prod. caps ctrl (https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997)
feat. kais (https://soundcloud.com/ripkais)

october:

dont tell me goodbye (x8)

just go away leave me alone
dont talk to me when youre stoned
no im not okay youre breaking my bones
and no i cant find a home
im lost in a maze i cry and decay
i get into bed and i die everyday
i get into bed and i cry everyday
i dont deserve the money i make
im a loser and im lazy on the highway 180
gonna swerve off cant save me 
all in hd 1080 say go away 
bitch make me idgaf if you hate me
if i were you i wouldnt date me
coz my head a mess it so crazy
its so crazy im broken
life shattered heart frozen
dont really know where im going
but im prolly gonna blow it
now i cant work and i cant eat
takes too long to go sleep
dont really think you ever loved me
gonna leave me gonna dump me
the first time i drank i was with you
havent talked in years now i miss you
i think my whole life an issue hit ctrl z edit undo
baby can you delete me see me in the grave on the tv
life is done now wont see me end of the game its gg

kais:

im sorry 
that im not the person you thought that i was im useless because 
i cant make u smile like everyone else
im stuck in my mind I know that you cant tell very well
theres three words ill still tell you, even though we dont feel it cus we fell through
i dont even know who u are anymore 
fuck is you talkin bout
you think im fine when you not around 
who do you think I am tryin to change me like baby let go of my hand 
lookin back at all our memories 
tryna find the reason why you cant just let me breathe
girl you got me on my knees
i’ll never replace you
and i wouldnt think of it at all
and im gonna stay true
ill be there when you gonna fall
im really sorry I missed your call
got my back against your wall
i try my hardest give my all
im sorry 
that im not the person you thought that i was im useless because 
i cant make you smile like everyone else
im stuck in my mind I know that you cant tell very well

i dont even know who you are anymore

dont tell me goodbye (feat. kais)

She only text’s me in the nighttime
Still drunk can’t read don't feel right
And I swear i could never act right
Still left on read like ghost time 
And i swear that I’m trying 
Two shots to my head now dying
And he acting like she bribed him
No love just sex now crying

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And I smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

I’m easily replaceable
Don’t have another way to go
I’m lost without a reason 
Time to stop my breathing
Heart be running fast within my chest it gets to beating
Found another way to make it out i swear I'm leaving
Pain been pushed aside i lost my friend and now I'm grieving, grieving

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh i lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now I’m dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

gemini (prod. siem spark x gavinhadley x milesjulian)

produced by @ghosthandsmusic

lyrics:
I feel fucked since the day you left me
Still reminisce inside
But I can't get over the feelings
Of anything
But what I felt like hit my life
And I'm so sorry that I'm taking this personal
Held on for so long
This grudge and I don't know why
Inside I still feel it belongs

Can I get 5 more minutes
The time goes
I don't get it
Why can't we hold
This moment before you go

I'm tired of this shit
Can we just turn it over
Back to before all this
Can't change the present or more
Set aside how I feel
Seems all impossible but
I'll try my best to pick up from takin it slower
Wait give me a sec
I just need to rewire my mind I
Can't change the way right this side
Feels like I'm not in control
Its the back of my thoughts grabbing hold
I know now its a sign
Forgiveness can change this course
Trynna find it in my soul
Cause I need it more

I know I feel like you just left me
My heart achin
My open chest empty
So please can i

Can I get 5 more minutes
The time goes
I don't get it
Why can't we hold
This moment before you go

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don't go..

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

Safe And Sound ft.Days to Waste & cutdeep (sorrow bringer)

-NAVY-
i aint nothing
i aint nothing
do ur talking
i know u like it

u try to stop it
ur fuckin drugs which confinement are u hiding in, i cannot fuckin find it
-Hiraeth-
staring at the ceiling baby all i see is blood
u dont gotta call me now its nearly been a monf
u. aint gotta tell me that u luv me its a front
all my feelings are gone now u said u where done
i dont even wanna text you
i never thought id bean issue
"didnt mean to mistreat u"
my god have a reason

-NAVY-
but it wastes, wastes, wastes
been pullin on ur waist
im in space, space, space
aint nothin like it used to be
erased, reased, rased
im waiting on the day
putta 5 up to my head if u think u can run away
ima end it, end it, i hear voices in my basement

its hard to realize the sounds that fiddle in the distance
but you missed

-Hiraeth-
when i die would you let me grieve 
running out of skin 
nothing left of me
feel the marrow in my bone 
u gotta set me free
my god. 
my god would you let me breathe


-Sleepwater-
i wish u wouldent hurt me
the things u do desert me
so vacant for what concerns me
my bloods in ur vial turn me (into)
a dirty cheating scumbag
i know that i hate myself
i feel like a lost book that turned me down
i guess im just another hand me out

-NAVY-
im vacant, i stare blank, at the floor
theres nothing left, to mourn

-sleepwater-
im just not ur agony
you can lay me down, peacefully
I'm just, not ur agony


I Hear Screams In The Distance ft. hiraeth & sleepwater (prod. uforia)

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LYRICS  -
let somebody love you
let yourself be loved like you used to
rendezvous
we could run away like the others do
give me all of you
in a picture perfect moment

oh i'm all in
and i didn't even see it 
left me falling
i got nothing in my heart
noose around it
you're my shadow in the dark
drag me further
that's just the way i want it, love
that's just the way i want it, love

let somebody love you
let yourself be loved like you used to
rendezvous
we could run away like the others do
give me all of you
in a picture perfect moment

you have my heart
my soul
my dreams 
my goals, woah

you want my touch
my clothes
my highs
my lows, woah

so i'll give you all i have, yeah
i'll show you that life ain't all bad
i'll take my time, real slow
just say where you wanna go

'cos i know it'll be best for us

let somebody love you
let yourself be loved like you used to
rendezvous
we could run away like the others do
give me all of you
in a picture perfect moment

rendezvous

s/o soundcloud.com/boyfifty and soundcloud.com/user-530621763
enjoy :)

lyrics:

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck

therapy's expensive and exercise is pendin
thoughts are goin wild and anxietys expandin
you need everyone to hear you, but cant seem to open up
yeah your confidence is lackin and you couldnt give a fuck

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

i miss them all
i need someone to catch me before i fall
i need love and composure
something i looked over
i cant even function, i fucked myself over

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself x2

look them in the eyes, bruh
you cant love yourself if you gonna hide and run
from your confidence its killin you inside of us
im tryna help but you fuckin up the life of us

okay maybe im depressed right now
cant leave the room (go out)
i need some rest right now
i don't got time to show out
i cant find a reason for anything
i cant find the motivation that im chasin so desperately.

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck x2

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

callin' out to myself

spotify

callin' out to myself (prod. boyfifty x eeryskies)

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

Poison

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

// flowrs // 

it’s so degrading 
the way you say that
you know what you want,
and you don’t want to love me

you’re so persuading,
i fuckin hate it
when you say those things
that you know 
fucking cut me 

our love is fading
and you’re evading
all these cloudy thoughts 
cus you’re so fucking lucky

just fucking say it
can’t catch a wave
so i’ll just stay afloat
cus you’re swimming above me 

fuck you,
fuck him 
fuck everything,
every thought,
don’t wanna ever think you’re fine,
i know i’m not 
tell me does he 
love you
the same way that you
loved me
i hope you fucking die 
i swear to god
i’ll kill you with my own two hands
you went too far 

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day 

// skele // 

it’s so frustrating 
how you push me away 
then you’re pulling me back by the end of the day 
it’s so annoying 
how u say that u need me 
then act like u hate me 
i’m tired of waiting 

so why u got act all mad for 
tell me that ur needing more 
why u gotta slam the car door 
n now ur taking off my shirt on your floor 
but i’m here 
and you’re there 
and you tell me that it’ll be okay
i don’t care

// flowrs //

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day

tumour w/ skele

'Sin-Shi'

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