الله يعطيك الصجه واللجه

ولله ذكرني ب اوبننينق ملحمة فنيلاند 

a collection of songs talking about love, anxiety and pain.
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Tracklist:
0:00 SoLonely - foryou (prod. haruhi)
https://soundcloud.com/imsoalone

2:13 9TAILS - wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

4:47 GUNBLADE - substance abuse
https://soundcloud.com/prodgunblade

8:52 BOY FLOSS - MISS U
https://soundcloud.com/boyfloss

12:08 SoLonely - Sometimes
https://soundcloud.com/imsoalone

i'm not good with feelings

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

production/guitar/cover art - poppy tears 

featuring my boy - https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad

♡ lyrics ♡

poppy tears:

write songs just to get me through the day
black lungs, cold heart, too cold to play
on my tongue that weight dissolves away
if Im wrong i'll jump off that highway

she hmu wana talk about feelings 
but I numb it up till I don't fucking feel them
tell me world have I succeeded 
tryna keep it inside will I conceal it

she wants to see it all
even a place I hold my secrets
she wants to see it all 
even a place I hold my demons 

she hmu wana talk about feelings 
I numb em up till I don't fucking feel them
tell me world have I succeeded 
tryna I keep it inside will I conceal it

she wants to see it all
even a place I hold my secrets
she wants to see it all 
even a place I hold my demons

write songs just to get me through the day
black lungs, cold heart, too cold to play
on my tongue that weight dissolves away
if Im wrong i'll jump off that highway

lil happy lil sad: 

shes always there when i need her
shes always there when im breaking down
i never kept any secrets
she know my demons inside out

i let her in on everything
if people knew i know theyd run
she hit my phone but i let it ring
i dont want to let her down

not today, not again
rollin up, for the pain
people caused me, in the past
people hurt me, made it last

have to work now
everyday
and i work hard
till im paid

wanna help you
help myself
girl i might just
kill myself

✧ spotify ✧

see it all w/ lil happy lil sad (prod. poppy tears)

I do not own the original song, I only have edited the song to my own liking for others to listen and enjoy the music.

If it needs to be taken down please contact me appropriately.

yesterday's soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/cpt_sad
yesterday's original version: https://soundcloud.com/cpt_sad/id-die-for-you-prod-blacklunged

[Lyrics]
one of these days
i hope to be okay
im fixing the things
that felt right out of place
im an addict at best
you can take anything
as long as you stay
babe youll be my everything

i dont wanna bother you
stop hittin me up, were through
im takin it day by day
i dont even know what to say
im just tryna better myself
these bottles right up on the shelf
spent nights with the thoughts in my head
spent days wishin all this would end

no i dont need a friend
just need you to save my life
tried endin it twice
a blunts in my right
im thinkin wouldnt it be nice
to fade to the pavement?
these words on my grave are meant
to drive one last statement
right into the back of your neck

no i wont say sorry
i just want you by me
drive my car to your house
just to die in your arms
by myself

i'd die for you - yesterday (prod. blacklunged) slowed

sleep thru ur alarms (lontalius cover)

guccihighwaters - do u wanna be mine? (slowed)

Magical (feat. Lil Sophy, Poppy Tears, Teen Pregnancy & SoLonely)

a surprise song <3
written, produced, mixed and mastered by me

lyrics:

i ain't getting no chances
i am tired of running
I am tired of hiding
always felt like i fucked up
always felt like im dying
always felt youre the bad one
always felt like im crying
but we ain't getting back together I know
but we ain't getting back together I know

i know that i've fucked up
will I ever be forgiven
hitting up another pub
im really so emotion driven

said to me you don't want to see my face
you don't see me trying, i don't see you crying
didn't see you running, didn't see me fighting
i ain't even trying to get with you again

i could really mention, all the things you did in the past
but i don't see the point 
cause when i try to talk things out
they always end up on your side
and here's another fight
i'm the one to blame
all the time

i ain't getting no chances
i am tired of running
I am tired of hiding
always felt like i fucked up
always felt like im dying
always felt youre the bad one
always felt like im crying
but we ain't getting back together I know
but we ain't getting back together I know
x2

Always Thought It Was My Fault

[PROD. HXRXKILLER] @hxrxkiller

LOVESPELLEDBACKWARDS - @iamcjcarter

Lyrics:
[FRVR]
Imma cut the lights out and go in the past
Baby you wont ever fucking love me like that
I got a thousand words that you wont understand 
I know you dont love me as much as your xans

Do you even know the pain that i feel
I could get high till this shit aint real
Baby you were mine fuck i cant stop bleeding
Go to another life, seeing you while im dreaming
[EVOL]
imma cut my wrists and bleed out in the back
i wonder if you think about what we had
i could never love you as much as these xans
sorry im so selfish but you dont understand
[FRVR]
Imma cut the lights out and go in the past
Baby you wont ever fucking love me like that
I got a thousand words that you wont understand 
I know you dont love me as much as your xans
[EVOL]
i know im a nightmare and you hate that
why the fuck wont you leave me in the past
i know that you hate me i heard from your friends
imma be dead soon i promise you that

BLEEDING - [FRVR X LOVESPELLEDBACKWARDS]

[prod. Diamoon] @diamoonofnhg

Lyrics:
My heart aches from all these mistakes
Just leave me today cause its all the same 

Im not fine
Everythings been feeling so wrong
I dont feel alive
I love u and so long

Its all over now
And she aint ever coming back
Fuck this shitty town
And all the things left in the past

Do i even care to care
Its all so hard to keep up with
I know shit aint really fair
but fuck life and fuck this

Waking up in a nightmare 
And i just wanna leave here

I keep on forgetting how bad it hurts
Till you remind me this shits a curse
Something feels missing, its getting worse
I cant really let go maybe ill learn

Eating away deep inside 
Thinking i might want to die
Getting high all by myself
Im out of time and overwhelmed 

Nothing seems to satisfy
Lost in the void in mind
Your touch used to give me chills
Now thoughts of you make me need pills

IT'S ALL OVER NOW

written/produced/mixed/mastered by me

lyrics:

misunderstood
never feels right
we're going down
this ain't so bright

we have each other
we are the youth
we never bother
with how are you

maybe I am insane
I can't even feel the pain
heart shut down, nothing strange
had enough of being drained

you know I'm not okay
and I know you feel the same
nobody understands
so we'll choose a different way

tell me babe, wanna leave this town
say it, all I need is you and we are out
we can aim for bigger things
this place is killing dreams

let's go love
I keep on getting tired
don't think love, let's hold hands
imma guide you through the dark
x2

I can't lie, I'm falling through
'cause i'm fed up and that is true
cuts, incisions on my wrist
don't want to die but don't want to live

I feel like I'm in a cage
all I ever knew is how to deal with pain
maybe you know how to cope
'cause I've had enough, I want to go

you know how demons work
grab me and hold me close
voices tell me to let go
slipping away so you can cut my throat

tell me babe, wanna leave this town
say it, all I need is you and we are out
we can aim for bigger things
this place is killing dreams

let's go love
I keep on getting tired
don't think love, let's hold hands
imma guide you through the dark
x2

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Photo Credit: https://instagram.com/nxelle_v
Lyrics:
is there anybody, in my head
that can lend a hand, take away this dread
hear me screaming calling, you feel my blood
always warm it's running, it flows with love
im still mad, at the way it ends
you weighed down my feet, buried me in sand
let the tide come in, while im stuck on land
drown in all my fears, you never grabbed my hand

ive kept this secret
for far too long
you weighed me down, you choked me out
(you weighed me down, you choked me out)
x2

the clock strikes twelve
youve gone to bed
but how can you sleep with that thought still in your head
i think im numb
i think im gone
i think ive lost, what ive worked for all along

what is this feeling
trapped inside my head
what are these thoughts
telling me i should be dead
hope
love
grace
death

ive kept this secret
for far too long
you weighed me down, you choked me out
(you weighed me down, you choked me out)
x2

choke me out

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