You Left (Prod. HXRXKILLER)

it's all gone ft. soyboy [prod zeeky]
soyboy: https://soundcloud.com/prodsoyboy
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lyrics

[hook - weepings]
She's a piece of work, Artwork that is so perfect I get
nervous and nauseous from the sights of it
I can no longer fight when i'm dying within
x2

[verse 1 - soyboy]
my mind is telling me to move on
but i don't know if i want to move on
the high im chasing, is just time thats wasted
and when you think you have it, it's all gone
it's all gone
it's all gone
it's all gone
it's all gone

[hook]
She's a piece of work, Artwork that is so perfect I get
nervous and nauseous from the sights of it
I can no longer fight when i'm dying within
x2

[outro - soyboy]
and i will wait for hours at your house tonight
blindly searching for a sign you're all right
i just don't have it in me to move on
i just don't have it in me to move on

it's all gone ft. soyboy [prod zeeky]

"𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕞𝕪 𝕤𝕖𝕟𝕤𝕖𝕤 𝕥𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕖 𝕟𝕠"
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Lyrics;

[intro]
Hold on to me
Baby Hold on for me

[verse 1]
fading to the blackness of night
stars all align as im touching the sky
hearing goes deaf, dont know whats next for me
let me digest

[verse 2]
I dont know whats in my brain but im listening
thought i'd block out all the pain but its glistening 
always thought i was insane but im transitioning 
everything I thought was once fake is just visiting

[verse 3]
(Hold on to me)
But i gotta let go, all my senses telling me no
but I know that, it be freezing 15 below, see the coat rack
pop it on and head in the snow till my nose black
I cant even feel my damn toes, then my mind goes blank

nightfall [prod. yusei]

Featuring artist:
https://soundcloud.com/zabvza33

Taken from the album Ratrose


--
Rivilin
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Changing, changing, spin around daisies
All in my head and I’m so hazy
Thinking that I’m crazy, thinking you can change me
I don’t know my options, but I don’t think I’m worth saving

I can feel your teeth on my skin,
Your breathing, no I can’t win
Everything is just back and forth, back and forth, floating, 
everything is so consumed by you

It’s you, it’s always been you
Two deaf ears and just a coward on a stool, in front of you
Explaining, all these messed up games
You want to be alive, but you don’t want to stay sane

So don’t you push it back to me
I don’t wanna feel a thing
Locking my door, close the windows
Another day feels so hollow, do I let go, yeah, do I let..

Again, and again, again, I’m falling down and

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ZABVZA
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So just throw me away, I am a waste
A neglected corpse of confusion and hate
Always swear that they'll stay but they all run away
Leave me alone in the house that we made
And I feel it each day, it won't go away 
Reflecting, regretting every word that I say 
The ghosts of my past are just too much to take
So I pour up again and take this blunt to the brain
And I dont know what's real 
These emotions I'm feeling
Leave me slumped over, head painting the ceiling
Calm and collected but inside I am seething
Say you don't know me, but I've always been me, bitch
Fuck you, I'm torn up
Backed up in a corner 
Too many thumbs in this pie, like Jack horner
Za may be nibble and Za may be quick
But Za had his heart crushed so Za cannot trust no bitch

kaibacorp (Ft ZABVZA)

blacking out throw trash around im passed out on the floor again
I've run out of moves so I use struggle, damage self again
asking me if I want handouts
I bite the hand bout
taking for granted the thought sprouts
seeded way deep in recess of my mind
I cannot find the thoughts to call mine

do you really know what the fuck that i've been through
follow like shadow the hint of my issues
deep seeded hatred for self
solve it by emptying shelf
no sense of fucking self wealth

wheres my next fix of that dopamine
caught up inside of all these routines
I cannot go when im fucked in the mind its like all of the time let me smoke that green
I just be swervin so fast check that rear view
pussy ass bitch please speak up I can't hear you
perception changes along with the ages
so asking me one day the different to next
I get that text
dopemine rises heart beat out my chest
fuck it ain't her let me give it a rest
all of this cause i want dick in her breast
I am obsessed

cycles II [prod. freeze]

@thatsawackbeat

lyrics-
message from the wicked
paint a picture of all the travesties
you could suffer from dismissing
every symptom, every thought
every fear, up up in you
worried about our youth
dying young's an fucking epidemic

imagination land
i'm just so fed up with reality
who cares about activities
if i'm allowed to stay asleep
need some fucking energy
dead and drained like constantly
honestly, rejuvenated me
would do this beautifully but 

unload, unload
unload on pedestrians 
were so fucking gentle
but the creatures got a hold of you
screaming for their lives
spirits flee as you go execute
rid the world of all the innocence
that had neglected you

need some one to talk to me
i always feel uncomfortable
but i won't say a fucking word
cause i'll be held responsible
inside my own mind, i'm so brutal i'm
fucking deranged, losing the war
control of my brain, gears are broke
needing replacements
say it again bitch, we are the same
but you're so fucking loathsome
hella broken, lacking patience
mix it with the anger and delusion you've been taming
until the roof pops up on that bullshit you've been saving 

unload, unload
unload on pedestrians 
were so fucking gentle
but the creatures got a hold of you
screaming for their lives
spirits flee as you go execute
rid the world of all the innocence
that had neglected you

let me guess, you convinced 
yourself that no one loves you?
accepted the reality of loneliness
despite you know that you don't wanna
be alone but fuck it all right? 
am i wrong? delusion at it's finest
tortured humans shine the brightest
or they fall, fall, deeper in the muck
heavier the blood, add more damage to the cuts
with no luck, no support
you're gonna end up in the morgue
lacerations to your wrists
pray you're the only one to hit the floor

Spotify!

epidemic (prod. lxw)

cus you got, you got me
right where you always said id be
cus I need your love, I need you now
where stuck on the drugs it’s so sad

cus you have, you have me
tucked up inside your pocket now
tearing skin to love each other
oh god I hate how I left

where did I go wrong, lost down the alleyway
spiraling around with the faces that I can’t attach to names
it’s a shame that you look at me this way
but the mirrors just fogging up and you don’t want to look in the reflection

a recollection of who were or what we could have been
its desperation when you smiling through the window at me
I spent 9 months clean just to relapse again
I really wish I had you, I could really use a friend

so where do I stand now, I don’t know
when you send me texts yeah you don’t show
where so faded yeah I don’t remember what happened
remember one day we promised we'd be happy

cus you got your knives to my neck
you said one day I know you’ll forget
about me and where we came from
but you know that I always think of you

I need you now

Made this beat off sum shrooms in 2019

(Sample from Star Wars lol)

DeMoN(prod. Explicit)

Check Out The Producer:

Soundcloud: @nfn1
Beatstars: www.beatstars.com/nfn2019/feed
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCMHB6Ejv…FmR18nMhGw/videos

Lyrics
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Ey
Baby yeah it's easy
Telling me you need me
Telling me you love me
Then why am I still bleeding?
I kinda wish that I wasn't alive right now
But I'd only come crawlin' back from the roots underground
See me sippin' on a 4
Imma smoke up an ounce
Babe you're rotten to the core
Imma watch you fall down
Used to go to the store
Now Imma buy it all out
Used to smoke a bit of gas
Now I got it by the pound

They used to talk to me like that
Now I'll get a flight back
Now I'll get a big stack
I'm switchin' up the flight path
Got a couple hundred that I'm keepin' in the background
For a rainy day when I'm thinkin' "fuck the past"
On a night out

Ey
Baby it was easy
Telling me you needed me
Telling me you loved me
Babe where were these feelings
When I wished that I wasn't alive right now
Kinda funny, see you crawlin' from the roots underground
See me sippin' on a 4
Imma smoke up an ounce
Babe you're rotten to the core
Imma watch you fall down
Used to go to the store
Now Imma buy it all out
Used to smoke a bit of gas
Now I got it by the pound, yeah

Flight Path

Flight Path [Prod. NFN2020]

Waiting
For something to believe in
For the moment that I see it
For a moment where I breathe it
Lost it.

I seethe it
Nothing to believe in
Not until I see it
I can never see it
See it again

Take another path
See where it goes now

Take it home to nothing
We can we not make amends
I've been so lost inside of living
Trying so hard to stay, my friend

And I know I'm not alone here
But fuck it feels so cold
Thoughts of taking off to
Another world
Another world

Another world
Where the pain will subside
Open doors that I wish had arrived
Call to me, please show me a sign
Keep me pushing, I know I can't die

Keep going
Keep going
Keep going
Keep going
Keep going
Keep going
Keep going

Take it home [prod. Wraith Nîr]

cover art - @pastnight
producer - @thefalseshepherd
background vocals - @itstyfon

lyrics-
i'm not aiming for the top
looking for a place to call my home deserve my spot
even if i never make a penny i'ma write
turn depression into  a message for kids alike

i was down bad hard, suicide i've had enough
decade in the making, i'ma show em what's up
bit my flesh apart, almost blinded myself once
mind was so delusional i'm dangerous, no fun

never said a word but my eyes spoke everything
family in my room crying out, don't know what to think
sister scared to live with me, my dad just wants his son to blink
i agreed to go with them so they could start to fucking breathe

i just wanna leave the scene, thought if i spoke rationally 
i could go home but that didn't mean that actually
i said every chilling thought but did it with a soothing voice
i spoke hella casual, the info made her make her choice

locked inside a room over night they never let me know
but they went and told my fucking family to hit the road
morning time, they transfer me like hannibal, i'm bound and cold
had me in the back of the van pointed at the road

face to face with drivers behind us but they don't fucking know
they couldn't see through the tinted window, where i sat and spoke
tears ran down my face cause i start to dissociate
i'm still like a kid but they're treating me like norman bates

been awhile since i did that shit
nothing really changed but the love i gained, it's intimate
never thought i'd gain anything i'm scared of losing
feelings fucking bittersweet, my thoughts will put me through it

been awhile since i did that shit
nothing really changed but the love i gained, it's intimate
never thought i'd gain anything i'm scared of losing
feelings fucking bittersweet, my thoughts will put me through it

bittersweet
yeah it's bittersweet my thoughts attacking me
i can't deal, i can't deal with this, i fear you're leaving me
i don't got no reason, got no reason, yet i feel this way
feeling fucking petrified, the thought of you just makes my day

bittersweet
yeah it's bittersweet my thoughts attacking me
i can't deal, i can't deal with this, i fear you're leaving me
i don't got no reason, got no reason, yet i feel this way
feeling fucking petrified, the thought of you just makes my day

epidemic (prod. lxw)

dylan xo

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