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I hope u been well
i hope u eat well
I think I got myself addicted 
to that tree smell
I know u mean well
But I don't need help
I find myself inside this drink
I feel my heart swell 

I'm back on my shit back on the drink
Turn up these cups while I'm lighting up blunts
And I'm all in my job all with the gang
No need to rob either way we get paid
It's something do, blow smoke till I'm blue
And if I've got this time then I'll spend it with u
It's all the time now
i spend it with all the lights out

back on my own i been ready to go
life in the gutter’ll make u miss home
i know i need u
but honey i’ll never admit to
memory shorter whenever i smoke
this isnt healthy oh baby i know
i cant ever leave u
but you’ll probably tell me i need to

but i dont wanna wanna
i been tryin rly hard
n i dont wanna wanna
its gettin harder every day
n i dont wanna wanna
yea u can ask if im ok
i hope im gna b
thats what i wanna b

lover lover
uve always had a knack for placing blame on
others 
others those eyes are shining and shes quite the up and comer
comer
why she always tryna fight its such a bother
bother
placing faith in others

i hope u eat well ft. decks (jolst)

Out on streaming 6/24

Twitter: https://twitter.com/DreamsYokai

Autumn: https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead

lyrics:

yokai-

new me
at least i hope so
new you, and i know that much for sure
you got a new man
i hope he treats you the best tho
cuz i know that you deserve the world and more

she's a death valley summer,
i'm november in alaska
the more i try and let it go
the more i end up back there
you moved on i'm not surprised
cuz so should i but i reside
within my own romanticized
ideas of you and i

i'm holding on
so tight my hands are cold and numb
i wish that i was what you want
but i'm just riddled with flaw
you are my only one

autumn-

all i'm left is this cold drink
my head is on sideways
i'll stop by the forest
and forget all the fine things
do these mirrors deceive me?
why's my face so disgusting 
i've lasted so long, 
but been holding onto nothing...

no one even noticed
i've been sentenced
a lifetime of silence

the difficulty of living, is on par with existing to begin with..
we exist to purge our thoughts; to become our own vessel.
find balance-...

time just twisted itself in knots
it tried to turn me to frost
i fuel up with love and scorn
DON'T WANNA FEEL ANYMORE

yokai-

YOU SHOULD KNOW I REALLY HATE THAT
I'M SICK OF ARGUING
BUT I WON'T SAY THAT
I'M LOSING TOLERANCE
I GAVE YOU ALL OF IT
AND YOU DON'T PAY BACK
SO QUITE YOUR HOLLERIN
I CANNOT TAKE THAT
SEE YOU ON THE WAY BACK

Death Valley w/ autumndropsdead (stezzyxl)

everything by me
thank you for listening
so much.

when the grass is dry
and never green
i contemplate what's happening
and who i was just other week
wonders why the fuck he felt so weak
letting water rise
and stumble down his cheeks
it gets a whole lot worse
when it's just a dream
for every promise i
just couldn't keep
i'll amputate your heart
so it won't bleed
i know it's not very often when we speak
i hope you know when we do
it's so comforting
oh, if i made up these feelings
then how am i still here?
and if the world is still turning
that's all i have to fear
i think that i've been in slumber
since last summer, but what made it end?
i've grown tired of conversations
it's like i'm brainless
(my thoughts go over their heads)
(their heads)
i hate that i get why you leave me dormant
i'm tired of feeling normal
it's horrible

amputee

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

whts the prblem if im dead asl
everybody tries to be me i js wish em well
everybody knows i fell so deep inside this wishing well
if you lived with what i lived with youd wish you was in hell
yeah im on my chronyc shit im smoking on my toxic shit
its hard as fuck to gts cus im paranoid
sleep on my baretta cus i mean business
dont sleep on my bayonetta i mean business  
huh i cant even love rn im on another planet
sry if im rough i really didnt plan it
its really fuckin hard to not get up and 
get up
stop settling
and, "oh yeah, i owe you"
yeah u fuckin do
last week u stole my kid like wht the fuck it do?
thought u were my bro
thought were my brother
thought u were my blood
thought u were my one 
to hold onto when everything is fucking shit
when it goes dark when the lights turn out and i cannot see the spark
when i cant lie no more
when i cant breathe no more
when i cant stand more
when i pass out and im damn near dead but i really couldnt care no more
ive given up my body's laying on your floor
do whatever you want to me cause i just cant fight no more
i feel like i should feel bad but i dont know why or how yeah
and i cant get turned on, cus..


hey, dork
posted with a toy
you be shootin bbs 
i be smoking real joints
ion even see u as a person rn
i see u as a monster and its freaking me out
ay
the voices in my 
the demons in my
like to talk, i hear tapping n scratching on the wall
i shouldnt say that
ill drive a maybach.

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self_worth (idly blare)

LYRICS:

 thought you promised I'd be better away from all the rainy weather
But all that's changes is razor blades are hard to buy
I drift away inside your laughter, it's like you know what's coming after
First a promise, so dishonest. i'm so happy I could die

Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
I'm in the bathroom fading fast
I hope it's what you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
Just fade to black, forget it happened
Guess that's all you wanted

Caffeine, ephedrine; I don't eat
Klonopin to get some sleep
This town's infected
Can't see stars unless I'm falling over
I just hope I'm not all alone when I've got everything I wanted
Cuz I know that it's coming. Cuz I know that it's coming

Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
I'm in the bathroom fading fast
I hope it's what you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
Just fade to black, forget it happened
Guess that's all you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
I'm in the bathroom fading fast
I hope it's what you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
Just fade to black, forget it happened
Guess that's all you wanted

Guess that's all you wanted

just call me back

LYRICS:

Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

i starve myself before my shows and then complain about the energy
Keep your friends, they hos, I mix klonopin with hennesey 
But you won't ever see it, if you did you wouldn't believe it
Always keep my composure, never let them see you bleeding
I don't wanna give a fuck about what they think
I always pull up by myself, and I'm driving; I can't drink
I just wish you gave a fuck a little more
When I rip my fucking lungs out, collapse on the floor

Uh, but what's the point then? Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

We was family, now you dead to me
But fuck it, rest in peace
Keep that lil percentage
I swear I make that shit in a week
But i don't wanna talk about, load. up another beat
Crush my medication up and mix it with amphetamines
Uh, gave you everything I had it wasn't enough, huh?
I hear you talking on the side, just shut the fuck up
i know you can see the state I'm in, don't fucking touch me
What's an after party? Gave me drugs so you could fuck me

Uh, but what's the point then? Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

after party

LYRICS:

I'm too fucked up to be in public
Anxious at the function, got this feeling in my stomach
I see people dancing drunk, in a few hours they'll be fucking
But I'll go home alone and fall asleep; remember nothing
Baby, waking up is such a chore
I'm always high or else I'm bored
I gotta pick myself up off the floor
One day I'll see the world (and I'll see)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

I don't wanna talk, I wanna end it, no discussion
Give me everything I wanted, I'll return it like it's nothing
Make it back tomorrow night and go to heaven in the morning
The devil's in the book, but I'm too good at telling stories
So I wake up, say a little prayer for all the dead ones
Take one, and stay the fuck away from all the fake love
Guess I'll make it through somehow
Tell me, darling, how soon is now?

I don't know what the fuck to call it
I'm always in withdrawal, I'm like a fucking alcoholic
But with you it's something special, I can tell that's why I lost it
I don't wanna talk, honestly, wish I went to college
Cuz I'm sick of all the run-around
You hate my guts, I hate this town
I hate the things I write about
Cuz soon we'll all be dead (but fuck it maybe)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

ONE DAY

LYRICS:

I think I'm gonna run away from everything I thought I wanted
Got too high at the after party, then convinced myself it's not a problem
Nosebleeds, clean white sheets, i'm falling
Over old friends, let this end, so haunted
I'm too fucked up to call
Just know I'm thinking 'bout you all night long
All my dreams start coming true
But I can't do shit but think of you
I know I'm such a dick, I get in my moods
But I just never wanna see you again

I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me I went too far
I got tired of running
Always hunting for a new war
Fuck it, keep it coming
I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me that I'm too gone
Fuck it, ain't no roof on this
Gotta move on
Crawling out of this abyss

We’ve been too gone
did you ever really give a shit
Every time you said you loved me no I can’t forget
Nose bleeds in the back where I met you
(you said) how you’d die if I ever left you
Watch how the time goes
I been moving too slow 
And everyone around me off the drugs just trying to smile 
So I just watch the years go by, and try to take my life
Cus’ we’re just so distrusted by the same things 
That you see in me, every time you tell me that you hate me 
At the ceiling, staring til I’m losing all my feelings 
Can you hear, screaming I don’t think no one can hear me

I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me I went too far
I got tired of running
Always hunting for a new war
Fuck it, keep it coming
I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me that I'm too gone
Fuck it, ain't no roof on this
Gotta move on
Crawling out of this abyss

w/ @arkaeo
prod. love,matt x thislandis

CONVERSATIONS WITH MY ECHO w/ Arkaeo

LYRICS: 

Touch me, baby
Wanna feel you hurt me, love
Tell me that I'm not enough and I never was
Touch me, baby
Feel you hurt me, love
Make me feel like I'm enough

You give me vertigo, I swear you got me falling to pieces
I've been tryna hold it together, please just give me a reason
I don't know how the fuck to trust, cuz they just change like the seasons
I've been ripping out all the stitches. Call the doctor, I'm bleeding
And I've been drinking every night, I'm tryna keep it together
And I've been tryna go outside, I swear I wanna be better for you
And I know it'll all go wrong
But until then, just sing along

And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
Rest in peace inside this basement
And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
I don't wanna feel this anymore

I wish that we were closer
But it don't mean nothing at all
I'll get rich and you'll get sober
But it won't mean nothing at all
I've been alone for some time
And I've been having withdrawals
I'll say I love you 'til my voice gives out
It won't mean nothing

And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
Rest in peace inside this basement
And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
I don't wanna feel this anymore

prod. branwen

CONVERSATIONS WITH MY ECHO w/ Arkaeo

Shiki XO

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