choices not excuses

Prod. P4RA

Lyrics:

ima turn my body into ashes
ima let my body down cause i let everybody down
ima get a car just to crash it 
i dont wanna live no more im driving til i hit a wall

hope you still thinking bout me 
hope you see things that i see
hope you still care about me
hope you wonder where i be

i let my guard down
why did i trust on a hoe now
i think she hurt now
new man be telling her lies now

i dont wanna fall and regret it
but baby i wish that you meant it
i dont wanna love so forget it
i dont wanna fall and regret it

i let my guard down
why did i trust on a hoe now
i think she hurt now
new man be telling her lies now
i dont wanna fall and regret it
but baby i wish that you meant it

ima turn my body into ashes
ima let my body down cause i let everybody down
ima get a car just to crash it 
i dont wanna live no more im driving til i hit a wall

hope you still thinking bout me 
hope you see things that i see

lavender (prod. P4RA)

i broke apart w/ skele (neverfall)

prod: @jolst @irby314
master: https://soundcloud.com/caustyk

i wish that i wasn't wrong


i wish i never called back 
you said
you couldn't tell me that you loved me 
no stress
i hope he treats you better 
than i ever did 
i always break when it ends 
wish you weren't more than a friend
cause i tried so hard
for this
i never thought you'd be gone 
cause i saw stars when we kissed
and it hurt for so long 
again
i never thought you'd be gone
i wish that i wasn't wrong

n i tried too hard 
i guess
i just wanna feel wanted 
and end up hurt in the end
n i should know by now 
that i'm not worth that text
if i was better then maybe 
i'll say it's love when it's sex
n you can fuck me up n i'll stay 
i've learned it's better that way 
i can convince myself that you care when i break
and when your eyes turn to grey 
and all the lies sound the same
i'll know you're leaving for certain 
i've learned the signs of my burden

n i'll ignore it 
like windows down when it's pouring 
i must like hurting myself,
i always know where it's going
n i don't know why i do that 
i wanted love, 
i can say that

i wish that i wasn't wrong this time 
i wish you would've been here 
i wish that i could tell you
i quit smoking cigarettes 
i got stuck on the sentiment 
couldn't look at our necklace 
and i cried getting rid of it
i heard that song
i played it all
wanted to tell you it hurt 
when you missed those calls 
took that trip back home
wanted to see my mom 
n it's been cold in los angeles 
wish we made it to fall
i still give you the benefit 
n honest i'm sick of it
you're not the person that i knew 
i don't know what you did with them
cause you got cold 
n time moved slow 
you left in july 
but i swear there was snow

i wish i never called back (prod. jolst & irby)

produced by hiraeth


Call me
Bitch u never wanna call me
I don’t wanna die tn but im hoping
Crying in ur arms and I deserve all this
Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss

Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss
Hang me out to dry 
Drip blood from the ceiling
Im losing my mind so tell me if u mean it
Try not to cry while u rip me to pieces

Try not to cry just tell me if u mean it
Stop looking down its the blood from the ceiling
Its never my fault how tf do you miss him
Apart of me is gone that’s a part of me missing

forged

featuring @swiiif & @prodimmortal
produced by @prodimmortal
engineered by @marcdoesmusic
link to all services: https://ffm.to/mvobadluck

LYRICS:

(Immortal don't be playin' with 'em)

Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Won't back up cause it's just my luck
Lost that love when I lost your trust
And I can't back up cause it's all bad luck
And I lost my head when I let you go
And I can't go back cause I lost control
Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Fall back down cause it's all bad luck

I don't wanna fuck around no more
Feel so uncontrollable
Fuck me up and I can't let go
See your face everywhere I go
I don't wanna lie no more
I don't wanna cry no more
Call me toxic, yeah I know
I don't wanna feel like this no more
I feel like this every night
Wish you'd die within my mind
Still pretend that I'll be fine
Still can't get you out my mind

Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Won't back up cause it's just my luck
Lost that love when I lost your trust
And I can't back up cause it's all bad luck
And I lost my head when I let you go
And I can't go back cause I lost control
Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Fall back down cause it's all bad luck

I gave her lust,
I self-destruct
Not good enough,
I fuck things up (whoa)
You’re always the last thing on my mind
And I can’t take these sleepless nights
Searching for something that I can’t find
Demons chasing me inside
Wish I knew from time to time
You thought of me back by your side (yuh)

Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Won't back up cause it's just my luck
Lost that love when I lost your trust
And I can't back up cause it's all bad luck
And I lost my head when I let you go
And I can't go back cause I lost control
Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Fall back down cause it's all bad luck
(whoa, whoa)

©2022 TMM Entertainment

bad luck (feat. swiiif & immortal)

@suteracollective

prod hira :>

come on baby no one would know
you swear i hate the way that we go from
loving souls to fire engulfed
shooting for the stars but we crashed down

entirely confused where we were but
kinda knew a path we could take
stranded on the edge of the cliff side
strangers from the start till the end

i never really knew what to say
only ‘i’m a phone call away, love’
hope you never call me again
sick of feeling nothing at all

U don’t gotta lie was I ever even worth it ?
Look me in the eye, was I honestly a burden
Seems about right, you’d fucking laugh at me in person
You’d date 100 guys, how hard is it to curve them ?

I can barely sleep, I barely eat now
And even if I tried I’d drop it all to the ground
Looking thru ur phone would help me lose 100 lbs
Til I’m skin and I’m bone, I’d be fucking letting you down

Why the fuck did you text him back
Spewing anger to my face, ur all I have
U said u don’t wanna try, like u ever had
If this is how it ends I’m fucking glad

Losing it, Drop top im cruising in
My old bitch losing friends
My new shit booming in
Don't fall back down again
I know just how you are
No lost and found again
No crawling by my side

He’s so annoying I can see him posting shit on my time line

Leave me fucked up in the past
on the sidelines

I’ll clench my fist and crack my bones swear I won’t throw til it feels right

And I’m getting really sick of being stuck in my own mind

ground ft. sinxi & erxn

Produced by BĀ$$MØB, Keys Cobain, Teflon Sega

I Think Of You

lyrics - 
damage to my brain got me turning 
wouldn’t speak a word unless u wanted
is it me or am i going down a spiral
everyday i’m waking up with more problems
i feel alright for the moment 
don’t get too used to who i am in person 
cos the way i lose control is too concerning 
and you wouldn’t like me anyway im certain 

u wanna take it all the way?
shame i never felt the same oh no
tried to tell you what i meant
but you only focused on yourself

think i found somewhere to hide 
no light no dark just right 
make a promise that you’ll never leave my side
make a promise that you’ll never let me die

don’t wanna talk
don’t wanna stay here anyway
god it’s all too much to keep up day to day 
is it right to think that i’d be better off
jumping to my senses knowing all along
nothing mattered there was nothing at the golden arch
infatuated with the thought of never giving up
what’s the point when everybody does the fuckin same? 
what’s the point of even feeling fuckin anything?

u wanna take it all the way?
shame i never felt the same oh no 
tried to tell you what i meant
but you only focused on yourself

think i found somewhere to hide 
no light no dark just right 
make a promise that you’ll never leave my side
make a promise that you’ll never let me die

damage

lyrics - 
oh i always find my hand on the trigger when i'm wanting u
i got a funny feeling that i'll see u soon
devil in disguise oh u know i can see right through
and i hope that u want to

take me for a ride
rip apart every inch of me
oh love, we live a life of pure make believe
i wish you'd come and take control
you can take everything u need from me
from me, yeah

devil on ur way down
love
love on your way down
love
x2

never wanna lie for mistakes
never wanna die where i lay
i never wanna show i'm afraid
i just never learned to cry through the pain, oh
god it's been a rough day
and i hope u hold back
i ain't got enough strength
you wanna take us off track
but it's hard when u fall apart
i just don't know where to start
i ain't giving up 
i'm the devil babe

devil babe
come to terms with the devil babe
devil babe
devil on ur way down
come to terms with the devil love
love on ur way down
love

devil

produced by sk8miles
completely non profit
lyrics:

shawty hit me with that vac seal
no gorilla grip
she go on to talk dick sand 
and how im pussy whipped 
glad u can agree that u and i
are a perfect fit 
if we talk about the premise, 
u and i, i guess we're caving in 

caving in 
seems that all i do is fuel some version of the pain im in
glad u getting me n what i've learnt from eating pavement
said the monster looking back on everything he did
i need my medicine 

my feet lost the ground 
i am still not found
I'ma hack at this ounce
blow smoke down and make clouds 
my feet lost the ground
i am still not found
I'ma hack at this ounce 
blow smoke down and make clouds 

so we dress up
and we pub crawl
eatin on her ___
'til i get lockjaw
u gotta love me for the way i am
swear the more the that she could hurt me;
only make me more attached 
blowing smoke into a fan
while she's sleeping in my bed around like 2am
i just crack my beer n touch the cieling crush n toss the can 
lucky im all out of barz cus knowing me id take the chance bro

my bad, love u
that's a lot of vodka for someone 5 foot
hard world. pull thru.
no one gives a fuck and that's a hard truth
but you make me feel alright
better at least than most nights 
it's complex the state of my mind
but she just says to shut up 
and get the knife
 

good point, but i have a knife (sk8miles)

cover art by my mother 

all the songs in the flesh alb r jus gone be released as singles

sewerperson "lights r on but no ones home" covered in the song

mix & mastr @fleshgolem
lyrics

fillin up th cup 
i feel my body start to ache
evrything telling me to stop
even see th walls starting to cave
and they love it, a body piled function
don’t wanna cause fussing but it’s building up coz every day i see my grave

this aint who i am
but ima act like this is why i am 
my perspective starts to change in where i stand, looking out th window pane
look i dont blame u for thinking im not keen staying 
but i dont hav a plan, anywhere on this dirt feels same

sink to the floor, coz it’s the norm, 
don’t u touch my skin
it’s all been stored, i’m now reborn
coz i can dump my things
yelling fuck it, pressing on my stomach
i can feel it coming but i’m not fucking stopping
 till i’m turned out in 

look at my face, see my state i jus kno ur confused 
i need space, cannot wait let’s take a break on the moon
i’m in pain, still in shock, lost in thought and i’m bruised
u saw me thru th glass and then just left me bleeding out in this hotel room

i saw the lights on but i knew that no one else was home
look at the nikon and check the camera roll, i'm all alone
feel the bottle pop, spew it out, opening in the mouth
i'm a cyclops when it comes to seeing no one else
okay, okay

i feel my ears pop when i take the lift up to the spot
in the function, sipping on this ace and rolling pot
i'ma punch in, even when i'm geeked, i'm on the clock
like a pumpkin, i'm lit up and my body start to rot

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

know i act tough i just need someone to see i’m not ok
the whole domineer off i’ma just leave it to fate
cut my feelings off coz that mean i’m not suffering the same
sure it isn’t real but when i smile i still feel sane

i still feel sane, but mostly when im on a subs
get apifannys that turns my wants in to musts
i get a lot dreams but w my habits theyre all stuck 
i got these goals but w these habits theyre all fucked

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

lights r on

lights r on (flesh)

TWIN

tinted

Recorded/Engineered/Produced in my bedroom.

Available everywhere March 1st x

~ Guilty

~ Down

'Sin-Shi'

Mixing/Mastering - prodbysinxi@gmail.com
Features/Enquiries - sinxi.mgmt@gmail.com

@ditc_exe
@suteracollective

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

damage

sinxi

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