how in the fuck did this go under my radar

MAKES ME WANNA CRASH MY FUCKING CAR AT 120MPH INTO A TREE

produced by branwen

completely non profit

lyrics

turn it up turn it up for another night
getting drunk on a sunday till the morning light
waking up in a monday in a strangers bed
i think i finished all my drinks theyre in my fuckin head

holy shit here i go again
i been off my meds for a while
n im a god again
i dont really know who i am
n im alright with it
at least im being honest
if it hurts then u dont feel regret

ur head will hurt in the morning
u dont give a fuck
shes kinda cute might as well go n try ur luck
she thought that i was 25 holy wtf
so this wont go past tonight idgaf

19 i make connections when in drunk until i break them when im sober
in my heart im older
i bleed from underneath the scotch tape thats holding me together
its forever

why waste my time writing all these fucking metaphors
im still in love with the person that i met before
gave her my heart n she threw it on the fucking floor
i find it hard just to trust cus in the end
fucked my best friend
said she wishing i was dead
u live in my head
both u n him
and its such a mess 
that u have left
that u have left
that u have left

(hero)

i find it funny how we repeat such a cycle here again
shits so toxic its obnoxious she refuse to leave my head
and im okay with that, as okay with being sliced in half
"i got a thing for artists" oh i want ur take on that
chugging octane to experience a numbness when she on me
stop me, id like to see u try oh u could never
sulfate to really rub the cut into my skin
with scotch tape to wrap the fatal wound once again

scotchtape & sulfates ft. hero (branwen)

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

produced by sk8miles
completely non profit
lyrics:

shawty hit me with that vac seal
no gorilla grip
she go on to talk dick sand 
and how im pussy whipped 
glad u can agree that u and i
are a perfect fit 
if we talk about the premise, 
u and i, i guess we're caving in 

caving in 
seems that all i do is fuel some version of the pain im in
glad u getting me n what i've learnt from eating pavement
said the monster looking back on everything he did
i need my medicine 

my feet lost the ground 
i am still not found
I'ma hack at this ounce
blow smoke down and make clouds 
my feet lost the ground
i am still not found
I'ma hack at this ounce 
blow smoke down and make clouds 

so we dress up
and we pub crawl
eatin on her ___
'til i get lockjaw
u gotta love me for the way i am
swear the more the that she could hurt me;
only make me more attached 
blowing smoke into a fan
while she's sleeping in my bed around like 2am
i just crack my beer n touch the cieling crush n toss the can 
lucky im all out of barz cus knowing me id take the chance bro

my bad, love u
that's a lot of vodka for someone 5 foot
hard world. pull thru.
no one gives a fuck and that's a hard truth
but you make me feel alright
better at least than most nights 
it's complex the state of my mind
but she just says to shut up 
and get the knife
 

good point, but i have a knife (sk8miles)

with skele  soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt  <3

Greenwood:
Finish me in dark light
Overworked and so tired
Holding on, you’re so tight
Thought that I’d be alright
But you couldn’t see me like you couldn’t know where I’m at 
(you couldn’t know where I’m at)
Thought you didn’t need to, thought you knew me better than that

Listen to the rain, does it ever stop?
Parallel to all the shit that we’ve got going on
If you called I’m not convinced we couldn’t figure out
A way to fix it but I swear it’s getting bigger now
And you were lonely, I get that now
I could always find a reason to come around
The only way I knew how to come back down
Think I had you for a moment, I don’t know how

Think I been that
I’ve been everything you wanted before the impact
Least you could’ve done is kept the moment intact
Now it finds me in my dreams you couldn’t fix that
Crack it like a six pack,
Nah, haven’t drank in a minute
Skip the function cause the substance had me feel like I’m finished
Love these people but I really think I needed some distance
Said it to your face and I don’t know if you listened
Cause nothing feels like it’s different 

Finish me in dark light
Overworked and so tired
Holding on, you’re so tight
Thought that I’d be alright
But you couldn’t see me like you couldn’t know where I’m at 
(you couldn’t know where I’m at)
Thought you didn’t need to, thought you knew me better than that

Skele:
want you to look at me
like i’m for show
i feel it heavy whenever it snows
i’m in the forest
the spirits are showing me hope
baby i know that you’re screaming
i’m not hearing it
lately i can’t even tell you what the fuck i’m feeling is
i just need a reason i don’t wanna disappear again
i’m driving way too fast
i’m so gone
i’m not steering it
lay me on the bed
stain it red
where the bleeding is

i thought you knew me better
and i always shake all night
what happened to us in december
i stayed behind

i’m in the bed where we slept
where he held me
i’m so in love with the fantasy
i was with him
in the evergreens
he’ll never know
what it meant to me

Quiet Afterwards (w/ skele)

single off upcoming alb w/ @fleshgolem
music video out now 

produced by @taylor x @fleshgolem
mix & mastrd by @fleshgolem

lyrics

it’s uncertain
expressive on the good i’m not that person
purpose, look at me in my eyes tell me it’s working
keep searching for moments that ain’t in reach know ur not perfect anymore
coz it’s all just from ur lense 
u gotta seek deep in the source

we fighting the time
but fuck all the ticking don’t worry ur mine
functioning fine
tipping off wine
trips for the flicks 
don’t u worry bout dimes

deeping the trips on monday 
don’t get to see but i’m texting on runway
so it’s cool
going to this one place
it’s cool we might freeze it’s a long break
oh and the view
brains just a dumb maze
right on the brink every week then new phase
opens up
call it dumb luck 
but it’d be the same every path i was fucked

right from the start
a bruise on my heart
my brain never helped coz it had its own scars
developed like sars
like moving to mars
there was no escape 
just a suffering star

humble in past
now belief i’m off far
now need it consistent coz it can get dark
oh trust me it’s dark
still sits right next me but without could i right all these bars

this ain’t a gimic 
i’m writing these lyrics 
a book that won’t finish 
in this life time, no

you’re taking our pictures
i’m writing our scriptures 
we’re climbing these pillars
this is our life

so we should love it now
live it down
ill then pass the torch to those feeing drowned
swimming round
circle bound
hear me out, hear me out

i want change i’ll soon change my sound
i want to leave the dirt different ground
i’ll pave a way for those looking down 
i know where i’m at, i know where i’m bound

uh uh 
i need a lie down 
you see this life that i’m living
through, sound waves and vintage filtered pictures
but make no mistake oh
this message wont break mold

i could never tell u that i’m home 
id rather spent nights on the road
walking outside of the lines alone
and they’ll say you’re outta control 

objective so confusing 
still find my self cruising
this adventure so amusing
want for you
the best is all that i want for you not what i know

what i know
what i know
yeah i would talk more but i’d rather just see the seeds grow
 
i cant show u what i could do if i believed in myself more coz i already do

nothin to prove 
but nothing to lose
the setup is fucked but what can you do 
except choose
theres no wrong but thats up to you

our adventure

our adventure (taylor morgan x flesh) music video link in bio

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pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

dead (heyylotus & warheart)

please don’t step on my heart 
i’ve been over and over this
many times before 
please don’t get out my car 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart 

call my bluff, we play cards 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve 
i can’t ever recall
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me 

and those cold eyes make me panic
what do you want 
i can’t manage 
and those bright red lips 
make me vanish
what do you want with me 

stop the crying and the shouting, im sorry 
but maybe you’re better off
i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me
i’ll do anything no matter the cost

cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming
ever since you were the one i lost
i can’t be here without you, im dying
one kiss will finish me off 

please don’t step on my heart (stop the crying and the shouting i’m sorry)
i’ve been over and over this
many times before (but maybe you’re better off)
please don’t get out my car (i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me) 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart (i’ll do anything no matter the cost)

call my bluff, we play cards (cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming) 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve (ever since you were the one i lost) 
i can’t ever recall (i can’t be here without you, im dying)
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me (one kiss will finish me off)

banshee (wisssery)

w1th0ut 4 tr4c3
v13wf1nd3r
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@jolst & @toobears
ft. @fantasycamp
art: @ejcarrmusic
ep soon...
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lyrics:

(decks)
i cannot try
i cannot fight for u
baby in all my life
nothing was right before u
u know i miss it
nothing is given
not gonna push my luck
but i'm here when u need it

i see flaws, nothing lost
not worth losing sleep
a hundred calls, in the fall
what it meant to me
i just reminisce on you all the time
i cycle thru all the views, i can’t find her
i’m the viewfinder

trail of tears where i lay
set to rinse and decay
i confess what i say isn't real
my image is homemade
but baby, we’re falling out
i can’t say how
lets live for now
i'm trying to see this out
i won’t look now
we’re upside down

i don't know how i got here
one step too far ur gone
i wish i had an answer

i cannot try
i cannot fight for u
baby in all my life
nothing was right before u
u know i miss it
nothing is given
not gonna push my luck
but i'm here when u need it

i see flaws, nothing lost
not worth losing sleep
a hundred calls, in the fall
what it meant to me
i just reminisce on you all the time
i cycle thru all the views, i can’t find her
i’m the viewfinder

(fantasy camp)
i'm looking out
but i can't seem to find you wherever i go
where are you now?
been a wreck since the night that you left me alone
so where you at? come and stay by my side
i won't forget all the nights that you cried
but you're the one that i need and can't find
now i'm falling behind
so can you save me? be my baby
goin crazy without you lately
maybe i'll just hit your phone and try to remind you
wherever i go, I can't find you

without a trace

viewfinder (ft. fantasy camp) [jolst x toobears]

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produced by raspo

lyrics:

im so done you made me feel like im a ghost
i feel out of place and still have no one to call my home
if im a creep then your a weirdo
ill never ask for help, your the same as me

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i can try
but i wont
be alive
for very long
i could cry
oh could you
if i died 
would you

lost

[thank you for riding with SEMTEX, mr cook. 
we hope you enjoy your time with us. 
in the event of an emergency please try to remain calm. we will do everything we can to resolve the issue and keep you safe.

approaching depth of 1000 metres.]

its been, it’s been
it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

ima show everybody back home
that i’m not a waste of flesh blood and bones 
ima get some pictures get out n go home
finally safe from the sight of her name on my phone
in this dark blue wasteland cold and alone 
nobody but myself and a radio 
i’ll probably never surface here yeah i know
maybe i shouldn’t have got in this 3x3 coffin

[approaching depth of 3000 metres]

it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

[approaching depth of 5000 metres]

it’s a long way down (jolst)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

it’s a long way down (jolst)

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