12/26/21

what’s the meaning of it all?
staring at my phone screen tap tap tap to the beat of a mundane scene that surrounds me
got our heads down scared to look at one another
like we don’t know what the consequence of interaction is yet
the silent hostility that’s common makes me upset
but that’s unimportant
there’s billions of other people who feel the same way where’s the warning
that one day my bones will crumble into dust laying 6 feet under ground that will one day be a road letting semis pass through the town
and the last sound that i made was heard by ears decomposing into grains of dust in the same ground that i’m in
so what’s the aftermath?
after all of this is done will i regret the time i spent staring at my computer watching youtube videos eating chips and drinking soda?
if i die now will i regret never reforming my faith
to believe there was a god that watches over me every day 
i wish i did it like i used to but the hope has gone away
i mean shit 
maybe jesus walking the earth right now wearing birkenstock sandals smoking on loud
wearing shades maybe i passed by him the other day maybe he was the stranger that smiled and waved
maybe that was just a stranger who smiled and waved
and i didn’t wave back do i regret that too it’s the same
sequence of events every day i was bold to think i was the main character of this story
now i realize that there never was a story
there’s no allegory hidden in the leaves or in the rain
that symbolize a purpose as to why there’s so much pain
saying everything happens for a reason to shift the blame 
onto a force out of our control it makes me feel so much shame
to contribute to the idea that poetry in the blood within my veins
i see people laugh at others who appreciate the little things
and see people at gas stations buying candy like it’s the best part of their week
i see people sleeping on benches outside of a mcdonald’s while i order a big mac from the car i own looking away so i’m not bothered
by the scene of someone in a poorer position that i’m in
am i that fucking selfish?
to want the wills of other people to change in my favor
we all want the same thing but that thing requires
to give a bit but mostly take and sometimes when you see a potential jesus you don’t smile and wave
to keep up the serious path that people told you to follow
so you don’t end up sleeping on a bench outside of a mcdonald’s
and the expectations drive you crazy not even worried about disappointing yourself
you care more about the opinions of others denying all their help
because the independence set you free in a world that fucking hated you
knocked you to your knees and told you exactly what the fuck to do
and the result is people overcoming everything that’s thrown at them 
and some people on the brink of suicide when they get dumped by their girlfriend
and neither of those perspectives is wrong
just the product of how you grow and how well you get along
with every other person you encounter as the sonder’s growing louder 
the life of a stranger is just as important as yours
and neither your life or the strangers is important at all
there’s no meaning in it all
there’s no meaning to the song
there never was a song
just the depressing rambles of a person who’s opinion doesn’t matter
shouting into open space with no air for the sound to scatter
i always say i’m gonna die young because i can’t image getting older than i am now
so take it at face value when i jump off a roof into the crowd
blending in with faceless people with their own potential story
that could leave this town and become a blockbuster movie
maybe one different decision and that movie would be mine
the story of a kid who closed his eyes and tried to stop time
stuck his hands out with a shout in an attempt to hide from every inconvenience i couldn’t claim as mind
and someone out there is getting rejected for the 3rd time this year
and someone just won the lottery and is celebrating with beer
i’m not thinking about either of them

some thoughts [prod unlucky]

sorry i'm dumb
sorry i didn't mean to be the one
don't go passed out in the background
now the banging in my head is louder 
i'm done
comment request and reply 
don't let the sadness deny 
the way you look at me
stuck in sadness
sudden silence is turning black 
empty bottles on the counter
a ton of caps
you just told me to come over 
well where you at
i'll bide my time but don't tie my hands

i'm not gonna let you drown 
i'll pull you out the shore
let the water dry out
now my bodies so sore
cop an ounce roll it up
so high on the floor

you told me don't send a text
(i did it anyway)
hit my bong start to cry
(wipe my tears away)
lick the blood off my knife 
(i know you like that)
tell me that i am fine 
i deny it all the time 
baby when i'm with you 
i just wanna fly 

sorry i'm dumb
sorry i didn't mean to be the one
don't go passed out in the background
now the banging in my head is louder 
i'm done
comment request and reply 
don't let the sadness deny 
the way you look at me
stuck in sadness
sudden silence is turning black 
empty bottles on the counter
a ton of caps
you just told me to come over 
well where you at
i'll bide my time but don't tie my hands

don't tie my hands (prod. yung skah)

cover of the lo-fi version of a song that’s been on repeat since high school :)
hope y’all enjoy <3

artwork done by @se.b.drawin on instagram
mixed + mastered by @skullkiddxx

lyrics:


I think you'll notice when things become different
The good vibes in our lives won't feel so consistent
And, less becomes more 'cause the weight is too heavy
I swim in the water that's breaking your levee

The way that you left me's all right, it's all right
If I argue the point then we yell and we fight
And I won't be home for the rest of the night
You might hate my words but you know that I'm right
You know that I'm right

This is your life, there's no way to run from it
The doubt in your brain, or the pain in your stomach
I only have the one complaint at the moment just
Don't paint me black when I used to be golden

The way that you left me's all right, it's all right
If I argue the point than we yell and we fight
And I won't be home for the rest of the night
You might hate my words but you know that I'm right
You know that I'm right

“Clairvoyant - Lo-Fi” Cover 🧚🏼‍♀️🥀 (The Story So Far & Mik)

prod wisssery
featuring horosha

lyrics:
another night alone got me feeling so guilty
shouldnt be here right now shouldve killed me
bullet to my head let the led fucking fill me
i dont really know who i am do you feel me x2

on the sidewalk where i lay
fall light as a feather in the winter weather
fall light as a feather
im not okay
tryna get myself together but my hearts in a tether 

horosha:
I can’t feel my hands 
I try my best to explain but the words just won’t come out 

I’m frozen in place.
Like the first frost of winter, anxiety takes it’s hold 

Cuz no one told us how to cope with this 
and every passing year’s got me feeling more selfish 
Cuz I used to dream of leaving the world better than I found it, 
Now I just wanna save myself 

I can’t believe that this is all I could become,
strangled from the lack of love 
I lay here watching the snow come down 
Let it bury me 
I’ll let it bury me 

I can’t believe that this is all I could become,
strangled from the lack of love 
I lay here and watch the snow come down 
I’ll let it bury me till the spring comes

winter weather (feat. horosha) (wisssery)

boywontcry live (wunderworld fest)

So I said yeah
I know my mom wouldn't approve of this
Shoot for the stars and I dont ever miss
I keep working hard until I'm really rich
I can see it with my eyes closed there's not a purpose
If practice makes perfect then why is no one perfect
There's more to me than what you see its underneath the surface
I'm still waiting on some shit I never heard
I don't wanna talk right now you can have the final word
Pull me in then you pull me down
This the end of our story but its the start of my own
Mhmmmm yeah
Think I'm straying too far away there aint no finding me
I been high for days in LA just where the mountains be
It was hard to tell the real from the fake now its so easy
Does anybody want me cause I know they don't need me

Oh
Why did I do that this time
Why did I do that this time yeah
Ooo Yeah oh
Why did I do that this time
Why did I do
Why did I do that this time yeah

Hold up boy don't lose focus
Stop looking for a notice
They say you about to get it
I hate it feel like exploding
I been here before for minutes my fifteen is running up
But I'll do this until I'm dust to ashes put this microphone inside my
At least I'm buried with my best friend
These racks inside my pocket
Never had a plan if I could talk to me at ten he'd be so happy and so disappointed
It's all alright though

Oh
Why did I
Why did I
Why did I
Why did I do that this time
Why did I do that this time yeah

why cant i stop fucking up

spotify

why cant i stop fucking up [p. recyclebin]

everything's in front of me and im petrified

everything's in front of me and im petrified [p. king theta]

original song by skele

produced by @irby314 & @jolst

support the original song-
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt/iwishinevercalledback

lyrics -
https://genius.com/Lil-skele-i-wish-i-never-called-back-lyrics

my socials - 
twitter.com/whywewish
instagram.com/whywewish

i wish i never called back [cover] (p. irby & jolst)

crumbling [siemspark + 5head]

★cause theres nothing.. that you wouldn't do★

[artwork]
@junixo

[producer]
@prodgrayskies

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/dance-with-me-prod-grayskies-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]

verse:
ive been picking these flowers
to know that.. she loves me
but oh my god
i guess i got tied in my words

bridge:
i can feel it
when your talking to me
all of my worry is gone

chorus:
cause theres nothing
nothing
that you wouldnt do
(that you wouldnt do)

cause theres nothing
nothing
that you wouldnt do
(that you wouldnt do)

just to feel me too

verse:
but i know that you care
but im lost in my ways
a symbol of regret

cause i wish i was better
and treated you best
better than.. anyone could

bridge:
i can feel it
when you talk to me slow
cause all of my worry is gone

chorus:
cause theres nothing
nothing
that you wouldnt do
(that you wouldnt do)

cause theres nothing
nothing
that you wouldnt do
(that you wouldnt do)

just to feel me too

ending:
so wont you go and just
dance with me
silently
feels like im lost

wont you
dance with me
silently
feels like im lost

please just
dance with me
silently
feels like im lost

when you
dance with me
silently
feels like im lost in you

“Clairvoyant - Lo-Fi” Cover 🧚🏼‍♀️🥀 (The Story So Far & Mik)

SkullKidd {@skullkiddxx}

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