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[Intro]
O-o-o-O-oo-0-o
O-0-o-OO-o-o

[Verse]
I wish you wouldn't ignore me
I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early
You said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties
Apparently now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me
I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute maybe
We could still start dating
You said you'd think about it
I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone
Can you just pick up the phone
I'm so in love with you
I'm so in love with you
[Verse]
I wish you wouldn't ignore me
I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early
You said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties
Apparently now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me
I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute maybe
We could still start dating
You said you'd think about it
I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone
Can you just pick up the phone
I'm so in love with you
I'm so in love with you

Beta Orbiter (XO_WILLOW cover)

ssss

she doesn't think of me

can't go on this way
my mind is fucked up
i don't got a really good brain
can ya fix my head?
im so dead
im so gone
im so fucked up i'm not strong

baby look me in my eyes
tell me you're okay
i've been thinking 'bout you every night
thinking everyday
i've been thinking baby, maybe i
can't go on this way
i think that i will commit suicide
.12 gauge in my brain

take me out, baby take me out
take me out tonight
put the bullet right between my eyes
commit suicide
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking die
wanna die
wanna fucking cry
wanna fucking cry

baby look me in my eyes
tell me you're okay
i've been thinking 'bout you every night
thinking everyday
i've been thinking baby, maybe i
can't go on this way
i think that i will commit suicide
.12 gauge in my brain

take me out, baby take me out
take me out tonight
put the bullet right between my eyes
commit suicide
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking die
wanna cry
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking fry
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking die
wanna die
wanna fucking die
commit suicide
wanna die
wanna fucking die
take this sorry life
wanna die
wanna fucking die
never thinking twice
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna die
wanna dieee
wanna die

.12 GAUGE IN MY BRAIN

original song finally 

lyrics

could be bpd
thats why im so mean
could be adhd 
i cant do anything
why bother with doctors
im self diagnosing
they already told me up on my phone screen
oh im autistic
let me sperg about my special interest
im going nonverbal
im ticking im stimming
all of my symptoms
they just seem to fit in
schizophrenia
self diagnosis
you cant blame me when im in psychosis
if i did something bad it wasnt me
it was my alter i have did
meet my system 
its hard to keep up
please believe me 
even with the slip ups
and a buzzfeed test
told me that im bipolar
you cant call me retarded
yeah its really immoral
and im neurodivergent
you are neurotypical
we want you to feel like we are divisible
if theres not something wrong with you
then theres something wrong with you
the quizzes and videos
they are all calling you

self diagnosis

TechClub Comp Vol. 3
8/24/24

These boring ass nights 
Makes my chest feel tight
I'm wasting my prime
and I'm so far behind 
I remember those nights only filled w dread
Now i cut myself just to bleed on my bed 

It's hard to say
It all plays the same
Can't remember 
Turning out this way
I don't want your help
I'll just save myself 
Stuck in my chair
Burning time to play
A fluoride mind
Misguide by incels online 

So bored out my mind, it's like i don't have a life
Shitty ass games and a half baked mind
Can't even lie, I'm not having fun at all
Playing shitty songs and suicide in Fall 

I hate to say that I'm not doing alright 
These stupid emotions only waste my time
My head has a help wanted sign 
Fixing my life and i still wanna die
I'm not gonna try I'm just gonna cry 

My life's set back
My heart's turned black
Life never begun
I'm fukin done 
I started too late
I can't escape this fate 

Just take me back
My minds all wack
I'm filled w spite
Just get me right

SOFT LOCKED

loser (shooter cover)

This is what I'm thinking in the shower after getting rejected for the 10,000th time

I hadn't been on a date in so long
Burned her a CD with her favorite songs
But she turned me down so i snapped it in half
I'm so full of hate, I'm not stopping at that

So I'm killing stacy
'cuz she'd never date me
Won't even look at me
Now she has no choice

I'm killing her friends now
Kill every foid in this town
Till I reach my last round
I'll save that for me

Make you beg for mercy
Plead and cry on your knees
Make you say you love me
But you're still gonna die

Just wanted to love you
Now I have to kill you
Ohhh BANG BANG

It didn't have to end up this way
Could've gone out with me, even just for a day
I would've been the best husband and dad
There was never a chance since I'm not a chad

So I'm killing stacy
'cuz she'd never date me
Won't even look at me
Now she has no choice

I'm killing her friends now
Kill every foid in this town
'till I reach my last round
I'll save that for me

Make you beg for mercy
Plead and cry on your knees
Make you say you love me
But you're still gonna die

Just wanted to love you
Now I have to kill you
Ohhh BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG

Kill Stacy (Parody of Durr's She Hates Me)

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

one day, ill do someday
 
somedays i always feel the same 
im Not Ok ill never change
and all this rage  it drives me insane 
ill run away and never show my face
ill fade away while im stuck 

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

slowly deteriorating 
i fucked my life up
ill never see the day
where i make a change
slowly deteriorating 
i fucked up everything 
blow off my fucking face
im gonna make a change  


slowly deteriorating

i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
----------------------------------------------------
I'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
----------------------------------------------------
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really
did change

I woke up and saw you
and you were acting
so strange
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Now that i have gone away
you can have all the space
that you prayed for
that i paid for
is this i get blamed for?

now that it's all gone
is that you really want
i just want to carry on 
and I want you to move on
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
-----------------------------------------------------
i'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really did change
I woke up and saw you
you were acting so strange
-----------------------------------------------------
i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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Running Away

Shoutout to nil for helping learn the chords to this song 🐸🥂

OoooOoOooo

“If you don’t put in more effort, you may as well kill yourself"

Well I started pulling the trigger as soon as you opened your mouth
I'll end my life forever just to hope I'll ruin your day
I hope you choke and gag on my grey
Matter cause by now it’s not gonna matter to me
I shot myself in the head I was never gonna be happy
But at least I can die laughing with a smile on my face
Hoping fragments of my skull
Impale into your eyeballs
And that the last thing that you see
Is the end of my suffering
Now that it’s all over theres a lesson to be learned
To anybody who cared you got what you fucking deserved
And I can't start having second thoughts about what happens next
Because suicide is the only thing you can't regret

she doesn't think of me

Slugcat