Vibes IX

I’m sorry that I have to say goodbye to you today 
I truly do love you no matter whatever I say
I really am angry right now cuz I just feel betrayed 
You said we would be together until our last days
Yet right here your sitting and I can tell it’s not the case
We’re barely in high school and I can tell you’re losing faith
I’ve never hurt this much until now so I don’t think it’ll go away
And if it ever does that means you’re standing right next to me

I think I understand why you tried to push me away
I think I understand why I shouldn’t have tried to stay
But when you’re with me I swear all my fears just go away
And if you asked me that question again I guess that I would stay

I do not wanna regret anything when you leave
But when I see you on the bed like that it gets hard to achieve 
I’m crying right now, so baby can you just let me try to breathe
It feels like we’re surrounded by this smoke, and I can barely see
But when I’m with you I see all that light that was shining within 
And now I feel so bad because I never said any of that
Now look at me I’m regretting never saying any of that
Now I’m saying I’m sorry, and I’ll never take that back

I’m sorry that I didn’t give you the love that you need
I’m sorry that I couldn’t give you a little happy family 
I’m sorry that we didn’t make it until we got married 
Now I’m sorry again, I could never take that back like

I’m sorry that I have to say goodbye to you today 
I truly do love you no matter whatever I say
I really am angry right now cuz I just feel betrayed 
You said we would be together until our last days
Yet right here your sitting and I can tell it’s not the case
We’re barely in high school and I can tell you’re losing faith
I’ve never hurt this much until now so I don’t think it’ll go away
And if it ever does that means you’re standing right next to me

i want to eat your pancreas (boyfifty & ayleen valentine)

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Lyrics:

so if i let you down
dont come crawling back to me
if i silence the sound
then it gets hard to breathe
x2

i already fucked my life up, ready?
45 minutes all it takes till you get it
and then the moments over in like 15 seconds
and all those years later you look back and regret it
and i dont really care
so do whatever you like
you can meet me
whenever we feel the moods right
intoxicating
you got me on a new high
love to hate me
so ill just commit

suicide
baby, you decide
change your fate
run it up
this shit do or die
truth or lies
you cannot hide
from what lies within
side your eyes
i see it all
ultraviolet skies
rose of thorns
bleeding out
theres no dying twice
cyanide
all the demons
they come out at night
out of time
out of luck
bitch im bound to die
this is it
this is it

(belak)

suicide

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Lyrics:

Forever loving you
My heart attached
Even when you're mad, Even when you're sad
I got your back baby
I remember when we started
We were lonely, broken hearted
Now you fill me up
I can't get enough
~
Climb into bed
take off those panties girl I'll give you head
Then I'll dick you down
turn that ass around
Call my name one time baby
Always on my mind baby
Ever since we met
I knew I would love you
I knew that we'd mesh
no one else above you
I would ask for nothing less
than to hold you inside of my arms
Dark out at night so I'll keep you from harm
Baby you just healed a wound inside my soul
Catch me trippin out when away from home (that's you)
Write a song when on the road (for you)
Hope that you know I am

Forever loving you
My heart attached
Even when you're mad, Even when you're sad
I got your back baby
I remember when we started
We were lonely, broken hearted
Now you fill me up
I can't get enough
~
Climb into ... bed with me  
Swear she cast a spell on me
look her in the eyes every single time we fuck
memories flood in my brain everytime that you leave
Painting a picture cliffside of the beach
and thats when I had asked her If she would be mine
Now one year has passed and our love's still divine
I've been searching and searching so long for this love
God answered my prayers, she was send from above
I am
~
Forever loving you
My heart attached
Even when you're mad, Even when you're sad
I got your back baby
I remember when we started
We were lonely, broken hearted
Now you fill me up
I can't get enough
~
Climb into bed
take off those panties girl I'll give you head
Then I'll dick you down
turn that ass around
Call my name one time baby
Always on my mind baby
Ever since we met
I knew I would love you
I knew that we'd mesh
no one else above you
I would ask for nothing less
than to hold you inside of my arms
Dark out at night so I'll keep you from harm
Baby you just healed a wound inside my soul
Catch me trippin out when away from home (that's you)
Write a song when on the road (for you)
Hope that you know I am
Forever loving you

Forever lovin u [prod. maxrxgh]

Endorphins (Prod. Chef G)

i'll be just fine [prod. noria]

cover art - @pastnight
producer - @thefalseshepherd
background vocals - @itstyfon

lyrics-
i'm not aiming for the top
looking for a place to call my home deserve my spot
even if i never make a penny i'ma write
turn depression into  a message for kids alike

i was down bad hard, suicide i've had enough
decade in the making, i'ma show em what's up
bit my flesh apart, almost blinded myself once
mind was so delusional i'm dangerous, no fun

never said a word but my eyes spoke everything
family in my room crying out, don't know what to think
sister scared to live with me, my dad just wants his son to blink
i agreed to go with them so they could start to fucking breathe

i just wanna leave the scene, thought if i spoke rationally 
i could go home but that didn't mean that actually
i said every chilling thought but did it with a soothing voice
i spoke hella casual, the info made her make her choice

locked inside a room over night they never let me know
but they went and told my fucking family to hit the road
morning time, they transfer me like hannibal, i'm bound and cold
had me in the back of the van pointed at the road

face to face with drivers behind us but they don't fucking know
they couldn't see through the tinted window, where i sat and spoke
tears ran down my face cause i start to dissociate
i'm still like a kid but they're treating me like norman bates

been awhile since i did that shit
nothing really changed but the love i gained, it's intimate
never thought i'd gain anything i'm scared of losing
feelings fucking bittersweet, my thoughts will put me through it

been awhile since i did that shit
nothing really changed but the love i gained, it's intimate
never thought i'd gain anything i'm scared of losing
feelings fucking bittersweet, my thoughts will put me through it

bittersweet
yeah it's bittersweet my thoughts attacking me
i can't deal, i can't deal with this, i fear you're leaving me
i don't got no reason, got no reason, yet i feel this way
feeling fucking petrified, the thought of you just makes my day

bittersweet
yeah it's bittersweet my thoughts attacking me
i can't deal, i can't deal with this, i fear you're leaving me
i don't got no reason, got no reason, yet i feel this way
feeling fucking petrified, the thought of you just makes my day

bittersweet (prod. emptyvenom)

dylan xo