile away, couldn't see the subservience
it was crazy that u couldn’t have time w/o me
awfully clingy n bitchy but could never speak up
all they know is the weirdo they see
longed to be a charmer, the things i’d do to be one

refrain:
"know by now i'm not a ppls’ man" now w scruff harmonically moaning WWWWWW

scruff's verse 2 (HE FUCKING KILLED IT UGHHHH):
so, understand that i'm on again
say imma make him do the runnin' man
imma make sure that i win again
but i might just be onto something, new
i just wanna be something to you
pitchforks when i'm outside
i want a clean morgue when i die
i wanna see more with my eyes

verse 3 (back2me):
hate the thought of talking to someone like me
and i tell the therapist its more than anxiety !'?*'never taken therapy lmao
always the one to make the second moves
boutta run out of self-worth real soon
rely on me to always fuck it up
god i'm so done this life shit just ain't no fun
never hesitate to wait till its way too late
something wrong w me but i know i’ll just run

*redhorse pro producer tag omg*

chorus:
the days when we were wavelength surfing #)£!?* nah dis is deep istg
refreshed n euphoric i was nervous
eased up well n the book started opening
was a mile away, couldn't see the subservience
it was crazy that u couldn’t have time w/o me
awfully clingy n bitchy but could never speak up (=`{ literally me fr
all they know is the weirdo they see
longed to be a charmer, the things i’d do to be one

refrain:
"know by now i'm not a ppls’ man"
repeat

https://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Charm_(move)

charmer

stream the mf song

charmer, +roah, scruff

shoutout the realistic perspective of having attachment issues to someone who dont even know you like that

//lyrics

Aye, aaye, RAAAH
Its crazy i aint know you for too long
Feels like i dont even know you when you're gone
You saw nothin'
In my eyes you were fully frontin'
Yeah, put him in the back, im kiddin'
Its like, scratch that im the villian, yeah
Trippin' when you say you're with him
Always, runnin from my feelings
Yeah, put him in the back, im kiddin'
Its like, scratch that im the villian, yeah
Trippin' when you say you're with him
Always, runnin from my feelings

Breaking me, in half
Why cant you, wait for me, in there
Thought you wouldnt say somethings not fair
Its funny i was tryna get you out my head
Its only a bad sign when i care
Hope you wouldn't flatline when im not there
Its the last time you fuckin forget
Lovin you's my past time dont fuckin forget
But she noticed
That i know it
Pride showin
Hate me after all that
All these pictures, under my bag
Guess we gotta restart, bring it all back, and i say

Its crazy i aint know you for too long
Feels like i dont even know you when you're gone
You saw nothin'
In my eyes you were fully frontin'
Yeah, put him in the back, im kiddin'
Its like, scratch that im the villian, yeah
Trippin' when you say you're with him
Always, runnin from my feelings

Just hold onto me
You dont even know what you've done to me
Im not comin' up from the water to breathe
I dont care if you even want me
Cus i might never let go, oh ooh
Got this under control, ooooh oh
Crying when i see your name
But you dont even know mine
I feel the pain, in my heart
Feel the shame when we grow apart
Like why you gotta let these lames up in your heart
No i havent stayed the same, its been so hard
And i dont know why, you refuse to

put him in the back, im kiddin'
Its like, scratch that im the villian, yeah
Trippin' when you say you're with him
Always, runnin from my feelings
Running from my feelings, oh
Running from my feelings, ooh

attachment issues [p. sai]

//lyrics

Please dont hate me, while im here
I feel it aching around my ear
All these changing faces, I cant be near
All these blatant changes that I cant be here for, for
When im anxious the sun dont shine
Im gon' make it the day she's mine
Ready or not
We barely talk
Is it something that you want
Up in my arms
You know
When im anxious the sun dont shine
Im gon' make it the day she's mine
Ready or not
We barely talk
Is it something that you want
Up in my arms

Its the way you talk to me
When you're tryna help
Its the way you talk to me
When im runnin' out of your love
Is changin' is changin' for you enough
I thought it'd be painless
Oh what a bluff
Lately its been harder, to stay away
Lately switchin' starters, to stay awake
It aint even fair that you're with me
Get to cryin' when im bouta leave

Please dont hate me, while im here
I feel it aching around my ear
All these changing faces, I cant be near
All these blatant changes that I cant be here for, for
When im anxious the sun dont shine
Im gon' make it the day she's mine
Ready or not
We barely talk
Is it something that you want
Up in my arms

Its the way you speak to me
When im bouta cry
Sit back, watch your feelings atomize
I guess stayin' up witchu a fuckin' waste of time
When you're barely trying, its the fact I have to tell you
Please dont hate me, while im here
I feel it aching around my ear
All these changing faces, I cant be near
All these blatant changes that I cant be here for, for
When im anxious the sun dont shine
Im gon' make it the day she's mine
Ready or not
We barely talk
Is it something that you want
Up in my arms
You know
When im anxious the sun dont shine
Im gon' make it the day she's mine
Ready or not
We barely talk
Is it something that you want
Up in my arms

paranoia [p. sai]

Produced by sai

// lyrics

What it, what it, what it was, what it is, what you on bout, oh, I'm breaking in
It's like you don't want me to let go
You got big problems, only I know
You're the only one I want, it's a side note
Thought I wont need you, but what do I know
I didn't see you coming from above
Get butterflies interlocking with my arm
I don't need a name, fuckin' saying who we are
Claiming that I've changed, fuckin' say it with your heart
I'll endure the pain just to lay here in the dark with you

I missed the mark with you
Where to start, don't even know where to stop with you
No I'm not in love, but it's where it's going
I do what I want in like any moment
I'm barely conscious, I'm a target for all the pain
Nonsense, I'll bring up thoughts just from yesterday's progress
How could I want you if you don't wanna try, this time

I don't wanna let go
You got big problems, only I know
You're the only one I want, it's a side note
Thought I won't need you, but what do I know
I didn't see you coming from above
Get butterflies interlocking with my arm
I don't need a name, fuckin' saying who we are
Claiming that I've changed, fuckin' say it with your heart
I'll endure the pain just to lay here in the dark with you

I missed the mark with you
Where to start, don't even know where to stop with you
No I'm not in love, but it's where it's going
I do what I want in like any moment
I'm barely conscious, I'm a target for all the pain
Nonsense, I'll bring up thoughts just from yesterday's progress
How could I want you if you don't wanna try, this time

I don't wanna let go
You got big problems, only I know
You're the only one I want, it's a side note
Thought I won't need you, but what do I know
I didn't see you coming from above
Get butterflies interlocking with my arm
I don't need a name, fuckin' saying who we are
Claiming that I've changed, fuckin' say it with your heart
I'll endure the pain just to lay here in the dark with you

say it with ur heart [p. sai]

STREAM this song + recent: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/leyton1/crown

lyrics:

the light lurks after sundown horizon glowing
eyes hurt tryna hunt down you’ll find me broken
back down, feel the waves encroaching
can’t show no emotions
i’m wasting all my nights just looking at the sky
since 17 every dream of mine has died
could never see me and now u finally know why
i never wait to text you back and say it’s alright

you never face the truth
so i just cut you off it’s what i have to do
you never did me shit i walked right over glass for you
break the cast and prove
i made my sacrifice 
did what i had to do
you always fade between my eyes
when you go asking can you stay with me tonight
i said it’s over 
we cant wait all night, i know you don’t like me when you’re sober
my aching, the sky
which ones gonna go first

[swazy*]

fade ft. swazy (p. typhoon)

eric posted a longer version of test 003 on threads

ericdoa - test 003 (diary entry) V2

//lyrics

Only if you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Since you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Since you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Since you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Girl you done it, now i been on the same road
Girl im runnin', my feelings on the table
If you want it, i'll do it if you say so
But what if, im not able

To give you what you want
Before the changes girl im just missin' what it was
Now im the same person i was just a month along
I'll go insane, tryna find out what happened to us
Or go insane, tryna find out what happened to touch
what happened to me
Like what happened to love
Ill be happy diseased
Im not faithful to, what you say in the least
But you stay cold and im supposed to know what that means
I know why
Its chemical, i wont lie
You act cynical, i dont mind
I know its pitiful but i like you

Only if you want it, i'll do it if you wanted, us
Since you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Since you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Since you want it, ill do it if you wanted, us
Girl you done it, now i been on the same road
Girl im runnin', my feelings on the table
If you want it, i'll do it if you say so
But what if, im not able

To give you what you want
Before the changes girl im just missin' what it was
Now im the same person i was just a month along
I'll go insane, tryna find out what happened to us
Or go insane, tryna find out what happened to trust
Now i'd be happy to run
Always fall into lust
But if you were the one, you would
Want it if only i knew you wanted, us
Since you want it, i'll do it if you wanted, us
I know why
Its chemical, i wont lie
You act cynical, i dont mind
I know its pitiful but i like you

if u want it [p. sai]

//lyrics

They just want a sample
Put me on a camera
Tell me all my lies, and
Tell me all my answers
Im blurring the lines
Tell me my wrongs, and
Tell me all my rights
Tell me all my rights, baby
Tell me all my, rights
Keep rising
She could interfere, but
Imma keep sliding
One cold heart's what I need for fucking writing
Please dont fret, baby i could keep it tidy

Don't stress, my road is ever-winding
Through one mess, our love in aphrodite
Come let, me rid of your anxiety
In one text, ill show you who I might be, I
Feel ya pulling back from my life
Fear in my head, in my eyes
Who knows where ill get in my life I said
These fuckers look at me with envy cause

They just want a sample
Put me on a camera
Tell me all my lies, and
Tell me all my answers
Cause im blurring the lines
Tell me my wrongs, and
Tell me all my rights
Tell me all my rights, baby
They just want a sample
Put me on a camera
Tell me all my lies, and
Tell me all my answers
Im blurring the lines
Tell me my wrongs, and
Tell me all my rights
Tell me all my rights, baby
Tell me all my rights
Keep rising
She could interfere, but
Imma keep sliding
One cold heart's what I need for fucking writing
Please dont fret, baby i could keep it tidy

envy [p. reef]

imissu

jus uploaded dis here so i can listen to it on here :D
luv u eric <33

if u wnt me 2 take dis down jus lmk