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Best Selflove hits 3

S@d Æsthetic Essencials Vol.2

produced by dercept
featuring @hoeplessboy

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lyrics:

@lottaheart:
and you know how to make my heart stop
give you everything that i got
but ill never be good enough
tell me that you're fallin out of love
guess ill never be good enough
(for you)

and i cant tell
if you care or if you dont, well it depends
i've been waiting for it all to make sense
feeling good about yourself at my expense
and will it ever end?
[x2]

@hoeplessboy:
will it ever end?
i just need a percocet put a bullet thru my head
guess it all depends
whether you're my friend
cause baby i just need you
can you stay until the end

like that,
baby if you want me i just might take you back
fuck that,
baby for a second i was weak but now im back

start to tell me that its over
locked inside my room,
and i've never been sober
[x2]

@lottaheart:
and i cant tell
if you care or if you dont, well it depends
i've been waiting for it all to make sense
feeling good about yourself at my expense
and will it ever end?
[x2]

depends w/ hoepless [dercept]

@sorrow_bringer 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
[Audio Sample from King's Game]
~~lyrics~~
it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

hoping i heal, but i'm proof of the damage
everyone i kill's either hungry or manic
refuse any pills that i'm offered, then panic
if i'm really real, would you feel if i vanish?
let's trace back to the start
i ain't got no time here to waste on my heart
if i wanted peace, i believe i would be "anybody"
can't feel defeat when i'm coated in honey

permanently flawed; let me get my head straight
living at the cost; on the brink of being dead weight
no headspace, just silence.
what do you expect when the sky's blaring sirens?
but i knew the consequences all along
i used too much strength tryna grow stronger
the rapture, and endless disaster

take me by the head 
(okay)
leave no evidence 
(nor trace)

the moon is turning red
the air is so condensed 
simple lives and foolish lies
i raise a knife up to my eye
if one should seek, then one shall find
but what if i've already died?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬...
𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦... 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦,
𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut
like it wants in my gut...

sugar in the spice (sorrow bringer)

@evertheghost

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half 

You try to invite him over 
Got 3 screenshots from last October 
Don’t lie to my face 

you know you ain’t right
You know you ain’t right

I exercise my full right 
To keep on dying inside 

Please take your stupid thoughts
And shove them right up your ass 

Your always so full of shit 
I tried my best to make things right 

You fill my head with harmful thoughts 
And act so innocent in the dark 

I’m so tired of falling 
I’m so damn exhausted 

I cry so damn often 
My life keeps on falling 

(Ever The Ghost)
no peace
no remorse
only a flame to devour a forest
no remnants of life
captivate me on a fast decline
opening portals
unlocking powers
restless souls
all figure out after hours
lost and searching for my soul as it roams
got me backed in a corner
I just want to be alone

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half

Captivate [+ sogimura]

I Hate The Internet (prod. Living Puff)

This song is about the world being your canvas, meaning a true artist never limits themselves.

-- lyrics --
Canvas

I sacrificed my life and gave it everything I got…

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

The world is my canvas
Cuz I’m a true artist
The picture I paint it
I go in the hardest 
give a fuck what you say
Imma do me regardless
It‘s more than my ex girl
That’s left me so heartless

And I don’t even fucking want her back
I just wanna keep on making stacks 
I just wanna keep on spitting facts
What’s your problem that’s no way to react

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

I copped a goyard bag 
to put my heart in
I don’t beg for shit
So Fuck your pardon
I earned every lick
Life got me hardened
I don’t ever quit
I hunt like I’m starvin

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

Canvas

Canvas (Prod. STARINTHESKY)

One of many

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat
[Verse 1]
You reminded me that I'm still human
I can't expect everything to always be perfect
We all make mistakes and learn from them
It's the only way to be a better person
I wish someone had told me all this when I was young
I wouldn't have ever considered pulling the plug
Sometimes all we need is just a simple hug
I used to think that opening up wouldn't be enough
[Verse 2]
I used to hate looking at myself
I was insecure if you couldn't tell
You showed me how to have confidence
The cold shoulder was all I ever felt
The only person you can really change is yourself
You can't force your agenda on someone else
Trust me, I had to learn the hard way
If I never reflected I wouldn't be here still
[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat

you made me realize (prod. 2001)

Lyrics:

you cant match my flow if you wanted to
labels hit my phone on the low im not in the booth
sippin on patron all alone while im on the move
gettin to the bag on my own like i oughta do

but yall dont even know so its lonely
do it by myself on my own G
fuck everyone else im a lone G
always try to drown but it wont leave

like fuck it ill just live with this sickness
like fuck it it aint none of your business
i swear that i get pushed to my limit
i hate it but i dont wanna give in

if only sorrow could build a staircase
or tears could show the way (shoutout BMTH)
you know id take it all right back
so we could see some better days
i know its really not worth leaving
they say goodbye anyway
i know that life can get real fucked
but im just hoping that you stay

Sickness

sickness

(prod. kais x sorrowbringer)
u all mean the world to me fr
enjoy :’)

lyrics:
don’t wanna let you down again
I know i’m nothing but a burden.
and when the tide goes down i’ll stand
up for myself again

I was never a part of it
nah I was never part of it, a part of anything or anyone

got me painting pictures of the future stressin bout my life
kais don’t stress bout stupid thought illusions cloudin’ up yo mind
just fkn stop this shit
get me out of it
just get me home, where I can grow, and heal my scars a bit

this is really up to me
I can’t rely on not any my friends, nah
I would love to be chillin at home makin beats every week
so I wont let this go to waste
wont let them see this smile fade away

“im lonely and hurting”
all these thoughts averted.
I kno y’all got my back
I can hear it from your wording
im sorry i called you
these things seem to fall through
pictures comin down I can tell the rain gon’ fall soon.

it's okay

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s/o soundcloud.com/boyfifty and soundcloud.com/user-530621763
enjoy :)

lyrics:

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck

therapy's expensive and exercise is pendin
thoughts are goin wild and anxietys expandin
you need everyone to hear you, but cant seem to open up
yeah your confidence is lackin and you couldnt give a fuck

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

i miss them all
i need someone to catch me before i fall
i need love and composure
something i looked over
i cant even function, i fucked myself over

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself x2

look them in the eyes, bruh
you cant love yourself if you gonna hide and run
from your confidence its killin you inside of us
im tryna help but you fuckin up the life of us

okay maybe im depressed right now
cant leave the room (go out)
i need some rest right now
i don't got time to show out
i cant find a reason for anything
i cant find the motivation that im chasin so desperately.

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck x2

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

callin' out to myself

callin' out to myself (prod. boyfifty x eeryskies)

lyrics

can’t even face me this evening when i shut the door and run
baby this feels wrong 
like everything’s undone
i put down the foot, but all that says is that you’ve won
girl it’s not my brain
yeah it’s u toxic on this one

foggy mirror, a long drive
misty fields, and a grey sky
eyes on glass, as it spitsrain
waters wet, the tears u shed were crocodile

i see yellow lines but not th same thats on th road
we’re in different times its spiralling out of control
u dont share my highs and i jus keep that on th low
its getting cold now girl i gotta go (shoutout shizu)

ill jus pack my backs, no intent of coming back home
we were on a path were i thought u couldn’t break this mould
delusion got th best of me, guess i was never told
it was written in the stars but now its more than cold

cold cold yeah its more than cold
ice shards forming on my arms and i cant feel my toes
hope ur somewhere where the logs ablaze or that of coal
ill be sitting in the outlands where its well below

i hope ur happy as u weren’t before
ill say take care while on hardwood floors
dreams of incoming meteors
oh on my chest i can feel the force

this pressures stronger coz of what u said
depressing stronger than ive ever felt
an old mossed statue
but my heart still melts
deep in th dark forest will u find urself

i see yellow lines but not th same thats on th road
we’re in different times its spiralling out of control
u dont share my highs and i jus keep that on th low
its getting cold now girl i gotta go (shoutout shizux2)

ill jus pack my backs, no intent of coming back home
we were on a path were i thought u couldn’t break this mould
delusion got th best of me, guess i was never told
it was written in the stars but now its more than cold

cold (caves)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

u can watch from the sideline now BITCH

prod. @smilecrayola
cover art by digital yams

✨Polar ✨
💎 @polar333 💎
💎 instagram.com/ihatepolar/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/ihatepolar/ 💎

✨Kevin Kazi ✨
💎 @yvngnamek 💎
💎 instagram.com/kevinkazi/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/kevinkazi 💎

lyrics:
Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline
Ya

I just made a rack flipping packs time to upscale
Bitch I'm independent making money off of resale
I don't fuck with fakes ya I buy that shit for retail
My teeth filled with ice hit the blunt then I exhale
Your new shorty pretty nice ima steal that
Look into my eyes, heart of ice, but don't feel bad
I stay up at night playing games while you still sad
Never trust a hoe cause you'll never get your soul back

Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline

Pulled up on your hoe with Versace on my eye sight
She just fell in love with me, I think that shorty my type
Ride up in my phantom got me feeling like a poltergeist 
Porsche Panamera ima skirt off, they like Jesus Christ
Bitch I'm sipping potions, by the ocean
Shorty she approaching, give her slow dick
If you wanna be my lover, treat me right
Molly got me seeing colors, flashing lights

Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline

May not really like me, but you will never meet me
This shit has a price, house of lies, it ain't easy
And how I never know they're a snake till they leave me
Then they come back when I blow say they need me

stream ❄️

sideline w/ kevin kazi (prod. smilecrayola)

I'm Trying (Prod. Westt the great)

Climb aboard Andrew Spacey's train of thought and hitch a ride into the darker corners of the young artist's psyche on his new track and visual, "Everlasting". Detailing the reoccurring subconscious thoughts that often weigh him down, Spacey battles the loss of emotional connection that comes with maturity to things and experiences he once found intriguing. The Fantasy Trap visionary's atmospheric vocals and otherworldly lyrics glide over Shrimp and Glasear's deeply melodic, dark production leaving the listener longing for a place that does not exist. Additionally, CRXHN's arcade oriented visual illuminates Spacey's longing for adventure through obscure scenes and one of a kind edits that allow the viewer to step out of blatant reality and step into a realm consumed by the unknown.

Everlasting (Prod. Glasear x Shrimp)

Listen on other platforms:
https://songwhip.com/song/tanto/idntwnnafallaprt

Tanto 
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/37VShweFmWxn33vCPFydOr?si=5_HRCy51Tc6bhJ8h3Mj8zQ 
Twitter: https://twitter.com/whostanto
IG: https://www.instagram.com/whostanto/

Yvng Swim
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5wBLBtzkrT4O1HwayX0L9L?si=U6oRNPDKQx-bYU5jBsaQCw 
Twitter: https://twitter.com/yvngswim
IG: https://www.instagram.com/hashsmokingthrasher/

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

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