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i broke apart w/ skele (neverfall)

guitar by @pekarot

feel the shakes in my body 
and i wish you'd call me
my friends say they're sorry 
as my eyes leak out softly
don't worry at all 
i'll wait for a message 
a paper in a bottle 
a pill that's hard to swallow 

you're getting really good at that part
the one where you hurt me 
the one where you're leaving
all i ever had was my heart
and now it's in pieces
and now i'm not breathing 

and all there is left is some memories of us
picturing a gun
taking my blood
and there is is left is this pain that weighs a ton
filling up my lungs
destroying my guts

all i ever had was my heart

i fell in love and fell apart again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/afterlife66

(after everything, the last thing i thought i'd hear was i love you
but, i guess it never mattered to you like it did to me,
i'm sorry)

i'm the worst 
and god i know that
cause by now i realize
the reason it all ends bad
cause i keep breaking 
and you couldn't take it 
so i just lay down in my bed
and dream we made it

and there's so much more that i had planned
and now i sit alone with shakey hands
disregard all the blood i bled,
i wish that you were here instead
i thought that you'd be here to hold me
i remember all the words you told me 
you'd never leave like this 
i couldn't prepare for all the things i'd miss

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

medicine, my lungs turned black
i know you're not too sad
left a knife in my back 
i ruined everything we had 

i'd run away before you don't want to
if i get close i know that i'll hurt you 
run away before you don't want to 
if i get close i know that i'll
hurt you 

okay, alright 
i like when i feel numb,
i don't know what to feel like
okay, alright 
i'll fool myself into every pretty lie

i don't wanna fall in love and fall apart again
i don't know if i'm okay enough 
so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect
(what did i expect)

and someday soon
your eyes will light up the whole damn room 
when you mention someone else
like they did,
when i was your everything 

i fell in love and fell apart again 
i can't keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect

medicine, pt. 2 (prod. afterlife)

prod @metlast
Lyrics:
Nothing really seems to change
And I can't even stop to blame myself
Don't want to wake up today
I don't want to feel that pain again
Nothing really seems to change
But nothing really seems the same
I'm dying numb and cold
'Cause inside me there is no more flame

Can you tell me what to think?
'Cause I can feel my heart shrink
I thought that I had nothing
Inside my chest
I just want to feel alive
For the last time

Nothing really seems to change
And I can't even stop to blame myself
Don't want to wake up today
I don't want to feel that pain again
Nothing really seems to change
But nothing really seems the same
I'm dying numb and cold
'Cause inside me there is no more flame

Nothing Changes [prod. metlast]

wake up shakes from your name
on my phone screen
i never thought i would see that again
i thought i was fine without you here 
but i 
feel,
it now,
i fear

so just tell me what you want 
i'll fucking give you it all
bleed all over the pavement 
i'll pin myself to the wall
you know just how to get through me
i fucking hate how you do it
just the same as you knew me,
i'm all alone
you can see it

i don't ever wanna feel that hurt again
but it doesn't feel the same 
without you in my bed
i'll tell you anything you wanna hear i,
wanna go right back to the start

i'm feeling it now, mr. krabs

PRODUCED BY TAURS AND JOLST 

usendflowrs: 

will you call home, just call home my visions clouded
wanna tear off my face when i think about it
x2

your love fills my health bar, can’t live without it
i’m low hearts, you’re cold i would never doubt it 
a lost soul in that cold, and never found it 
your personality lies in that cold snow 
she said she kinda scared
she want me to walk her home 
jus carry me thru everything
and please don’t let me go 
she a witch, she curse the medicine
i take when i’m alone 
she wanna lay me down 
and kiss me 
take my soul and watch me go 

nevermadeithome:

and i cant believe that i didnt see this 
she poisoned the apple when i eat it 
i cant read her books they make me speechless
one flick of her hair shes so reckless 

she'll eat your heart alive 
she gets her voodoo doll 
with a needle and she pokes me in the eye 
now ive gone fuckin blind 
i hope this is the last time 
that she conjures up a potion 
& im praying its the elixer of life x2

i kinda want you bad
but i know that youre no good for me 
youre just being sad so i fall for you
i kinda want you bad 
but i know that you’re no good for me 
and you’re just being sad so i fall for-

sendflowrs & nevermadeithome:

in that cold snow 
she said she kinda scared
she want me to walk her home 
jus carry me thru everything
and please don’t let me go 
she a witch, she curse the medicine
i take when i’m alone 
she wanna lay me down 
and kiss me 
take my soul and watch me go
x2

winterfell w/ nevermadeithome (taurs x jolst)

there's no love in those eyes of yours

prod: acey & @vito2300
master: @vito2300 & https://soundcloud.com/diskrypt

can we talk for a second 
i can't breathe when i'm next to you
stop for a second 
reassess what's gotten into you
tell me why i'm looking at a monster
a monster
i feel like a lamb sent to the slaughter 
the slaughter 

i suppose it's unavoidable
you were sent to kill me off 
so make it horrible
want you to cut around my neck 
like i'm deplorable
and i'll sit pretty for you 
rotting under soil 
oh i just give it up right 
i'm so easy don't lie
there's no love in those eyes of yours
oh i'm just wasting my life 
and it's just about time 
i'm just waiting to die
for sure

don't wanna tell you that i like it 
all the blood's got me excited
and if you wanna put me down 
i wouldn't mind it
you can treat me like a dog 
i love the violence
you can tell me what to say 
and i'll recite it 

if i'm the puppet 
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up
do you what you want 
i'll understand 
you're such a demon
(x2)

if i'm the puppet
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up 
do what you want 
i'll understand
you're such a demon
it's so hard for me to talk 
i can't speak up
if i don't see you at the end 
i love you so much

puppet

puppet (prod. acey & vito)

skele - tell me you need me *unreleased*

guitar by michael harrison

i thought 
we'd only talk about this once
like we decided that we're done 
and that's really what we want

but i 
still find my way back close 
into your arms 
they're safe 
and they feel like home 

tell me one more 
time
that i made your life like
a movie 
on the big screen 
tell me one more time 
that you'll be alright cause 
you were crying 
when you kissed me 

i loved you so damn much 
i'll love you till i'm numb

arms

(produced by miercoles)

and i said 
what i wanted to say 
won’t hold my tongue 
not tomorrow not today 
she goes to prom
to dance the whole night away 
but she don’t know 
what i’ve got planned and i can’t wait 
i can’t i can’t i can’t

my brand new sleep schedule

nobody listens to me 
watching as everyone leave
ill be here falling to peices
outside for autumn to see
I cannot see thru the madness
theres too many secrets to keep
ill meet you out by passage
ive hidden a sword in my sheath
see im grittin my teeth
waiting for problems got somewhere to be
But everyone fake
yea i cant beleive
were all struggling underneath 

yea under the surface
youll find a purpose
its not picture perfect but
my lord gimme courage 
so i promise ima stand up

Its like every night every night every night i cant
understand really why
i cannot stick to the full plan


wonder why everyone lookin at me
i might throw up right off the balcony
anxious and idk how i can keep
walkin around when everyone follow me
why am i paranoid
washed like a janitor
never take steroids 
but i got mad at her
Hurt in my chest
whip in a challenger
i can adress 
ive got a lot learn

one minute im gone
next minute im next to you but
after you hear this song
you know that everything i said was true

passage (cxrter x cobalt)

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

your perfect
your worth it
don't be hurting
u don't deserve it
like I don't deserve u

its the little things that I catch
itching till you rash
and i can help you love
don't you hurt no more

its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay
don't you hurt no more

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

ill be the light in your darkest time
let me be the one to hold you and you'll be just fine
your eyes say it all when you're inlove
the heart says more when you're close

(its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay)

need u

lyrics⬇️
listeing to everything around me
I don’t eavesdrop i just hear my surroundings 
i wish i had someone to say that they were proud of me
but thats unrealistic i only make enemies
Try my best to find out where i should go
all i have is hope in my head
but im still feeling low

dont make me turn away
sheer luck finna fill my veins
no chance that im gonna change
horrible everytime im in my brain
affordable atleast im making a lane
adorable i used to used to think was ur face
now when i go out i feel like a pain
never thought id be the batman to bane

but truthfully im still on track 
but idk whats going on in my head
i hate when they say they that i slack
but maybe theyre right cuz im in my bed

well i wanna just do my own thing
ill write on the wall in red ink
maybe the words are coding
for all of the ways that i think

and i miss the feeling i felt when i had a drink in my hand and a hand on the wheel
told you you dont gotta fear
i know whats good;know how to steer

he’s probably making a bag
she probably misses him bad
well probably isnt true; its barley even half that

unrealistic (soloft)

prod by Liminaldream

blink, im 24
theres still things i cant be rid of
i think i could do more
feeling younger than i am

fell distant from my friends
things felt different on my end 
i feel my stomach sinking when

standing over a hole i cant fill
going nowhere, im at a standstill
this october, it weighs like anvils

and i could last 
this december
find my flame 
in dying embers 
find my passion
and it wont change how fast im aging 
i cant take it 
i cant

blink

she said tell me what you’re feeling,
I don’t wanna tell her that I feel like shit,
she said tell me what you thinking,
I don’t wanna think if I think like this,

She said tell me that you need me, 
I don’t know how to reply, fuck this

she got up and now she’s leaving, 
and everyday still fucking think of that kiss 

I said tell me you love me baby, tell me you hate me, please help me find my way back home

She said tell me you’ll fuck me baby, you just frustrate me, id rather just be on my own

way back home

<3 eyes
beat by: @caps.ctrl (insta)
artwork by: @megantiax (insta)

lyrics:
i got heart eyes, 
she got cold lies,
she gonna bury me,
drunk at the cherry tree, already told guys
that she wanna die yeah, only in the night time,
told me she'll kill me only when the times right 
x2

but i dont wanna die yet, 
no, i dont wanna die yet,
ive been smokin all morning, i aint feelin high yet
spend 60 pound, pour a 4 in my sprite, but i dont wanna fly yet
too many people in this club, cant see where the line ends

cant see where the line ends,
dont agree with my mindset, 
i might chase this whiskey with a side of bleach, but i dont wanna die yet
just tryna feel some fuckin pain, and i dont wanna cry yet
stab me in the heart for the 15th time then run off hiding

thats you, my boo, why did you do this to me?
i've been screaming in my room, "why'd you do this to me?"
and then you told me that you loved me, that was news to me
but you were lying anyway, straight through your teeth

now im done, heart eyes, and you left me cold
no fun, your eyes, the stories they have told
about me crying in the freezing cold, 
the weekend passes, man im getting old
x2

heart eyes

lights out w/ throb

prod by Ryini Beats. 

this jealousy is gonna kill me.
I've learned to bite my tongue when im feeling upset.

Feels like I’m driving with my eyes closed, 
I can’t see,
And I’m upset, but it’s not down to me.
And that song you like’s been in my head since March 13’.
Just sweep me away girl, I’m down on my knees. 

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me. 
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

And my eyes are green with envy,
I can’t see,
She says she “loves me”, but why won’t she just leave?
And my love you don’t know, got me down on my knees,
My heart is blue girl, one touch makes me freeze

And my love, you don’t know the way you make me feel.
X2.

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me.
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

And my darling,
I’m tied down to you, now I can’t move,
Please tell me baby, what are you gonna do?
I can’t take a heartbreak, I’ll cry on my own,
I said the jealousy kills me, let me die on my own

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me,
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

thisjealousyisgonnakillme

guitar by https://soundcloud.com/irby314 and https://soundcloud.com/caspr

tears won't come from my eyes
my will to feel wilts as it dies
can't remember the last time i cried
i'll lose myself soon if i try

oh what a tragedy 
no one to comfort me 
i can't escape my memories
the one i love is dead to me 
it hurts
god, it hurts
at least it can't get worse

at least it can't get worse

it gets hard to breathe
https://soundcloud.com/crackxlizard
https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted
mastered by: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy


so is he everything
wanna fall in love
get a wedding ring
taking back all the memories you got from me 
when i look at the past yeah, it gets hard to breathe
i bet he's giving you everything
it's killing me

wake up, i don't wanna wake up 
don't wanna live another day feeling the fake love
and they like wait up, i don't wanna wait up
i keep breaking apart
i'll take the pain, love

do you treat him like me now
say he's the worst now
sending heart eyes while he's falling asleep now

i don't wanna wait till i break down
haunt me like a ghost until i'm bringing the knife out