@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

lyrics:

Come the last time we had talked about it
I cannot love but im glad u found it
Im at peace in my Louis shorts lounging
I packed a q inside this raw im quite astounded
If my hearts lost baby I had found it
Sick of all these signals that ive left unaccounted
She ask how I am feeling girl im drunk now
So that entail im bouta smell like skunk now

While I wait for her in near sundown
No one knows the subjects I been thinking bout
So no one knows the people imma air out
But Im not blind im aware ya somehow
Should I wait now for someone that never cared
Cause when the times out I know u wont be here
But With the lights out I really could be anywhere
So still I lay down and fall in love again

Come the last time we had talked about it
I cannot love but im glad u found it
Im at peace in my Louis shorts lounging
I packed a q inside this raw im quite astounded
If my hearts lost baby I had found it
Sick of all these signals that ive left unaccounted
She ask how I am feeling girl im drunk now
So that entail im bouta smell like skunk now

Im throwing up inside this uber truck damn
Im usually ok when im not drinking to forget
But I miss the way that her body
Lays on me while she kisses me softly yea
This bottle make my mind so foggy
And I love it cause it help me when my eyes turn soggy yea
I guess this is growing up huh
But if it is im staying young huh

Come the last time we had talked about it
I cannot love but im glad u found it
Im at peace in my Louis shorts lounging
I packed a q inside this raw im quite astounded
If my hearts lost baby I had found it
Sick of all these signals that ive left unaccounted
She ask how I am feeling girl im drunk now
So that entail im bouta smell like skunk now

FINDERS KEEPERS (NEVRFALL X BRANWEN X MARTENSITE)

may 23 2021
official file <3 found by me
lyrics: 

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are
She is a fallen angel
I think she lost her halo
Could u tell me ur name again
Ill keep it confidential
I could see the patterns in her lies I work it out
It won’t work the second time around
Guide me to good give me a pill to take
Deep in the rut she gifted me sudden faith
Feather toes I didn’t wanna go im sorry
I promise ill be back in the morning

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

Talk is cheap but ive no more funding
The waves crash I cant believe I aint seen it coming
Break my bones and ill repair them and ill come back
Id let it happen again if u would like that
Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down
This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

rubbing alcohol (splashgvng x ayoleybeats)

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

sewerperson - we were so good (branwen)

[thank you for riding with SEMTEX, mr cook. 
we hope you enjoy your time with us. 
in the event of an emergency please try to remain calm. we will do everything we can to resolve the issue and keep you safe.

approaching depth of 1000 metres.]

its been, it’s been
it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

ima show everybody back home
that i’m not a waste of flesh blood and bones 
ima get some pictures get out n go home
finally safe from the sight of her name on my phone
in this dark blue wasteland cold and alone 
nobody but myself and a radio 
i’ll probably never surface here yeah i know
maybe i shouldn’t have got in this 3x3 coffin

[approaching depth of 3000 metres]

it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

[approaching depth of 5000 metres]

it’s a long way down (jolst)

sewerperson - another day

[Intro: Sewerperson]
(branwen)
I can fling it
I feel it, I guess it's our turn
Oh, all this armour

[Chorus: Sewerperson]
Another day of talking just to say nothing
I message pretty much two people at the most
I'm scared of saying something wrong
I wake up and apologize for the millionth time this month
I'm tryna get fucked up so I'ma hit it from the bong
Substance been my best friend since she did me wrong
But we don't get along, this should kill me, I'm not strong
I won't put it in the setlist 'cause I would start to sob
This love you feel is fake, they just tryna get on

[Verse 1: Sewerperson]
I'm about to give up, they don't even know
I've thrown up every meal, I'm just tryna take it slow
Of course I knew that I would have these dark days
But dear God, just give me some of the light, please
I forget what had hurt me in defense
I regret every minute we have been friends 
Deep in thought, I reflect
But I'm brought back to reason by these scars on my neck
I'm not tryna pretend, I'm just geeking
Even if I was dead, you would knock the bleeding
And I know I made my bed and I'm sleepy
This bitch tryna kill me, made me happy

[Verse 2: guardin]
Been ignorin' all the signs, I'm not doin' fine
Lost another friend and I was sure that we'd survive
In the midst of all this shit, I put my life in an archive
Next to everything I loved and hoped eventually would thrive
But the truth is hard to swallow after everything has died
In the process, hard to grieve in tears, I wanna compromise
So you better try to settle for your comfort in the words exchanged from you to I
Move across the Eastern Coast and commit social suicide

[Chorus: Sewerperson]
Another day of talking just to say nothing
I message pretty much two people at the most
I'm scared of saying something wrong
I wake up and apologize for the millionth time this month
I'm tryna get fucked up so I'ma hit it from the bong
Substance been my best friend since she did me wrong
But we don't get along, this should kill me, I'm not strong
I won't put it in the setlist 'cause I would start to sob
Just let me feel this fate, baby, they just tryna get it all

sewerperson - another day (ft. guardin)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

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