Sad Summerzzz 24®

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

if i die 2 soon +sace6 (yungspoiler)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

orignal song "pale blue, pt. 2" written, recorded, and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
Can't get it off my mind
Why do I even try?
The lights are turning green
And I can't drive away just
Highways and vacant streets
3 in the morning and I can't drive away
I know we never talk much

Told me that since you left
Darling have you forgotten the sound of my name?
All this ash in the air starts to turn every blue into different shades

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

I've been away some time
I come and I go just like cold milwaukie rain
then sunny the next day
Walking vacant streets at 3 in the morning 
With friends I'd never leave
Ended up leaving me

Told me that since you left
Honey have you forgotten the moments we shared?
looking back on the past feels like most days it's like you were never there

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

pale blue (pt. 2)

pale blue, pt. 2

End of the World (Prod Splashgvng)
Key E Minor
Bpm 108

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End of the World

prod. @noahmadethiss

lyrics
--------
homebound
you are not alone now
i was on the telephone calling you
wishing i didn't fold now
soulbound
you & i are soulbound
i just wanna be the light beside you & lead the path to your home now
homebound
you are not alone now
i'll be right beside you till the end
and i promise i'll never fold now
sold out
they said that i sold out
all cause i've been writing bout my problems
and made it outta my hometown

trust me i'm trying my hardest
regardless i hope that you're fine
wish i saw the signs
like i could've saved you
if only i knew of the trouble you'd find
oh why was your fate in the hands of me
i think bout it all of the time
and with that in mind i wish i could fall backwards in time
wrote this callback while you were alive

so
reckless
cemetery deathwish
sittin' at your grave with a blunt & a bottle up to my chest
this chexmix doesn't taste the best
it's stale like the ale in my pail and i'm paler than my ex bitch
senseless
write it off my checklist
checkered board shorts & i'm sure that the shore is to the left
it's right there
nothings ever right there
mirrors give me light scares
i'm my own worst nightmare
i'm my own worst nightmare

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homebound (prod. noahmadethiss)

the show goes on (drmabeats+mcx)

just to see you alive 

prod: @jolst
master: @vito2300

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 

it doesn’t really get better 
that’s the lesson i learned 
now i wait for the day 
that i turn one with the earth 

i just love to sit and watch it burnout 
i’ve been sleeping with the bodies in the fallout 
i know i’ll die if i ever let my guard down 
there’s a creature waiting by 
to take my heart out 

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 
(i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
it’s everything i)

tell me is it wrong 
i just love it how it hurts 
darling is it wrong 
how i'm wishing for the worst 
baby in the end i’m just a body 
did you know 
that you’ve been sleeping with a zombie?

aside

aside (prod. jolst)

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

needle in a haystack (backyard + sace)

the boy who cried wolf (p. noah thomas)

been trying to not rhyme lately lmk what u think!

madness art by Raid_E

2017

guitar and drums done by noah walker @mr_innervue

Stranger.demo (2021 version)

my head has clouds in it

clouds & concrete

i rly thought i was dead for a minute there lol

Lotus killed it , check out his music <3
https://m.soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/sets

'We may never meet again , but we'll never forget eachother' 

Artwork by @Evanxflow
Mixed and mastered by Ronnie Scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Getting Worse ft. Lil Lotus (Prod. Zippy)

even tho some beautiful things have to come to an end, it's good to sometimes remember the happiness they once brought you :)

"our time together isn't ever quite enough" <3

produced by @mothfries
recorded/mixed by @heartbox_prod

lyrics:

Now It’s just you and me inside my jeep
Eyes locked and hands too
Although I’m scared to death
I get the feeling that I can’t move
Something in my chest
tells me it’s meant to be, we can’t lose
I lean in towards your seat 
and let my feelings understand you

9:53, turned down your street
one hand on the wheel, 
other placed in between 
your fingers fit so perfectly

in my heart: you be; in my cup: bubble tea
we’re singin out our hearts so far off key
if not to owl city
you know we’ll bumpin r kelly

I think to myself it’s the way you hold me
or maybe your smile like the sunset shining
that makes everything so at peace, so easy
either way i know I’m home right now here

pull the car right up outside your house next to your driveway
said it’s okay if you get back in this time a bit late
but I know your mother, she’s awake still
If this is all we get that’s fine, let’s make these next five minutes count

And It’s just you and me inside my jeep
Eyes locked and hands too
Although I’m scared death
I get the feeling that I can’t move
Something in my chest
tells me it’s meant to be, we can’t lose
I lean in towards your seat 
and let my feelings understand you

When i’m alone, home, in my room, feelin’ blue, i’m hating life in my shoes
and I’m missing your family. i’m thinking of you
oh how despite the differences I’ve never felt so loved, we’re so in tune

We’re so in tuneeeeee
we’re so in tuneeeeee
Did i mention I love you?
yeah I love you

this time its us three your sister, you and me the front room
Family all around  i never thought i’d be so valued
If this is what it’s like to feel loved, we’ll never be through  I have to leave and go back home it will be too soon

The World is a Happier Place When I'm With You! (prod. mothfries)

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

Like a bird she flys at dawn,
And All I do is sing these songs,
We could fly if I had my wings,
I don’t even wanna live that long,

I told her you’re the girl of my dreams
And I’m not ready to leave-
Cos people need me,
I guess that I’ll just wait on my wings

Wake up pop another pill,
I’m sad but that’s jus the deal now,
And I don’t wanna have to die- don’t kill-
And I can’t ever even tell what’s real now,

Fallen of Athens, all I wanted was your kiss
Pretend it ain’t happen, but I know that you still miss me x2


Like a bird she flys at dawn,
And All I do is sing these songs,
We could fly if I had my wings,
I don’t even wanna live that long,

I told her you’re the girl of my dreams
And I’m not ready to leave-
Cos people need me,
I guess that I’ll just wait on my wings

Sad Summerzzz 24®

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