2020 tragedy

remains

The Upload

DA ora

My Heart Hurts

Lyrics

Tired of crying for people who don't even care
For people that aint even there
Why does life work in the way does? I don't know
I only know it ain't fair
But maybe it is, cause thats how it is
Why do I feel like this? I'm just a kid
This shit getting old and I'm only a kid

Tired of this, tired of that
What does she see in me? My heart is black
Walk out of class and I go to a stall and I cry
When I have a panic attack

But nobody knows about that
Cause I don't feel close enough to open up
My day has already turned bad
17 minuets ago just woke up

I don't blame God for not coming from Heaven to save us
Cause we don't deserve a damn thing
How could we go to a place thats supposed to be perfect
We cant even learn how to change

Use your brain, we're all the same
Only together can we get through pain
Too many people give up on their dreams
Too many people give all for some fame

Mom can you stop asking what happend to all of my friends
I don't even know
This is my world, don't try to get in
I don't want anyone getting too close

Not even you, not even her
Not even me cause I'm not even sure
I kept it real, but you never were

Tired of crying for people who don't even care
For people that aint even there
Why does life work in the way does? I don't know
I only know it ain't fair
But maybe it is, cause thats how it is
Why do I feel like this? I'm just a kid
This shit getting old and I'm only a kid

Waking up, space I'm taking up
Late school work, I'm not making up
Might be fucking up but I don't care enough
Cause the love I need ain't there enough

Suck it up, stop giving up
You little stupid fuck, why don't you give a fuck?
Life is fucking tough, road's fucking rough
Stop tripping out and quit tearing up

Let me in it's been too long
I'm sick of this, I'm sick of songs
This is not where we belong
Leave him behind and take me along

I don't like that normal shit
I fucking hate that formal shit
I like my abnormalness
Cant we just come to an armistice

If I don't tell you how I feel don't assume that you know how I feel
If I tell you that I'm depressed don't you tell me that shit isnt real

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me, i'm pain. | Produced by unknxwn.

y'all kept asking for music on IG so ima leave this here til my album :)

indecision

SCHOOL NIGHT

SCHOOL NIGHT [LEAK] *prod. HOllY*

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Make You Cry (Prod. Santalus)

i couldnt hold this any longer lol

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Prod by 2k6 
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Cover art ,
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watching futurama while thinking of a chick from the past w/ emo fruits & john solo (prod.2k6)

pretty girls in the backseat pt 2 (prod. padilla)

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BRING ME DOWN FT. RONEN

Lyrics

I can't love you, I'ma have to leave you in the past, I want love but you can't do that
From the start I knew it was bad but I looked right past, I lost time that I can't get back
I can't do that again, it hurt too much and I'm not strong enough to hold anything else back, if I get pushed again I really might snap

Make songs so I don't have to talk, pain's my drive but I want it to stop
I'm not sure if that's all true cause without it then what would I do?
Been in the rain so long, I don't like it inside
I wanna live just as much as I've died
Gave love a shot and I hate that I tried, I'm ignoring my heart, I'ma focus on pride

From selfless to selfish, success I am hellbent, found my soul last year, 2020 I'll sell it
Money is all that I want cause I lost what I need
I'm replacing my sadness with greed
I couldn't care if you agree cause when I was still there you didn't
"I'll be waiting right here" you told to me
said that you wouldn't leave then did it

I'm gonna shine so bright, I'ma make sure that I make you miss this
My mind will never be right, the code in my DNA spells out MISFIT
Fuck everybody, I'm dying alone
Don't tell me "I love you" if you really don't
My heart like my name it's location unknxwn., can't wait till the day that I pack up and go

I won't give what I'm not getting
This is real I'm not pretending
I give in, my soul's not healing
Skin so thick you'll never peel me

self care. | Produced by Raspo

lyrics

love you lemieux
love you lemieux
love you lemieux

(chorus)
nighttime yuh like these demons in my head yuh
like these monsters in my bed yuh
still remember what you fucking said
(what you fucking said)
everynight I wanna cry (cry)
why do I feel this way (way)
I really need to go away (way)
baby don't leave please stay yuh

(verse1)
it's time for a confession I don't love you
and sorry I confessed it's the ugly truth
I really left you for huh lemieux
I'm sorry she's way better yuh brand new
I'm sorry that I did this to you I never meant to pop all those pills
but now you wanna leave me in the mud
but bitch I left you in the dust

omg lemieux
omg lemieux
omg lemieux

(chorus)
nighttime yuh like these demons in my head yuh
like these monsters in my bed yuh
still remember what you fucking said
(what you fucking said)
everynight I wanna cry (cry)
why do I feel this way (way)
I really need to go away (way)
baby don't leave please stay yuh

(verse2)
I pull up on my ex then I do the dash
she knows that this shit ain't gonna crash
oh my god you're leaving all these love rashes
all my team pulling up we got the flashes
this ain't no selfie so don't look (so dont look)
you getting shot at you better book
that pistol eh got you shook
look at me nigga yeah you better look

love you lemieux

Yuie - Goodbye, hello (p. sighsare + ghoul)

i dont feel right ft. sewerperson (prod mochila)

Visual: https://youtu.be/sH5eHx94_1Q

Lyrics

I looked everywhere for something that I should of found in myself
I've created my own life's hell
I'm the sinner, I'm the saint
I'm the thought you hate to think
I'm so lost, I'm in a maze
Be better off inside a grave

Alpha/Omega, fuck thinking that shit
It don't make it no better when I feel like shit
I just feel deader when I'm in the grips
Of a hand I reached out to when I need a lift

Cause if I need help, then I feel like I failed
I'm in debt to the things that I felt
Well oh well, I'm stuck here anyway
What's the point of complaining when I know I'm gonna fade?

I thought you would save me from myself
But now you're deaf to my crys for help
Baby where'd you go?
You left me so fucking alone

Hot inside my chest the night you left, I lost my breath girl
But I guess it's best, I'm still a mess, you were my damn world
Such a shame that you didn't tell the truth to me
I can't feel the same for you if you don't feel the same for me

Make a fool of me, I'ma make a fool of you
You can really rest in peace when I'm really done with you
What's got into me? I think that's got something to do
With how you just fucked with me when I never fucked with you

I should just calm down, I should just let go
But you still come 'round right when I get close
Then I just forget all the pain that you inflict
Then you say "It's a bad day" and ghost me again

Cycle repeats like clockwork
I just act like that I'm not hurt
Even right after I got hurt
Some of these girls are so nice
But none of them make me feel like her
Wish you were here on these cold nights
I swear all my songs are about her

She caught me when I fell
Without her I'm not that well
I'm not sure if I can tell
When I need to say farewell

Cause she don't make me fine
But without her I would of died
I'm not sure if I will find
Anything like that no time

Why'd you have to lie when I asked you bout that guy?
I thought you were not that type, what a waste of fucking time
Want you out my life, hold up, scratch that, never mind
Can't believe with what you've done my love for you is still alive

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nightlight. | Produced by tennis player

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Lyrics
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(Robstar)
it's all in my head, i know
i hate myself
but i can't forget the love
we had back then
i just wish that i could change it all
the ups and downs the rise and fall
the love we had that now is gone
your echo bouncing
wall to wall to wall to wall

(selfishmachine)
insects on the roof and the windows 
i can feel the energy the ohmu's getting closer 
follow me i can show you 
don't be scared it's just life in the jungle 

spores are growing out my arms 
vines are leaking out my heart 
hold up now babe please just hold still 
don't let them find you 
those sudden movements in the grass will set them off and you'll be dead 
they're tracking us just for the kill 
no sudden movements 

every night i seem to find 
these monsters crawl into my mind 
i do my best to try and hide 
my dear i'll keep you safe from them

(Robstar & selfishmachine)
it's all in my head, i know
i hate myself
but i can't forget the love
we had back then
i just wish that i could change it all
the ups and downs the rise and fall
the love we had that now is gone
your echo bouncing
wall to wall to wall to wall

Your Echo

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Your Echo w/selfishmachine [Prod. KNKR]

other side (@lostinthegraveyardd)

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/metlast
Ekeon: https://soundcloud.com/ekeonkilledit

Sublime (feat. Ekeon)

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

I ain't tell her my name no, but she tell me I'm fuego,
I fell in love at my last show, me and you, we a pair, two.
I don't know where to go now, you can beat where you want to.
And these pussies is see through..

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

Bad bitch, you want it? Have it. She living lavish,
Too bad that I'm a 'sad boy' she need a savage.
A savage, remember growing up we never had shit.
Pull up on ya block and let it ring, I let em have it.

LAVISH

Lyrics:
crossfaded ya you know I'm jaded
put me on the playlist boutta be upgraded
couch surfing, gotta get my guap up
know I'm still learning, save me from this bad luck

I got a headache and I dont know what to do, ya
my world is turning so I throw up in the booth, ya
my brody said that I should take it easy too, ya
he want me live so I could 'preciate the view, and

Chicago really callin got a highrise boutta smoke down
lost up in the fog ion even really know how
Ion wanna die so I pull up with the loadout
life is way too fragile and I wish I woulda known now

no friends but i, couch surf
I just gotta slow it down cause I, get hurt
cause I rush too quick, into shit that I miss
she dont hit up my phone, I get curbed then i quit

you think you smart but I seen it all, ya
you wanna ride but I'm tryna ball, ya
so ion buy you nothin at the mall, ya
mall ya

and if I asked you then would you tell me the truth?
are you jus riding so you get some money too?
but do you love me or jus wanna see the booth?
I cut you quick and you been know thats how I do

Couchsurfing

couchsurfing

lyrics
—————
i look outside, watch the leaves fall down
will i crash & burn or will i leave this town
& why u do care so much
& why don’t i give a fuck
i guess
i’m cynical at best 

will i crash & burn or will i leave this town
..will i leave this town

ion wanna be like this
ion wanna feel like this either
all the scars that are on my wrist
each time just a lil bit deeper

& i’m faded
i’m jaded
ion think that i can take this
i dont really know where to go from here
but i know soon that i’ll dissspear

i guess
i'm cynical at best

& i really feel i’m runnin' outta time
prolly cus i’m always wasting mine
& know i'm runnin' outta time
prolly cus i'm wasting mine

cynical at best [prod. Luciid & Ninewater]

fun while it lasted.


if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
get knocked down try again, get so nervous that I up chuck
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

You know I have no self control no need to fabricate the truth
then we can talk about the good times and all the evil things you do
Made a world full of your bullshit tried to fill my head with lies
so when I tell you that I’m leaving it should come as no surprise

no surprise, why’d i try? just to end up here again
fooled me once, fooled me twice, fooled around with all your friends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
Get knocked down and try again, but get so nervous that I up chuck 
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

maybe i could learn to skate 
or play guitar to compensate
for all the little secrets that i keep
cause my dreams warned, be on the ball.
i took advantage of it all 
she was my girl, lights in my world, my everything.
then life said sike, why’d you try? 
just to end up here again?
fooled you once fooled you twice, please don’t tell me it ends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

lame

@thefalseshepherd

lyrics-
fighting the progress, i feel like a ghost
haunting my halls, i got no place to go
down to the kitchen then back to my room
people just hear the creaking when i move

fighting the progress, i feel like a ghost
haunting my halls, i got no place to go
down to the kitchen then back to my room
people just hear the creaking when i move

how do people get so ambitious 
when you just end up dead?
everything you gain will disappear 
like dandruff in the wind
everything is meaningless
i don't need fucking bragging rights
need someone to hold me down
lift me up, and treat me right

sorry, i'm sorry i don't see the point to
be a good person i'll do what i want to
i'm a poster boy for what not to do, not to do
i'm a cop a whip and split my head in two, head in two

honestly 
been thinking so bad it might fucking help me
drastically depleting every bit of me remaining
try erasing all my trauma and the memories adjacent
it's amazing how it holds you back and fucks you till you brainless

i can tear my mental apart in a fucking minute bitch
i don't love no sabotaging but i'm good at what it is
drink a monster energy and get to work creating hits
sike everything's shit, there's some insight for you bitch

tired of going to sleep 
because i'm bored or depressed
need some excitement in my life 
i've been sleeping with death
got my girl but when she's gone 
i get some pain in my chest
fucking hate the fact that 
when she go to work i'm a mess

fighting the progress, i feel like a ghost
haunting my halls, i got no place to go
down to the kitchen then back to my room
people just hear the creaking when i move

fighting the progress, i feel like a ghost
haunting my halls, i got no place to go
down to the kitchen then back to my room
people just hear the creaking when i move

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brainless (prod. emptyvenom)

might b typos to lazy to fix 
LYRICS :

i know you dont want me we fell in love when i was 16 
you really made me think that you dont wanna hold me 
ive been feeling this way for awhile 
everytime i run i can barely crawl 
just wanna hold you hand all night 
or i can sing to you til the sunrise 
i dont mean to be a dick but thats who i am 
i talk alot of fucking shit but i got no friend 
remember when we said this will last i dont wanna be left in the past 

memorys shatter broken dreams now were falling apart 
i told you that i really love you i dont wanna restart
im tired of always feelin like theres broken nails in my heart 

i know you dont want me we fell in love when i was 16 
you really made me think that you dont wanna hold me 
ive been feeling this way for awhile 
everytime i run i can barely crawl 
just wanna hold you hand all night 
or i can sing to you til the sunrise 
i dont mean to be a dick but thats who i am 
i talk alot of fucking shit but i got no friend 
remember when we said this will last i dont wanna be left in the past

sixteen [prod. spyder + yago]

urgent [w/ ashes] [prodbykg]

Lyrics

All this pain I'm holding
Feel like I might just start folding
My heart's dead, it got all molded
My head's a sea, I'ma split it like moses

Drive into the back of a building
I'ma hurt myself like you hurt my feelings
All I see is death when I look up at the ceiling
Stuck inside the past, that shit fucking up my healing

Did me so wrong and I think about it all
Ain't no "Ken, yo how you are?" you don't even try to call
I'ma flip until I fall, throw my fist into the wall
Pretty girls so fake, guess that's why they call 'em dolls

I don't know what it is that you want from me
But I swear to fucking god there ain't nothing here to see
Everything I was I'm not and I'm never gonna be again
She gone pull up to the spot so she can leave again

Hurt so much now I just done had enough
Bitch I don't wanna talk can you please just shut it up?
If I get me something good then you know I'll fuck it up
Can't but I could, won't would fall in love

All this pain I'm holding
I might just start folding
Heart's dead, got all molded
Split my head like moses

I think that I might just move on to the next bitch
If I think the one I'm with just might not be the best fit
I'ma keep it honest ain't no feelings I'ma mess with
Still ain't found the one with all these hoes that I met with

Rip my heart out, slam it on a page
Yeah that's how I make a song that be inflamed will all the rage
You could try to sound like me but you & I we ain't the same
I don't even know what I am, how you think I made my name?

I'm selling a lease on what I lean the least on...my soul
I don't think that I'ma really fucking need one
Where I'm going
And I wish I was joking

unknxwn.

novana! | Produced by ERLAX

instrumental by @irby314

is it real enough for you to wanna stay this time
or will you leave when the winter makes my mind decline
i don't want to go back to the old you
but i get it 
it's cool if you have to

for your sake
for your mind
and right now it's hard
in the spring i'll be fine

old friends hit my phone like "bro you made it"
and i appreciate the words 
but i hate it
these song aren't a lie
i'm breaking 
pray a gun to my head helps me face it

is it worth it 
is it worth it 
is it worth it 
is it worth it

brainless (prod. emptyvenom)

dylan xo