some of your songs are so calm and soft i love everything❤

Delightfully, unique, soft and sweet vocals. Very poetic, meaningful and interesting writing style. What is the meaning behind "do you?"? :)

3mpty

best listened to in a dark room with a candle lit
some words from the Tanakh, some words by dante gabriel rossetti
illustration: Lilith. Althea Gyles. The Dome I (Oct.-Dec. 1898): 235.

LYRICS <3 <3 <3:

the sky got very cloudy for the first time since july
lady in the darkness come into me please be mine
you're all i think about
shadow maker you could take her, tear the world down
and leave me here

maybe all i needed was one more autumn to integrate
my feelings
there's nothing to hold onto anymore
wish i could float above the heavens just so i could kiss the stars
and lady you would be there and say "how are you,
come into my arms."

sometimes i wish that i had eyes like lilith did
that they were sharp and dark and fox shaped
it's not enough  to just be here or just wake up
i need something more
as if these songs are the thing that hold us together
i'll write what the fuck i want, i'm not scared of
the weather anymore
i just really can't be here when the sun goes down
i hate winter in this city, ya i fucking hate this town
i know it's bad to say, but god loves me anyway
and i just wanna be honest

i'm almost finished being so afraid
i shake hands with stinging nettle and i dance
with deadly nightshade
i searched out my companions that were lost in crystal canyons
they're all gone, i shed a tear, i walk away

lady of the darkness come into me please be mine
someday i'll have the power to knock over candles
with my mind and
how holy is it to know that your body is only blood and 
love letters in writing
it's not enough to just wake up i need to feel you beside me
when i smoke menthol cigarettes and stand alone at every party

sometimes i wish that i had eyes like lilith did 
that they were sharp and dark and fox shaped
it's not enough to just be here or just wake up 
i need something more.........

for lilith

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im yr dog - richie woods

Do You? by Sidney Hilston
Written, recorded, and produced by Sidney Hilston.

LYRICS:
you don't owe me anything at all 
paid enough with the cost that tears fall 
and all the screams I lost made my throat go sore 
I don't think I can breathe anymore. 

my whole life's a passive suicide attempt 
I hope I forget how to open my eyes 
my whole life's prepared for six feet underground 
but I know that I'm meant for the flies. 

do you like it when I get beat up 
do you smile at my worthlessness 
did you know you're sick with that deadly touch 
are you proud of your hurtfullness 

have you seen me bleed 
have you watched it twice 
have you ever considered 
what it's like to be nice 
I don't know. 

I sat in the dark all alone 
ignored everyone and threw out my phone 
even the sound of my own breathing made me ill 
self induced vomit will always spill 
can't you see I brought this on myself 
can't you see my broken mental health 
what's it like to be in so much control 
I hate being half but I'll never be whole 

I cross the street at night and 
I hope someone will keep driving straight 
I'm searching for meaning to be alright 
but I know that it's quite late. 

do you like it when I get beat up 
do you smile at my worthlessness 
did you know you're sick with that deadly touch 
are you proud of your hurtfulness 

have you seen me bleed 
have you watched it twice 
have you ever considered 
what it's like to be nice 

I don't know 

all the stars stop shining 
and all of the sheep die 
got nothing left to count on 
besides the headlights

HairCut

Do You?

don't you go leaving me
you still got a life to go
sunken eyed, hollow
teary eyes, pretty bones

i could never run from it
you know how it feels to be
tired from the weight of it
wake up and you don't feel home

say you need to rest but go
snort a line a little bit
then you think you own the world
but you can't control your fit

i dont know how to tell you
i dont know how to tell you
you tell me

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Pretty Bones

All Music, Lyrics, Vocals and Art by Maddy Ellwanger.
Produced, Engineered, Recorded and Mixed by Maddy Ellwanger
Copyright 2015. All Rights Reserved.

Maddy Ellwanger - Angel Baby

Eat Worms And Die

Written, recorded, and produced by Sidney Hilston.

I’m sleeping
breathing
it’s keeping
me tied to my bed
lullabies are over now
lay your little head down
tongue-tied in your nightgown
close but not quite dead

I started to take xanax
instead of having sex
and I have no regrets
I have no regrets
I have no regrets
so I do it all again
x2

a narcoleptic nightmare
I can’t wake up for days
I’m comatose and lonely
lost in orange haze
this world can’t dream but I can
probably more than I should
but I’m drowsy and tired
and going back to bed for good

I started to take xanax
instead of having sex
and I have no regrets
I have no regrets
I have no regrets
so I do it all again
x2

I see better when my eyes are closed
I feel better when I’m with the ghosts
and the sunlight in my window makes me gag
I need another fuckin nap

polished in sadness and glossed in madness
like a fuckin fanatic I’m still going at it
it’s the tragic and static division of an addict
something in my head kinda feels like magic

sometimes I paralyze myself
and I stay in bed without a pulse like stone
the days are shorter it’s a waste
reality is turning into a shit show
if I go out it’s after dark
so I get fucked up and stay awake til five
I don’t regret it I have fun
then I laugh at videos I took of myself high

I’m half asleep
in a world that doesn’t know to dream
a somniloquist
in a world where only you could speak

sinking in ZZZ

nobody knows why the hell we’re all here
some say there’s afterlife and others say we disappear
so I’ll live the rest of my life with a bible near
until you can tell me there’s nothing to fear
I’m not leaving yet but it’s like they don’t care
they’ve been waiting for it and they’re all prepared
not an ounce in their bodies is even scared
but I know more than they can bare

sometimes I paralyze myself
and I stay in bed without a pulse like stone
the days are shorter it’s a waste
reality is turning into a shit show
if I go out it’s after dark
so I get fucked up and stay awake til five
I don’t regret it I have fun
then I laugh at videos I took of myself high

time bugs me I’m a spider
my legs are getting tired
there’s nothing to existence
I keep myself at a distance

lyrics:

trying is just a slippery slope to sadness
which is a slippery slope to madness
which is a hollywood word for how i exist and work i guess

and love is  just another word for obnoxious
which is  to say i am loveless
maybe thats why i am scared of you and what you do

when you like me enough to make me feel like im good
when you love me i think maybe i could love too
i always thought i might be bad now i know that its true
cus i think you’re so good and im nothing like you

and you took me apart like a ball jointed doll
put a heart where i used to be just ribs with a skull
now i hurt when you leave is that better than before
now i just want you to love me more and more and more


kill me  use me for what is my purpose
choke me until i turn purple
instead of your mild and self sacrificing humanising

my love is  closer to something thats toxic
than love that is just something lovely
which is why i dont kiss cus i can taste myself on them

can you love me again if im a horrible friend?
if i push you away to make more room for myself?
if im broken and hurting and stuck in a loop?
always saying the same things embarrassing you?

can you break me until i am broken enough
to pathetically think that i understand love
its all a mental decoy    im a broken toy
mistaking attention for joy

bleeding is maybe something to do with competing
just a proof that our bodies are fleeting
living life to the fullest has always been the weirdest thing

and love has always caused nothing but problems
if u see my exes please tell them
that pain is a virtue  yet still nothing really quite compares  to how you sometimes dye my hair and love me even when im   sick     i know i dont deserve it

trying is just a slippery slope to surviving
and thats why im writing and writing
never quite finishing any songs so i write more and more and more and more and more

Trying

this is a joke

pls stream me on itunes, spotify, etc. i don’t get paid for streams here!!!

Do You?

Sidney Hilston

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