the medications ain't working,
all my words have been slurring,
i don't know who i am anymore,
i am tired of being me,
i wanna rip myself out of this body,
out of this body,
now.

identityerror [self-prod]

derealization, and random feelings of anxiety mixed with emptiness at the least convenient moments :/

mixing, vocals, and lyrics by @sebstixns-funerl
mastering by me but with help from https://soundcloud.com/airoez
produced by https://soundcloud.com/salmonghost (hes such a goated producer, and a beautiful person, i love his beats so much)

inspired by: heyzuko! - pick up the phone pt.2 and tripleskyluv - паладин

lyrics:

i realized that i dont know how to be alone,
i live in lies they're distorting my sense of home,
my sense of time aint the same but you wouldn't know
ask myself why im this way when im on my own,

i feel,
secluded,
im lost, in all,
these negative thoughts,
i tell myself,
i messed it up,
thats why i dissasociated at the party

i wanna rip myself out of my body,
change every detail till somebody wants me,
Im tired of feeling forced to stay alive,
just so they can say they care but then theyll taunt me

im scared that things wont change,
my head it starts to ache,
everythings feeling fake,
i thought id be okay

i disassociated at the party [p. salmonghost]

an exaggeration of my love for her

lyrics: 

@sebstixns-funerl

id let you ruin my life,
and take control of my mind,
because i love you too much,
you rearrange my time,

im tired of existing,
im hating our distance,
wish you could be closer,
i want you in my living

i like you,
youre different than the rest,
but i dont feel good enough,
and that makes me upset,

im working on my problems just so i can be the best,
and if we were toghether i would give you everything,
let you do all you want to me and steal my first kiss,
you can use me as you want, you can do as you wish,

i could cut everyone out my life if you told me,
you could turn me into your doll and control me,
I'll be there for you forever that's without a doubt,
i have a desire to just kiss you on the mouth,

pretty little sweet girl i don't deserve you,
i'm acting unstable and i don't wanna hurt you,
id stare at your eyes until i start to convulse
you're my lifeline you act as my virtue,

mimic☺☾⋆ [self-prod]

sorry ray im using the adventure time aesthetic for this one
prod @bonedoji + @tillamookbay

1 2 3 4 5 6
count it up
i might cut out all my friends cuz they all just wanna duck
7 8 9 pics
oh here we go again
never making it to 10
nothing's perfect in the end

oh my glob
don't start this shit with me
when you think you can't be wrong
oh my glob
imma leave it right here
cuz yk im gon be gone 

you bitches inconisderate
telling me to switch i could not even consider it
treat me like im trash, take me 3 years just to figure it
maybe its my fault, im the reason they're all leaving it

i rlly feel like @deethew
can you find the fucking difference in past and current me
cuz i cannot find a reason to keep me on this streak
if you got a problem dont take it up with me

i had to hang it up and dry it out
why the fuck you talking down?
im not even active in the scene so what you tryin now?
all you fucking clankers claiming copyright to strike me down
i would rather blow my fucking head off than to bite your sound
wtf
whatchu want
wtf
what you get from this? 
im tryna move away from all the stupid shit
i dont do that drama i dont hang with cliques

im just tired of it
all you lying for it
all you trying for it
all you fighting for it
it gon stab you in the back
it gon put your shit on blast
leave you dead inside its tracks
so can you drop the fucking act

i literally made this in 2-3 hours

ohmyglob @bonedoji @tillamookbay

prod girlsynth

lyrics:
oh where were you at when you left me crying?
i know youre seeing all my efforts, im trying
always stabbed my back and now i know when youre lying
i cant tell the present from the past im just getting tired
i wish i was someone else
i wish i didnt have to feel this way
i wish i was someone else
i wish i didnt have to feel this way

youre talking hella nonsense thats why youre at the bottom
all these racks i got and you wish that you got them
i forgot your name you cant be that important
bitch i got so many problems i gotta sort it out 
i wish i could just be another 
i wish i wouldnt be a bother
i wish i could just be another 
i wish i didnt have to feel this way

wont you look at me?
i wish i didnt have to feel this way
wont you look at me?
i wish i didnt have to- didnt have to feel this way
dont wanna feel this- 
dont wanna- dont wanna feel this way
i wish i didnt have to feel this way
dont wanna feel this- 
dont wanna- dont wanna feel this way
i wish i didnt have to feel this way

ᴡᴏɴᴛ ᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴍᴇ? </3

glass room *girlsynth

prod. me

@bugs

i been getting money now im still by my lonely
maybe it wont be your hand that i end up holding
i just bought me the whole zip now i cant stop rolling
me and bugs yeah we went up cause we so devoted
you already went up once and nobody noticed
yeah lil boy stop with the bullshit stop the coping
one day they're all gonna pay all the shit they owe me
he thought that he knew me he knew the old me
you could only get so far with hoping
mom i put on this designer im not joking
label showed me this 360 they tryna hoe me
at the top im in alaska its cold and lonely
ya ya maybe it won't be your hand im holding
im tryna hop in that uber like where we going
yeah bitch my flight a delta not a boeing
he was talking way too crazy having a moment, okay ya ya

bitch we up in new york took a different route
and i move like 21 check my bank account
i dont even know why they trynna count me out
feel like izaya bitch im shootin at the crowd
i been tryna make a way but they always tryna doubt
i remember u from back then wyd now ?
we been movin different they running they mouth
pop a pill n i start trippin bitch i feel like house
im j tryna turn to somethin
they know how im comin
u address me like im nothin
pour it up my cup runnin
bug , im too busy stuntin
hella fkin hunnids
baby whats the point of runnin ?
please dont put no one above me
all i want is money
y she sayin that she love me ?
man that shit is funny
slum village - look of love is
in that whip we bumpin 
yea they like what im becomin
i been movin scummy

doubt ft. bugs

this fall I sleep for you (Prod. pyctur)

ACROSS THE ROOM (prod. luffy x metlast)

production by me
art by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0bZCgAemO0h9no2IrXVX0r?si=0b27277049634758

-
maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around

feel something real [prod. Morgan]

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are we getting better?

https://soundcloud.com/aisle-4

https://discord.gg/mBKJ5Zyuf8