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shallow taste's

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lyrics:
im so stuck in this quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in

why am I like this
internal conflict
ion feel shit when I fight it
stuck in the mindset
im goin under, I split my world into sunder
fuck all these lames dont give a fuck what they say
strapped wit a heart and karambit
fuck everyone fuckin round wit my bros shit
why the fuck did u do that no I cant stand it
thought u were a friend
turns out u like fuckin over ur friends so I had so I had to unfriend, hope u understand
I do what I can nothin comes easy, but ill stop shit when u need me

breathe in, feel the weight in my chest
its the best
bleedin, all I need is some rest
some rest x2

im so stuck in the quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in x2

quicksand

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Met (prod. redpriest)

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https://soundcloud.com/emotionals
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braxton knight + emotionals - no healer (kurai)

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff made da amazing vocals 

enjoy :3

lyrics

i just asked if you loved me again
i just need some reassurance
ive been in my mind for a minute i know its hurtin
pls dont hold that shit to me ik im learning oh no
why do i still feel left out
its all in my head
id be better off dead
baby i know what you said
why do i still feel left out
its all in my head
id be better off dead
baby i know what you said
baby i know what you said to me
when you talk to me it just feels like some ecstacy
and when it gets to me i feel better than ever
and i never really minded when you stole my sweater at all
if we fall we wont fall together for long
baby please get it all together im wrong
no i cant get along
if that guy tries to talk to you again im gone

i walked back to you and your gone
im humble
you keep tryna do what i do your my double
i will not fumble
i keep backing up but i cant see behind me i dont even know when you stumble
just tell me
you keep calling out in your mind just help me
i know i got some problems put it on the shelf please
i know that
give me one more chance and you know i wont fold back

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scruff - learning <3 (sai)

throwing up
this early 
i dont wanna be grown now,
dont worry
treat me like a nuisance
lets fucking do this
beaten and bruised
put that fucker to use
come and pour that risotto
my main thang move jus like a model
niggas knocking on my head i guess im hollow

lets kill the lights out
i know
i know
you're fucking my life up
right on 
right on

growin up

frou frou frou frou frou frou x4 artifact

a new kind of love(imperf/art1fact)

produced by xona 

[???]

-lyrics-
I might act like you but I’ve been knowing my own limits
I can’t help myself when you treat me like I was different
oh my god, I swear I’m falling all apart and it won’t stop
it’s like September and it doesn’t seem to rot-

like you..

I might stab myself or two
don’t walk within these hilly dunes
I’ll fall right here and shoot through you
“stay by side”
I’m not your other guy
this isn’t choice I just know that I’ve been airtight 

I’ve been so upset, ember through my chest
where did all your friends go(?) coalesce
I might need a grip to pull me into this 
drugs are different, they walk into a depth
ay, yeah
caught within my skin 8 leg to my sight 
I’ll tell my truth and leave you hanging so you won’t cry- don’t try
ain’t one, ain’t by your side
so so, out of line? enduring all the fights

~

my life is hurting for a way to pause
I’ll hang around and let it go on
yeah, yeah
I can’t choose on what I’m on
I tend to change and I’m worried that-

talk down oh my oh my-
it’s on me to make it out alive 
more found within my skin
8 eyes, 8 legs
they left off from my head

the coldest winter seemed so innocent, swim through the rivers and reach my instrument
I threw my life on the line for a threat.
I’m so depressed, I’m at fault for this shit
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin’ dread to our trust and I cry
and I can’t find a source why oh I, hate my life I don’t need an-

spiders III

...

vocals by javan
production by gc
mixing and mastering by javan

apologies

midwest regrets *+ out everywhere 🖤
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memories ☁️ 

Was she the one I was supposed to follow
That question comes up every night for me
Your trying your best, like it or not I won’t forget
Just keep it all between you and me
All these memories

I’m begging them to take their time leaving
The past is in the past but it won’t stop screaming at me
Don’t over complicate it, I swear I’ll forget it
Head over my desk, free my mind - just kidding 

All these memories
All these memories they fade away
I’m wishing she could see
It’s like all the demons came out to play
Wishing she could see the best in me
I’d take it all back if it meant I’m free
All these memories
All these memories they fade away

No more lying, I do it constantly
Hang it all over my head, write my biography
Have you had enough yet, baby?
Your answer doesn’t scare me
Walking around so care free lately

And every step that I take leads to another two back
I bury all my traumas, turn that shit to a soundtrack
Shooting blanks up in the sky just to get my attention 
If youre wanting a reply, you should go check your mentions

All these memories
All these memories they fade away
I’m wishing she could see
It’s like all the demons came out to play
Wishing she could see the best in me
I’d take it all back if it meant I’m free
All these memories
All these memories they fade away

memories

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I've been up to nothing but waiting
It's been hard to sleep with the truth
I turn up but I can't ever face it
Gotta maybe start with you
Gotta choose
How to talk the way I did but I don't
Love the way I miss that stupid taste
Woah

I tried to warn myself to never never go alone
But late night sunrise keep me out the home tonight
Yeah they keep me out the home tonight again
1, 2, 3, 4

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

She's so fine but I can't ever tell her
Ima scroll through one more time
She could be mine but I just never let her
But she knows that I've been dying to let her know it
But I'll be fine act like I never knew or cared at all
Loving's so hard when you can't ever talk about it

I tried to warn myself to never never go alone
But late night sunrise keep me out the home tonight
Yeah they keep me out the home tonight again
1, 2, 3, 4

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

Your tongue can't lie I've been falling
Don't even cry cause
I'm not gonna walk away or talk away the moment
Love it when you always get the notion
Your tongue can't lie I've been falling
Don't even cry cause
I don't wanna walk away or talk away the moment
Love it when you talk the way you do

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

Shoutout Allison for the photo creds :D

last night

//Lyrics

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're talkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
yeah im the worst guy

(verse)
what was the first lie, you said, to me
ill be searchin for some answers
can't control my temper
you just wanna rent her
i just need some money on me won't tell u again sir
thought i was over it all, but
i feel like i gave it up
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
I couldn't let you run
i don't think im saying enough
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
yeah i'm still thinking bout how

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're walkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
I know i'm the worst guy
i see it all the time
idrwd

(sauce)

talk2me

talk2me [p. sai]

the art of arranging flowers ^_^

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff https://soundcloud.com/mental https://soundcloud.com/reefuh

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scruff + mental + reef - ikebana 🌺(sai)

the end of an era

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https://soundcloud.com/user-811738038 (DONT-TEXT)
https://soundcloud.com/d_lfo (-1)

.BLAME

POISON_

i just bought the dress but i put it on backwards 
demons in my neck but im calling up the pastor
i just spent the check on a kerosene lantern
horse drawn carriage but im driving in the phantom
i just wifed your hoe stole her car and drove it past her
she might be my future but i wouldnt put it past her
im a big director scary movie ari aster
supernova beam savage heart fire blaster

i just popped a bean at the white house
feel like eboneezer smoking pack in my nightgown  
it gets sticky stardew valley when the lights down
i wasnt mad but i guess we gotta fight now
bitch im dumbledore with the rock 
kept it tucked had the potion in my sock
lil yachty with the wok 
thought we were real but we're not

i just bought the dress but i put it on backwards 
demons in my neck but im calling up the pastor
i just spent the check on a kerosene lantern
horse drawn carriage but im driving in the phantom
i just wifed your hoe stole her car and drove it past her
she might be my future but i wouldnt put it past her
im a big director scary movie ari aster
supernova beam savage heart fire blaster

poured a cup of lean then devoured up the python
watch the television nancy grace shes an icon
gotta change the channel to eleven cuz the fights on 
then we watch zapruder film and keep all the lights on
i just went to zurich on a yacht
dressed like katie couric but got diamonds on my watch
clever like a fox 
grand canyon with the rocks

i just bought the dress but i put it on backwards 
demons in my neck but im calling up the pastor
i just spent the check on a kerosene lantern
horse drawn carriage but im driving in the phantom
i just wifed your hoe stole her car and drove it past her
she might be my future but i wouldnt put it past her
im a big director scary movie ari aster
supernova beam savage heart fire blaster

haha

✩I FEEL SO ALIVE✩ ꒰◍ᐡᐤᐡ◍꒱ + boy92 - SAVAGEHEARTFIREBLASTER(prod. QQ εїз)

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[blx]
would u want a piece of me
i can promise itll be okayy
i dont wanna see u leave
just promise ull stay w me
okayy
x2

[riah]
would u want it any other way
so damn tired of makin mistakes
u better step back n get in ur lane cuz
i dont really know if i feel no way
dont leave dont go away
cuz ill make sure im the one u chase
ik its hard but u gotta believe so stay w me 
okayy

[max]
yeah, you just got me fucked up
i just wanted you to stay, but now im locked up
whats gonna stop us
you know it's just us
i don't care about nobody else i wantcha
don't know why you tripping bae,
i could give a million reasons why I wanna stay
steady looking at the sky, I just wanna see your face
we could use another talk, I just wanna make, up

dont go now
i know you wanna 
not be found

just stay

[blx]
would u want a piece of me
i can promise itll be okayy
i dont wanna see u leave
just promise ull stay w me
okayy
x2

[riah]
would u want it any other way
so damn tired of makin mistakes
u better step back n get in ur lane cuz
i dont really know if i feel no way
dont leave dont go away
cuz ill make sure im the one u chase
ik its hard but u gotta believe so stay w me 
okayy

blxty + riah + max ruben - stay with me 🌷 (sai x miharu)

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art by はえもり(https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/5032847)

[blxty]
i cant do it
girl u can be my weakness i dnt mind
i might lose it
but when im with u ill just keep in mind
that i can do it
u know ur my weakness but i dont mind
i could lose it
but i know that i wont because i~

[sai]
im in luv with u   ah
u get me so high im floating thru the roof
i dont rlly care bout shit except for u ya
u give me those looks i dont know what to do ^_^
to dooo uh

can we talkkkkkkk
i wish our eyes would lockkkk
like girl can we b in love
and she like yes boy omg
uh
70 on dashboard, i cnt stopppp
i jus wanna have the world, i just need ur loveee :3

[blxty]
u dont know how it feels
to lay here all alone
im tired but im up and im up and i just cant fall asleep
when ur with me
i feel incomplete
and nothing can ever tear me apart
the way u be mean
u know that it hurts me 
ya it tears me all aparttt

i cant do it
girl u can be my weakness i dnt mind
i might lose it
but when im with u ill just keep in mind
that i can do it
u know ur my weakness but i dont mind
i could lose it
but i know that i wont because i~

i dont mind 💗 +blxty (sai)

luv u twin soundcloud.com/scrufff

i could b there for u, idc what i do to myself

scruff - flower journal (sai)

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ＡＲＯＵＮＤ　ＹＯＵＲ　ＢＥＤ

//ごめんなさい//

less than a week until outsider drops. i've been excited to release this track with my homie for a while. i hope you guys enjoy it. i love you <3

available on apple/spotify
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also show this track some love over on @your_secret
s/o to the homies over there <3
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lyrics
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it's 2 in the mornin'
i'm out explorin'
i've just been soaring 
it started pouring
so we found a tree & sat out until morning
i think i'm boring
but you don't think that, you're too busy adoring
so give me a warning
so give me a warning
baby i'll start restoring

everything that i've got up inside my head
supercalifragilisticexpialidead
i've been feeling lost forever shitty weather up ahead
i'm the eye inside the storm that's lingering around your bed
never settle for a broken bond you're more important than
every problem that you focus on, your purpose to expand
on an idea or a singular thought inside your head 
tryna make it through the night without the 
demons that i dread

what am i suppose to do?
when they comin' thru
take my brain & consume it
i don't feel how i do
when they say i blew up and labels amazed man
feels like i've been in a cage man
my disinterest for the words that you've been saying
dismiss it gettin' to workin' all day then
sit inside my room & contemplate my fate again

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i love you all so much.
thank you for always being there for me <3

Song title - Reckless
Production & Vocals by Lund

Lyrics: 

Reckless
Stole my heart
And put it on a necklace 
Wind back the clock baby girl 
time is precious 
Now I know that loving you 
a death wish 
Tell me how it feels to 
take advantage of love 

Restless
Your voice inside my head
The echo endless
Let down my guard 
Every time i regret it
Even tho i know you were pretending
when i said i loved you
I meant it

Numb inside
photos on the wall 
I can’t stand the sight 
Cause every where I look 
I see you and I
It’s tourture baby
I don’t even feel alive
I can’t even cry 
Hole inside 
My heart
You took advantage 
Of my trust Oh why’d 
you have to ruin
All our memories 
I tried everything 
To keep you by my side 
But I can’t love a lie

come back 
Quit wasting time on love you know that won’t last
When this hearts only for you 
I could show that 
in everything I do for you 
you’d know that
All of me 
I’ll give to you 
Won’t hold back 
Trust in us 
Oh I believe 
We’ll grow that 
Anytime you need me 
I’ll be right there
I been here before 
I know your scared 
your heart im tryin repair
Cause I know that love is

Reckless
Stole my heart
And put it on a necklace 
Wind back the clock baby girl 
time is precious 
Now I know that loving you 
a death wish 
Tell me how it feels to 
take advantage of love 

Restless
Your voice inside my head
The echo endless
Let down my guard 
Every time i regret it
Even tho i know you were pretending
when i said i loved you
I meant it

Silhouette of you 
Playin on a loop in my head 
It was all a ruse 
Didn’t mean a word that you said 
I gave you my heart 
you wanted my soul instead 
This an sos but no one here to save me 
I’m dead 

Caught up in a lie 
Can’t forget the words you said 
The way you made me feel 
Even it’s all pretend 
Poison in my veins 
I can never trust again 
Look into my eyes 
I want you to see what you 

Did To me 
tried but I can’t erase all our history 
haunts me everyday I live in misery 
Without you I have nothing but our memories 
Life is like a puzzle
Your the missing piece
Now I’m so confused 
On where I need to be 
Searching for the answer
But it’s plain to see
We weren’t meant to be 
Baby I’m just tryin figure out 
How you could be so 

Reckless
Stole my heart
And put it on a necklace 
Wind back the clock baby girl 
time is precious 
Now I know that loving you 
a death wish 
Tell me how it feels to 
take advantage of love 

Restless
Your voice inside my head
The echo endless
Let down my guard 
Every time i regret it
Even tho i know you were pretending
when i said i loved you
I meant it