Original Music (Rough Recordings)

Inspired by that friend I sent my previous demo.
I actually did interpolate those songs in my tags, although not well.

[LYRICS]
Thanks for all that truth you bring
reminding me that I'm a whore
I did not need to remember that any more
Than I already do to keep myself self-aware
And ensure that I am scared
Of everything


B			C#m
I know that you'd never call me a slut,
but I would
		G#m
and that's self-depreciation, but so what?
I said what I could
and took it for granted
that you [could/would] listen
whenever I vented

C#m			  B
Constantly complained and barely even meant it
	A			D
Reading it over, it was clearly egocentric
	A		Bm7
Now I am jealous because you have friends and
I am too nervous to talk to them when
You are around or we're sitting down
To eat out our problems
Now I am losing pounds
Yet drowning in my weight
I already ate enough
I can never make enough
sense of issues I made up
and
I am sinking
You are wading
And I wait for another chance

I know that you'd never call me a slut,
but I would
and that's self-depreciation, but so what?
I said what I could
Never said what I needed, so no one could feed it
Still do not know what 'it' is except that it is lacking
Leaving slack on the rope to keep my jaw open
Sometimes I was hopeless, so I said it loud
so you go in my mouth, now I can't tell you nothing

	Asus2				    C#m
My ground and misaligned teeth were hard to clean
			F#m			G#m	
but now that they are straight, messes are easy to see

Self-Sinking, So What?

I WILL RE-RECORD THIS, but no one was on my page for quality.

[Lyrics]
G
Get yourself together
	 D
I do not want to see you die
  Bm
I regret letting you fail
		Em	F#m
But those choices were never mine


Bsus2
but you saw us again soon
Esus4
you know now that they loved you
Asus2
and they were more excited than I was
	D					F#min		  Emin
[but by power vested in me, I was interested to see how far you would come]
Bm			    Asus2
could have seen progress in some months

     G
When you had to leave us,
   A   (C)	  C
we all could have cried
Em					Bm7		F#m
distressed emptiness distracted us from moving on with life

Bm
but you saw us again soon
D			Em
you know now that they loved you
		  A
and I do not know how to
C#('open g string')
reconcile how we talked for
    C('open g string')
the longest time
	    G
but now the last time
	    Bsus4
we talked I was a bore
	C(bb5)		 C#m(bb5)
it'd be a chore to reconnect
	F#m
properly
and I'm lying on the floor
	   G
I get that nothing went wrong
	    C
don't gotta cry anymore
	    C#m(bb5)
don't gotta sing no sad songs
Asus2
about you

F#m
you made new friends
   Bm			 G
it didn't have to be the end
    D
but in time I find
Em
   it was destined

honest a.m4a || DEMO

Do not worry! I will re-record this. Also, I made up these "chord names", but I do know what they refer to.

[Lyrics]
(Dsus2 = D E A)
I know I'm wrong and I should hate it
(Cmaj = C E G)
But for now I can tolerate it
(Amin = A C E)          (Fmaj = F A C)
Sick of my mind being second-rate and
(F#min = F# A C#)             (Bbdim = Bb Db Fb = A# C# E)
You say that I'm smart but I'm overrated

Esus4
No one expects me to be delinquent
Dmaj(bb5)    D(bb5sus2)	    Dmaj	     Bm
Well, I'm disappointed that you didn't think that

  Em		  D       C
I thought that you did not care if I lived or died
	     Asus4
but you were trying to say you were a friend of mine
	      A7
I realized in time
				     (A add4? add11? it's the top two notes)
Questioned my doubts, tried to reach some sublime
A(bb5)
state of mind

Asus2
But it bobbed down
	   Esus2   B		C#m
below what average I might have met
	A	E		C#m
Default to same structures like I never went
B	A	  E		  C#m		B
Away, I still use keys from where I should have left
B7        A     A7
And moved on by now
B	F#m	    	F#	   C#sus2
But I fail to reach standards that I ought to set
G#m	A	B	F#m
 Just to be on par with how you are


  E			C#m	  D
I wish that you did not care if I lived or died
A		F#m		     G#m
Then I would not feel so shameful to try

'Cause I don't know how to do my best 'cause I've never been put to the test
     G#m   C#m		 (mix)		B	    A
So I go to complete this task and I inevitably hesitate

And every time you say that there are only so many chances, I think every one of them's a waste

unknown.m4a || DEMO

Updated description: Paranoia is a mental health symptom I don't experience and do not wish to bastardize, and therefore I'm going to either remove the song this was from or update the lyrics to be more in line with the concepts I'm actually referring to. 

Original description: I wrote this little snippet in November, and now I already graduated. I can't write songs for shit.

[Lyrics]
perinatal paranoia
Graduation takes its toll on me

perinatal paranoia.m4a

Sub-par singer/songwriter, mashup maker, "plays" guitar and keyboard.
I'll eventually publish something, I promise!!

Self-Sinking, So What?

Cecil Arjun