Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

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ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall 

go to school and come back everyday
n i haven't spoke to u in days 
shit idrk what to say
but i promise you that everything is still the same 

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall

imma crack my skull on the floor (ten50)

s/o epitomeoffailure and emptychest :))

lyrics
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crack in the oak
mold in my home
lungs fading black
am i dying alone
cry in the snow, let her walk in the snow
while i hide in my coat
winter silent window

oh-oh~ 
raining, it's cold
no~
breaking my bones
midnight, in love with the moonlight
fuck a star sign, shawty looking too bright
(oh, oh
oh no, oh no)

epitome:
oh no i think that my heart stopped
when you walked through the door
making my jaw drop to the floor
and when you left that night
i could barely put a fight
with my fucking self
always going through another hell
all alone
on my own
running to a place i can barley call a home
but that’s not new
had my life in hands of someone that i thought i knew
and i had no clue
that i was being used by you
the entire time
but your plans fell through
and in the end i got what’s mine

empty: 
did you really ever get that far?
blacked out in the back of my car, and i love this shit.
i wouldn't trade it for anything,
except maybe living ;/ 
no!!</3
yeah yeah,
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me, so
i dont have no regrets, no.
yeah yeah yeah,
i know every day counts, and thats why i count em
yeah yeah yeah,
its a pain to wait, its a day away..
and i need something else
and i need a little bit of help
and when your body gives out
don't be sad, no more..
i would never do that to you..
to you.. :(
i love him, but i love me more.
can you stay, tonight?
blame it on me if you have to, just know-
i dont mind.
flying pieces, colliding with you.

shizu:
crack in the oak
mold in my home
lungs fading black
am i dying alone
cry in the snow, let her walk in the snow
while i hide in my coat
winter silent window

snow w/ epitomeoffailure & kill breanna (2001)

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

produced by nowhere valley



and there was a car crash 
and i had seen it with with my own two eyes
and so much time passed
but there i stood
like i was frozen in ice
and time moves so fast 
things are here and then gone the next
and i don’t like that 
the ambulance, it just came and left
i counted four bags
black, opaque 
the very shade of death
so rest in peace to those 
that i once lost
in my bedroom alone i wept

there was a car crash

outside ghost . heart farm

Rip from my joints through my spine, toxic (Toxic)
Lines on my back from the time I had slit (I slit)
Still hit my line talkin' 'bout what you missed (What you missed)
I'm seeing signs I think I'm toxic (Toxic)
Get to the point you think I'm toxic (Toxic)
Out in the snow while the cold wind hits (Wind hits)
I'm all alone walking home, walking love sick (Love sick)
Oh, I should have known I was too toxic (I was too toxic)

[Verse]
Are you okay?
Tell me are you okay
I called every night
I swear that I could hear your phone ring
Close the propane
I don't want the fault drain
Feel the rain, let it leave you with a cold taste-