DOZE GOD

WAKE ME

I refuse to stay another day
Take a pill and let my brain decay
Push me away give me pain
Not that youll give a fuck youre just the same
Thought you were better youre just like the ones i hate
Not writing you letters you can rot inside of that grave
I still feel her presence lurking bitch get out of my way


This aint a song bitch this is a whole ass statement
Say you did nothing wrong but then found my ass in the pavement


Pick me up and drop me bitch you chose this for nothing
Im stuck cant breathe down in the abyss im drowning
i Hate being a zombie soulless im just rotting
theres Pain beating down my chest its getting way too heavy


Why would you take me just to push me away
Night time I weep just so i can numb the pain
Fight byes dont leave please i need you to stay
Youre mine only but im afraid youve gone astray


Pick me up and drop me bitch you chose this for nothing
Im stuck cant breathe down in the abyss im drowning
Pop a pill with something just so i can feel nothing
I Hate being a zombie soulless im just rotting
theres Pain beating down my chest its getting way too heavy
Not a single soul I would tell that my mind is stuck in my own hell
Made it for myself oh well been like this since i was 12


the fauna has rotted and its never coming back (prod. grayskies)

patience patience
i dont got no patience
i dont got no friends i just work out in my basement
waitin waitin
all this time im wastin
chug another bottle
chug another just to chase it
fuck another model
fuck another cuz im wasted
drownin in my sorrow 
i dont think im gonna make it
stackin up my problems
knock em down cuz i cant take it
i dont wanna solve em 
i just really wanna lay back down

im upset
im upset cuz i dont got no one around
shawty say she down for me
yeah she said baby keep the noise down for me
turn that frown upside down for me
me and my lil baby we got history

first you love me now fuck me
you could say im lucky
but frankly id say that you hate me
i need me some
 
patience patience
i dont got no patience
i dont got no friends i just work out in my basement
i dated this girl and i swear that she was satan
i lost all my brothers now im lonely in my 
wraith yeah
not a lot of money goin in my piggy bank yeah
not a lot of joy feelin in my fuckin brain yeah
not a lot of love not a lot of love

i need patience patience
i dont got no patience
i dont got no friends i just work out in my basement
waitin waitin
all this time im wastin
chug another bottle
chug another just to chase it

patience patience
not a lot of patience
patience patience
not a lot of patience

wait (branwen)

Im stuck in a pit I cant get out Theres no escaping it
My mind filled with doubts I scream and shout To try and cope with this
Noone hears me out Skys filled with clouds Theyre all grey and shit
sun wont show itself I need the help Or im not making it

Nobody cared for me when I needed something
So why should i give you my presence ill leave you rotting x2

Im stuck in a pit I cant get out Theres no escaping it
My mind filled with doubts I scream and shout To try and cope with this
Noone hears me out Skys filled with clouds Theyre all grey and shit
sun wont show itself I need the help Or im not making it
At this rate ill rot in hell Dont need your help Im chasing it
Did it by myself And im so proud No im not faking this
Much blood spilled It casts a spell Motivation i cant quit
Im sorry the truths hard to tell When im not complacent with
My place on this earth im too complaisant in

Nobody cared for me when I needed something
So why should i give you my presence ill leave you rotting 
prod. bowsa

eternal fog

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

I wanna cry but my tears all gone
I'm alone, I ain't got no one
Don't say that you cared when I'm dead and long gone
I give in man, this shit ain't fun

I give in man, this shit ain't it
Know I don't need it but I want a sip
I seen it coming, I ain't even gone trip
I just wanna go back but I can't even flip

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

white walls.

Produced by kinderyessir & viannoo

Lyrics

*auditory agony*

Please come back, can you hold my hand?
I don't know where I'm at, I don't know where I am
I'm on a plane that's all out of gas and I'm over an ocean, don't know where to land
I wanna change, I don't know if I can
I ain't got nothing left, you were all that I had
I'm out of breath, gave it all I had
Wish I could care but I know I can't

Don't say you care when you can't tell me
Know I'm fucked but you can't help me
Don't waste yo time, you might as well leave
I ain't been fine since you ain't been with me

Already know how this go
So you just might as well go
You ain't gotta waste my time
And I don't really need to waste yours

Say that I don't but I need her
She say she love me but I don't believe her
I'm not a man, I'm a creature
I wear your skin but you shouldn't look deeper

You might see something you shouldn't
Gave it my all and I'm done
I don't make music for fun
And I don't make music for funds 

Please come back, can you hold my hand?
I don't really know where I am
I'm on a plane that's all out of gas
I don't really even know where to land
I wanna change, I don't know if I can
Nothing left, you were all that I had
I'm out of breath, gave it all I had
Wish I could care but I know I can't

I'm in a body but I'm not alive, I'm just tryna survive, I don't even know how to breathe
She don't care about me so don't even try
Even if you did, it wouldn't mean shit to me
Don't try to bring me back, I don't wanna
I'm fine where I'm at, I don't wanna go farther
I don't wanna get better, don't bother
I be telling myself don't call her

When I open my eyes, no color
You were supposed to be mine, no other
I got stuck in a loop, can’t recover
Heart full of scars that I never can cover

*auditory agony*

i stopped pretending this was music.

Lyrics

I been walking this earth for 25 years and I still feel lost
I'm fucking pitiful, I still don't know how to open up, sit here and talk to my thoughts
I kind of thought by now I would figure it out and I still ain't figured it
I know something that you don't know, I know something that I can not tell you about

All I can say is watch what I say, protect all of your ear and eye gates
Heard what I said, you can do what you will, it ain't my fault if you don't escape
And just know the farther you go, the farther it is to get back to your home
It still hurts inside my chest even if I don't let you know

I say inside of my chest cause I don't have a heart, that girl took it apart
Won't ever be put together again, won't be better again, to be hurt is my part
Space I'm wasting, I can't take this, fuck this life, I wake up and I hate it
Say I don't care but you know that I'm faking, know it's been years but your love I'm still chasing

If your love was a liquor, wouldn't chase it, your love is bitter, I still wanna taste it
Keeping these thoughts in the basement so I don't have to go down there and face it
If I face it I'd have to go end it and I just wanna keep on pretending
Cause that's all I have and that's all I will if you never come back

I been walking this earth for 25 years and I still feel lost
I'm fucking pitiful, I still don't know how to open up, sit here and talk to my thoughts
I kind of thought by now I would figure it out and I still ain't figured it
I know something that you don't know, I know something that I can not tell you about

All I can say is watch what I say, protect all of your ear and eye gates
Heard what I said, you can do what you will, it ain't my fault if you don't escape
And just know the farther you go, the farther it is to get back to your home
It still hurts inside my chest even if I don't let you know

Even if I don't let you know
Even if I don't let you go
Even if I don't let you see
Everything that you did to me
Even if I don't let you know
Even if I don't let you go

XXV. adorer.

my heart used to be beautiful now theres mold inside.

lyrics:
all i do is fuck up and i wish i could go back
i jus wanna hear her voice, but gotta move on from the past
cuz i know this isn’t healthy, she got my ass so attached
why’d you even say you want me, when you knew it wouldn’t last?

you don’t even give a fuck and you haven’t for 8 months
it’s kinda sad i ain’t give up when i could tell something was up
how did you act so in love, but didn’t mean it for a minute?
even after all the bullshit, let you come back in a second

i do this shit to myself, can’t admit that i need help
gotta keep on keeping on though, treading lightly through this hell
and i’ll pretend i’m doing well if that means you won’t know i fell
cuz i don’t think that it’d be fair to you if you knew how i felt

why i’m so obsessed with all the things that make me sad?
these feelings like a tick, yeah the way they so attached
did i ever give a shit? fuck, maybe in the past
i can’t give a shit about something that i know ain’t gonna last

all i do is fuck up and i wish i could go back
i jus wanna hear her voice, but gotta move on from the past
cuz i know this isn’t healthy, she got my ass so attached
why’d you even say you want me, when you knew it wouldn’t last?

that girl told me that she love me, but she meant it in the past tense
all i am is what you left, you fucked up my existence
the harder that i tried, it would jus make you more distant
saw it in your eyes, so why’d you say you wanna fix it?

clinging to your memory | prod. neverforever

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