(: <3 lyrics below

I know you see me
You check up on me now and then we're stuck in repeat
One week we're fine the next we're not you love to break me
I don't feel good right now ooo
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now
But baby ill put it behind me
She just pulled up to the party and i'm in the corner where no one can find me
I'd rather would keep to myself
I'm not the type to be following blindly
I don't need anyones help
Fuck it I lied man i'm practically dying
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now I hate it by myself
And my mom is telling me that I should get some help
Couple pills to start I learned to play the part
And lately I been thinking I might break apart
And I know he never cared
He was all that I needed and i'm just taking the bleeding and I
Wanted to tell you it ain't fair
I hope it hurts when you see me
I won't be there when you need me and I

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

spotify

i dont feel good

i dont feel good (feat. kennedyxoxo & skele) [p. irby]

thanks sm to   @pekarot_161

im sick of waiting come destrooy me now
laying in my bed wishing u were round
filling my name w poison all around
takn aim real quick cos ur gna shoot me down
jus to feel the hurt again made me look like a clown
thought i was fine without you but i feel it now
all these memories now, hidden beneath the ground
really loved ur house, oh where the fuk r u now

im sick of waiting come destrooy me now
laying in my bed wishing u were round
filling my name w poison all around
takn aim real quick ur gna shoot me down
jus to feel the hurt again made me look like a clown
bring myself to the pavement and theres blood on the ground

im sick of hurting cocme destrooy me now
laying in my bed wishing u were fukn round
but she was out to hurt me jus tryna crop me out
i find comfort in this hell aint got nothing left to sell
needa have a word with him its myself
everything that i do it go well
u know what do to break me down
still think of u cos im a clown
but she was out to hurt me jus tryna crop me out
i find comfort in this hell aint got nothing left to sell

thanks i guess it just gets worse

music videos:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2RyIqxRFt4&ab_channel=Virus

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7JNY20h8h0&ab_channel=Toxic%E3%82%A2%E3%83%8B%E3%83%A1
@killmesumday
@kennedyxoxo
@user-551713846
@prodjolst

witch hotel x kennedyxoxo x killmesumday - love story (prod. noahmadethiss x jolst)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

starlight (feat. nevermadeithome + blaidd) (prod. flesh + jolst)

and she then text me saying  “fair enough”
i didnt think that u was scared of anything 
so tell me baby are u scared to love ?
i typed out like fuckin everythin 
and then she text me she said “fair enough” 

2 pills all night im slippin 
lc nah i never had bring ins 
and the lights too bright 
for my eyes, head spinnin 
poured sprite all night 
half 9 still sippin 

tell me what are we baby are u just a friend to me
she told me what do you want we can have it your way jus tell me what u wanna be 
i said that’s cool i just think that we jus need to slow down n take it slow so what u tellin me
she said ive gotta go now ill be sure to come round tomorrow night got somewhere to be 
i said fair enough

FAIR ENOUGH (SCOTTYSPLASH)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold