choices not excuses

song name (prod. sorrow bringer & boyfifty)

i like this one, my girlfriends kina in it too, enjoy

<3 much love too sorrow bringer as well

lyrics
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so.
i just wanna let you know
drinking in time for the show
its better to get ur heart broke
no one could know, no one could care

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldnt imgaine, it feels like

i swear my heart is a mess
you came to my life and you made it amends
im focusing energy to my own time
i cant let you go, cause i swear it feels right

im not as pretty as people would say
its all in the edits, i cover my face
im fake and im nauseous i guess
yeah im broken hearted, im ugly, so goo

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldn't imagine, it feels like

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldn't imagine, it feels like

I Swear It Feels Right (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

produced by neverforever

completely non profit

lyrics

told her do not worry
trouble getting up in any way without a coffee
fuck it gimme tea, gimme chai inside a latte
pass the competition no Ferrari I'm Bugatti
summer ain't for me I like my coats with excess pockets

don't go minding me I like to blend in with the objects
from my corner read the room out like a blurb and all its contents
drunk and in the city streets I'm walking singing nonsense
since we were 17 I've never stopped to watch the comets 

ay

lately do not fuck with outings 
no I do not wanna party
everybody here draining
u can keep all of ur conversations 
think that I'd rather just talk to the table
it kinda get me 
it kinda wobbly n never just stable
throwing up on this instrumental
fractured words gonna border mental
I'm offline and she's temperamental
talking shit on her screen of metal
how u let twitter impact how ur head screwed
how u let people decide who can love u
lately I sit in my room
and I just smoke thru
I'm losing the will just to pull thru
but honest it's been good to see u

good to see u
can I get a preview
let me see the other side
and tell me was it peaceful 
come and see u?
I can barely speak dude
I vomit words onto a beat 
but conversations where I'm weak

where I'm weak
and so I weep

winter heat drops
all the leaves rot
my face will leak snot 
I'm like a tea pot
my heart will weep blood
it's filled with red muck
don't mind my weed cough
my lungs are black sludge

I got bad habits in my backpack
how u fuckin with a thumb tat
I got a razor blade and a bruised waist
I don't eat enough and that's my bad
too many fakes just chasing plays
u ain't ever blowing up and it's so sad
I'm not chasing fads I'm just born to rap
I ain't even wrote this down in my notepad

it's off the dome
kicking in the streets without a home
and I almost copped a charge but I came home
so lighten up there's not a lot of hope
and what u got is what u taking home

vomit (neverforever)

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lyrics - 

this ain't working
my stomach's fucking hurting
grab my backpack
i never really fucked with that
i ain't used to this shit
i know this ain't you
what's your purpose?
i see you float around too

where you gonna go when you up and leave home?
you say it's such a bleak and lonely road
but i don't believe that you know who you are
you'll never know if you're enough

you'll always find your way home
you say you're so fucking alone
you left everyone behind
and you only just realized

this ain't working
my stomach's fucking hurting
grab my backpack
i never really fucked with that
i ain't used to this shit
i know this ain't you
what's your purpose?
i see you float around too

i'm so sick of always trying to pursue you
let me go, just let me down
i never knew you
i won’t ever stick around, it’s not like you do
pull me up and tear me down it’s what I’m used to
so pull me out and let me down
can't help but change when you’re not around
i hate my face
man I hate this town
let me go
let me drown

float (feat. hiraeth)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

Produced by BĀ$$MØB, Keys Cobain, Teflon Sega

I Think Of You

lyrics - 
damage to my brain got me turning 
wouldn’t speak a word unless u wanted
is it me or am i going down a spiral
everyday i’m waking up with more problems
i feel alright for the moment 
don’t get too used to who i am in person 
cos the way i lose control is too concerning 
and you wouldn’t like me anyway im certain 

u wanna take it all the way?
shame i never felt the same oh no
tried to tell you what i meant
but you only focused on yourself

think i found somewhere to hide 
no light no dark just right 
make a promise that you’ll never leave my side
make a promise that you’ll never let me die

don’t wanna talk
don’t wanna stay here anyway
god it’s all too much to keep up day to day 
is it right to think that i’d be better off
jumping to my senses knowing all along
nothing mattered there was nothing at the golden arch
infatuated with the thought of never giving up
what’s the point when everybody does the fuckin same? 
what’s the point of even feeling fuckin anything?

u wanna take it all the way?
shame i never felt the same oh no 
tried to tell you what i meant
but you only focused on yourself

think i found somewhere to hide 
no light no dark just right 
make a promise that you’ll never leave my side
make a promise that you’ll never let me die

damage

lyrics - 
oh i always find my hand on the trigger when i'm wanting u
i got a funny feeling that i'll see u soon
devil in disguise oh u know i can see right through
and i hope that u want to

take me for a ride
rip apart every inch of me
oh love, we live a life of pure make believe
i wish you'd come and take control
you can take everything u need from me
from me, yeah

devil on ur way down
love
love on your way down
love
x2

never wanna lie for mistakes
never wanna die where i lay
i never wanna show i'm afraid
i just never learned to cry through the pain, oh
god it's been a rough day
and i hope u hold back
i ain't got enough strength
you wanna take us off track
but it's hard when u fall apart
i just don't know where to start
i ain't giving up 
i'm the devil babe

devil babe
come to terms with the devil babe
devil babe
devil on ur way down
come to terms with the devil love
love on ur way down
love

devil

produced by sk8miles

originally performed by rainbow kitten surprise

completely non profit

lyrics

listen when it isnt what ur talking for ur name's sake
jesus, mary-magdalene u are, are u okay?
sitting by the well, jill ur falling down the hill
jack and everybody laughed
dont u pray
dont u pray

to a cocaine jesus in a black 4 seater
got a man dont need him but u wait
call me if u want or just call me if u need
if u only ever need it for the day

high wont hold, wont hold
and i have no more
then all u left of me
i have i have i have no more
then all u leave

high as hell, feeling fine
nothing bad but nothing kind
no not a word from me
nothing u would mind
in my head 
in my head
i get lonely sometimes

feeling fly, coming down
never bad cus we're never out
u'll never call the cops again
i'll never call her mine
in my head
in my head
i get lonely sometimes

when u find an old picture of us
and u clear away the dust
i hope u miss me sometimes
when u see a frame that reminds u of me
and u remember the times
oh the times that we believed

in a cocaine jesus in a black 4 seater
got a man dont need him but u wait
call me if u wan or just call me if u need
if u only ever need it for the day

and i am nothing more 
than a page unwritten on the pavement
blowing in the wind
u win a lot
and u lose just a little bit more than u gained in the end

but god i wish that i
was better than i am
but no luck, no love
no gospel i could understand
im nothing that u ever wanted to lean on
yeah
but even then

i am nothing more than a page unwritten on the pavement
u need it til' u left
but im more than a need
or something u believe
or a word that u leave unsaid

cocaine_ jesus_  (sk8miles)

don't wait up
produced by metlast x luffy
featuring @lilskeleskrrt
mixed by nine to 5 and skele

lyrics:
nine to 5:
you don't need to wait up
i'm out for the night
you don't have to wake up
i'm lost inside my dreams tonight

don't wake me i'm wasted, lying on the pavement
cracked cement falling through these thin places
eyes rolled back, jagged finish to these faces
on to the next, i've been flipping all these pages
you don't really know me don't pretend that you do
it's been a long time, i don't recognize you
fuck what you've been saying, nowadays im brand new
but i'll never pretend to know what you went through

wait, wait, wait
i think i've been losing my way
fate gone to different places, these figures shapeless
nothing heres the same now
don't know why i've been waiting around
oh (gone again, waste another thought again)
I knew it from the start i'd be gone again
here we are again
caught up in the grapevine
thats a great lie
what you said it didn't sit right
didn't ask why
now i'm here with a new life

here we are

skele:
i watched the crows come in you're ripping out my heart

i'm so fucking gone
i faced the sin for what you did you played along
i watched the crows come in ripping out my heart
you can leave my body charred
that's the kind of ghost you are
even when you visit me you never wanna stay long

tell me everything
i wanna listen while you make all the corpses sing
i'll take you home
i'll watch the show
and i'll applaud you at the end before you go

nine to 5 x skele:
don't wake me i'm wasted, lying on the pavement
cracked cement falling through these thin places
eyes rolled back, jagged finish to these faces
on to the next, i've been flipping all these pages
you don't really know me don't pretend that you do
it's been a long time, i don't recognize you
fuck what you've been saying, nowadays im brand new
but i'll never pretend to know what you went through

listen on spotify!

nine to 5 - don't wait up ft. skele (prod. metlast x luffy)

xan(prod.jxybeats)

Erreur de codage (remix)

Recorded/Engineered/Produced in my bedroom.

Available everywhere March 1st x

~ Guilty

~ Down

remghost: https://soundcloud.com/remghost
jolst: https://soundcloud.com/jolst

lyrics:
i know u like it how i'm messed up
sit back and listen to how my head's fucked
and you're fine without me, didn't mean much
but i keep on dreaming of your touch

i made a bag today 
a lot of these nights spent alone, awake
thinking about what my friends would say
if they knew how i'm bouta go away
i thought of u today
sleeping alone doesn't feel the same
and i just don't know how much i can take 
the old me is gone, have myself to blame

i know u like it how i'm messed up
sit back and listen to how my head's fucked
and you're fine without me, didn't mean much
but i keep on dreaming of your touch

i never saw love in your eyes
so i don't know why when u left it surprised me 
it must've been hard to disguise 
the way that u didn't like what's inside of me

i know u like it how i'm messed up
sit back and listen to how my head's fucked
and you're fine without me, didn't mean much
but i keep on dreaming of your touch

messed up (prod. remghost & jolst)

'Sin-Shi'

Mixing/Mastering - prodbysinxi@gmail.com
Features/Enquiries - sinxi.mgmt@gmail.com

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@suteracollective

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

float (feat. hiraeth)

sinxi

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