srry (not home. cover)

on the low feat. SsappyY (prod. whatafuckingbitch)

i wana break everything (siemspark)

scrap from learning to lose
+ alternate art i did not end up using
prod. @wisssery
much love, enjoy <3

i wrote the lyrics in a notebook so i will not be putting them here my bad guys hope u can understand

middle ground [wisssery]

lyrics//

lost my mind
i was driving to austin
asking why
did she give me the option

cracked spine
roots grow
why am i holding on hope anymore
guess i’m waiting for the day
i can work up some strength off the floor

maybe we’ll be better in the next life
maybe we’ll be better in the next life

[red eyes
guess i couldn’t be the one
take flight
but don’t get too close to the sun

icarus 
ur the achilles to my heel
fight my feelings so i keep them all concealed

if i was all that you want then why’d you let me go?
guess i was never enough and now i’m so cold
but don’t mind me 
i’ll be good on my own
five pills in my hand, 5% on my phone]


i’m so sick of back and fourth can we talk this out
playing games on my court
and i hate how it sounds
fuck a red light i just wanna get home
and for my last high
i’ll take you as my drug


[red eyes
guess i couldn’t be the one
take flight
but don’t get too close to the sun

icarus
ur achilles to my heel
fight my feelings so i keep them all concealed

if i was all that you want then why’d you let me go?
guess i was never enough and now i’m so cold]

you won’t let me go
you won’t let me go

icarus

lyrics//

grade six. when she left i think i found a new life
little kid, big heart and she left me to die
play the victim at the start, now ur switching up sides
c-coulda gave you all my heart but it wasn’t my time 

been like five days since i felt like rolling out of bed
check the myspace, baby all the messages i sent
why you left them all on read?
why you left them all on read?

now i’m 13, can’t nobody hurt me
with the world up on my shoulders yeah 
the sun can’t burn me

just tryna make it past 30
asking god for help i don’t think he ever heard me
but nothing working and pills could never perk me
ADHD and my demons stay lurking 

f-failing class, take a tab, get me out of my mind
teacher mad, take a stab, at the story of mine.


momma put me on her back “baby boy it’s a lesson”
got me having heart attacks and the weed got me stressing
puff puff pass
found out that i like that
help me run away from the pain and all the setbacks

blowing o’s no one knows that i’m like that
story goes, if i told them they won’t like that
pack is smelly now my parents up and raided my room
try to tell me that this isn’t something Jesus would do

guess it’s not right, smoking isn’t christ like
skipping out on school spending time at the half pipe

good kid but got lost in the midst of it all
take the blame
on my name
but it wasn’t my fault

story of mine (boyfifty)

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

_trauma_ (raspo)

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--//  lyrics  //--

life is complacent, i wander adjacent to ur apartment walls,
ive begun to notice, all of the notices on your posterboard,
leaflets and flyers on the dissapearence of your cat,
and how i think hes an arsonist and hes not coming back.

i spent all of my saturday looking for him...

can u paint a picture in my head,
make sure the ink is permanent,
i'd rather wake up in ur bed,
than sit here, wishing i was..

so wake up and call me
if u ever find him
hiding in the side of ur mothers trashbin
sat in tons of piles of ashes

well I can’t help but to notice that ur cat laid fire on ur car,
and I saw him at the liquor store buying bottles and towels to build Molotov’s and all
I heard he’s planning
to throw em at ur door
so better get out
before..

i think ur cat’s an arsonist,
running round fire blazing like a badass and,
will we ever see tmrw,
fire in our hearts we’re filled with sorrow,
so don’t cry,
cus in the fire WE ALL DIE!!

your cat burnt my fricking house down !!  //  prod.deadyami   //  w/grxves

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up daisies hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (w/ notahero) (malloy x jkei)

I will give you everything 
Can you hold me once again?
I can’t wait the pain away 
Now I wish we never met 

Blood drips down to the sink while I’m throwing up 
I can’t think of ur words. It was fake love 
Watch me blink more tears while I’m growing up 
I can’t think of the money while I’m pouring up

Money while I’m pouring up
Pills in the double cup 
Party all day, all night till the morning yea
Post me on ur story huh
Let them know I’m with ya 
Crying all day, all night to our videos 
To our videos 
To our videos 
To our videos 

I will give you everything 
Can you hold me once again?
I can’t wait the pain away 
Now I wish we never met 

I will give you everything 
Can you hold me once again?
I can’t wait the pain away 
Now I wish we never

fake love (prod.macjamerio)

Lyrics ⬇️:)))))


i never meant what I said 
I’m sorry that I never told you I was off in the head
i wish that god could bring us closer 
but it’s better like this
thats what everybody says I think it’s honestly a myth

cuz it was lovely 
all the nights on the road sippin buble
i had my life in control for moment
and when the lights gettin low-get to strollin
cuz sometimes I like movin when nobody knowin

You didn’t know it
but in the moment when you saw me 
get frustrated I was dealin with some pain that 
nobody should play with

maybe in a year or two I’ll get to what I painted

but for now I’m with the past and what the darkness knows
the last time that I crashed I saw the lights dim low
but this time came too fast
it’s hard to live alone
and I can’t even grasp
sitting here at home without you

in the moonlight
nobody knows what I look like
i wanna be alone for a night 
I wanna do it on my own

but if I come back running like you used to do
You wouldn’t take me back
even with what we been through 

what did I lack I can’t relax
what’s in the past is in past
and you can ever get it back
no matter what you do it’s sad

your cat burnt my fricking house down !! // prod.deadyami // w/grxves

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