i should've told u~


--------------------------

and so, its a tragic, fuckin mess
i been so lost, i cant seem to depend
on ur  attitude, its all i ever meant
all i ever said

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

~autumn~

i let my roots dry
that shit has taken it's toll
so i sit instead consuming these souls
(oh) it's getting old
why'm i even scared of being alone?

i hear tapping on the glass
shadows engulfing my past
my thoughts growing rash
I watch the waves while they crash
let me assess where i'm at
because this shit's getting bad

oh if i tried a little harder, 
then i'll be what i want one day
but every chance that i get, 
all of the memories fade
it's like my lips are sewn shut
i'm playing endless charades
or i'm just stuck in a dream
i must be stuck in a dream
~
i was always on you, in yo messages
i wrote a song to fill the void, yet i created it
and yet we know, we said our sorrys, bitch i meant that shit
I WANNA PACK UP ALL MY SHIT AND TAKE A TRIP

BUT IMA TAKE A SHIT
think about my past life, and everything i did
i fucked up my system, with alcohol and wished
i never fuckin did that, i wish i only said
I LOVE YOU MORE, TO THE ONES WHO GAVE A SHIT!
i broke so many hearts, man i wish i never did
magnified distress.


*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch.

/end

break a branch w/ autumndropsdead (prod. dercept)

prod. boyfifty x hero

i thought it was funny how many songs were about pointing out stars from the earth, so i thought the alternate pov would be cool to write about :)

Lyrics:

my friend jus pour out ur heart
u’ll see nothing for it
i don't feel like getting personal
when its unimportant
just dig ur heart right out the fire
i hope u find the courage
who'm i hanging with
when all of my guys r happy corpses
it took a while 
but i accustomed well to the voices
they speak of times i hate to hear 
while they divert my choices
they give me company 
while humans plot to destroy us
they fill my heart 
while this woman feasts on vital organs

it gets lonely citywatching from the satellites
i wish that u were here to join me cause it's really nice
our planet's pretty 
clothed in foliage and powerlines
i'd rather not touch back to ground n experience life
come to my place
please i'll clear the driveway
she said 
"fuck the high way, bitch i'll do it my way"
she's a mind eater 
don't confuse her with a soul reader
but ur so beautiful i'd love to lose my mind tonight 

my friend jus pour out ur heart
u’ll see nothing for it
i don't feel like getting personal
when its unimportant
just dig ur heart right out the fire
i hope u find the courage
who'm i hanging with
when all of my guys r happy corpses

come to my place
please i'll clear the driveway
she said 
"fuck the high way, bitch i'll do it my way"
she's a mind eater 
don't confuse her with a soul reader
but ur so beautiful i'd love to lose my mind tonight

-

come to my place
please i'll clear the driveway
she said 
"fuck the high way, bitch i'll do it my way"
she's a mind eater 
don't confuse her with a soul reader
but ur so beautiful i'd love to lose my mind tonight

lose my mind 2nite (x8)

citygazing

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

lyrics

no words come to mind when its this dark
when u turn off the lights speaking gets so hard
its turned to a feeling i can not waste
blunt rolled, tip the ash and we gon go far

glass and spark, im so wasted off this paper and this gin
i cant see a thing, blurry world, lets watch it spin
shooting stars, it really makes u stop to think
havent healed yet maybe its not medicine

bottoms up, u got ur worries, ur doubts well jus tough luck
no fucks, we gon end em all tonight love
so fill this void and give me more love
this aint jus a start nah this is takeoff 

look in to the distance 
bae theres not a person on this earth creating this friction
grip u on th waist, im not losing you
its gon be ok, this is fate, u jus got trust me too

its kinda late, but it feels so right
im just hoping u gon stay with me tonight
build me to, break me down
but thass alrite
aslong as ur by my side

uh 
hit me up, in th morning
stomachs bad, at least im on ur story
comin outta th shell so yeh im feelin myself rn
but im not gon be ok if that jus how th story goes down

toxic medicine (pekarot)

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
livid..
why'd it get so tense?
tryna find the cause
just at what expense?

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

in motion, no i'm not the same
what i've chosen, was to leave the fray
so golden; but the sun betrayed
in search of yesterday

feelings fleeding fast
i've seen past the colors of this place
for what they truly say

i told my mind that night
save the pity
for every blemish on my chest confessed
that i am all but pretty

so listen here
this is all i have
let my stomach sear
it'll grow right back

but this'll be the one
could give a fuck bout if it's done

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

death is nearing tonight
give her my sight
into the tethered light

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

relapse; decay

SPOTIFY

autumndropsdead - relapse; decay (nate2timez)

𝒾 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝓈𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉𝓈 𝓁𝑜𝓈𝓉, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒾 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓅 𝓂𝓎 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒.

shoutout soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer 

enjoy,,

lyrics:
(that i'm just not that worth it
i'm covered in pleads 
you got what you need from me 
now you can breathe)

i realized it's nonsense
so inane to love her 
i can't save what's lost, but i can't stop my love 
so beautiful the way we leave 
our conversations incomplete
I'm sorry, but someday you'll see

that i'm just not that worth it
i'm covered in pleads 
you got what you need from me 
now you can breathe 

cant calm myself down so i work wit the z's
look in my eyes you're so perfect to me 
what can i do to make you believe in yourself babe i swear that that's all that you need

if you're fractured inside come tell me
i wont push you away i'm sorry
that i've done that before it's on me
i would help you today in a heartbeat

i realized it's nonsense
so inane to love her 
i cant save what's lost, but i cant stop my love 
so beautiful the way we leave 
our conversations incomplete
I'm sorry, but someday you'll see

that i'm just not that worth it
i'm covered in pleads 
but you're the one that i need this time.

i can't stop my love

i can't stop my love (prod. sorrow bringer)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

【﻿ｉ　ｄｏｎ＇ｔ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｎｏ　ｓｈｏｕｌｄｅｒ】
   【ｗｈｅｎ　ｆａｌｌ　ｃｏｍｅｓ　ａｒｏｕｎｄ】

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqpbPsXyY1g
thank you so much for listening
produced by @user-230494921 🧡
cover art drawn by @HoneyDMilkTeax on twitter <3

i don't got time, always less
make straight shit, cry about it in my bed
irritation over when i try to improve a mix
wishing i was at my max
i don't know where i'm at
don't know where i'm-

when the fog lifts up from my head
i let the mist drip down from my eyes, to my lips
and i know that note was "off",
but i can't bother to fix it
i accept that i'm blessed with the curse of a sickness

the light shines down; radiate the heat
i feel it like an oven
the sun'll switch up
when it's got enough lovin'
but i'm used to it; anticipate the ruining
at any chance i'll ruin it
idle in my room again, feeling like a-

i'd let down my hair but it keeps falling out
but it's too complicated
they scream, "what's that bout?"
i'll just down another substance
in a hope it takes me out
and i don't need no shoulder when fall comes around

so thankful for those that have helped me along
despite how i'm trash, despite all my flaws
i hope all i work for one day'll pay off
cause every time i look at myself i scoff

don't ask me what's wrong
you won't like what you're hearing
or probably just not even get it
(you'll probably just not even get it, get it?)

(2x)
i don't got time, always less
make straight shit, cry about it in my bed
irritation over when i try to improve a mix
wishing i was at my max
i don't know where i'm at
don't know where i'm-

slipped through the vines
then i landed in the underground
if i was lost in the first place
then i was never found
wow
you'd really go through all of that?
just to feel like you have a sense of yourself on track?
no shit
i've dreamt of this for ages
you really don't get how many people don't "make it"
but that's their fault
i don't want it to be mine
it's more than just a matter of time

scoff [prod. 4lexf]

whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

brave bird [caves]

spotify, apple, etc.

prod by caves 


click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it 

i know where you’ve been 
know where you set off 
i know where you get on the bus
and you get off 
she say that i’m crazy 
she don’t know the half of it 
my vision blurry
i don’t know what’s happening

she took my hands
into hers
told me “everything will be okay 
just stay right there”
i got two cuts 
on my face 
she looks scared 
but i promise i would never hurt you
baby i swear … 

you thought you got away,
i’m afraid it’s bad luck 
you just wanna drink alone 
and chill inside the bathtub 
already know she keep a key under the mat, tucked 
hope that you didn’t think that you would get away with that, love .. 
6 months have passed 
since we were matched up 
thought that you could play me, 
block my number and get gassed up 
now i’m climbing up your stairs and i’ve got bad blood
wonder if you’ll recognise my face under this mask, love 

she saw me in the mirror, frozen. 
“don’t try to run baby it’s over
i wrote you everyday for months” 
i was crying as i told her
“now i gotta do something i hate, girl yeah you know i cant control it” 
she tried to scream and shut the door,
but back in pinewood, soul was stolen

“i’ll call the cops” i said “what for” 
i just want a conversation, open up the door 
i see your heart drop on the floor 
if i can’t have you no one can, i couldn’t ask for more 

click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it

bad luck (caves)

single off upcoming alb w/ @fleshgolem
music video out now 

produced by @taylor x @fleshgolem
mix & mastrd by @fleshgolem

lyrics

it’s uncertain
expressive on the good i’m not that person
purpose, look at me in my eyes tell me it’s working
keep searching for moments that ain’t in reach know ur not perfect anymore
coz it’s all just from ur lense 
u gotta seek deep in the source

we fighting the time
but fuck all the ticking don’t worry ur mine
functioning fine
tipping off wine
trips for the flicks 
don’t u worry bout dimes

deeping the trips on monday 
don’t get to see but i’m texting on runway
so it’s cool
going to this one place
it’s cool we might freeze it’s a long break
oh and the view
brains just a dumb maze
right on the brink every week then new phase
opens up
call it dumb luck 
but it’d be the same every path i was fucked

right from the start
a bruise on my heart
my brain never helped coz it had its own scars
developed like sars
like moving to mars
there was no escape 
just a suffering star

humble in past
now belief i’m off far
now need it consistent coz it can get dark
oh trust me it’s dark
still sits right next me but without could i right all these bars

this ain’t a gimic 
i’m writing these lyrics 
a book that won’t finish 
in this life time, no

you’re taking our pictures
i’m writing our scriptures 
we’re climbing these pillars
this is our life

so we should love it now
live it down
ill then pass the torch to those feeing drowned
swimming round
circle bound
hear me out, hear me out

i want change i’ll soon change my sound
i want to leave the dirt different ground
i’ll pave a way for those looking down 
i know where i’m at, i know where i’m bound

uh uh 
i need a lie down 
you see this life that i’m living
through, sound waves and vintage filtered pictures
but make no mistake oh
this message wont break mold

i could never tell u that i’m home 
id rather spent nights on the road
walking outside of the lines alone
and they’ll say you’re outta control 

objective so confusing 
still find my self cruising
this adventure so amusing
want for you
the best is all that i want for you not what i know

what i know
what i know
yeah i would talk more but i’d rather just see the seeds grow
 
i cant show u what i could do if i believed in myself more coz i already do

nothin to prove 
but nothing to lose
the setup is fucked but what can you do 
except choose
theres no wrong but thats up to you

our adventure

our adventure (taylor morgan x flesh) music video out now, link in bio

静けさ

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
             19
1-2 songs a month for now
influences: 9tails + sewerperson, atlas, kevin kazi, guardin 

luv u nick <3

death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

shizukesa.