I love you all but hate you all so much. fucking great job

Sad Summerzzz 24®

he said it, i'm too damaged

w/ @scapexgoat


i'm trying my best 
i swear i am 
tryna show you i need you 
i wanna hold your hand 
i've been hurt so fucking badly i forget who i am 
this was never part of the plan 
so can you promise you won't run from me 
cause i'm so scared i'm fucking shaking
it gets hard to breathe
n i'm not used to someone wanting me 
god, it feels so fucking comforting

so pour me a drink
and i'll sing you to sleep 
n he said it
i'm too damaged 
bleed through the bandages
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him
n just to go sleep
have to be off fucking sedatives
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him

[scapegoat] 
i was in the backseat 
looking at my phone
why you never text me
i feel so alone
i just wanted you to stay 
tell me when the fuck you're coming back
i know i'm so bad
hate to see you like that
tell me why the fuck it hurts so bad
i wish i could save you but i know i can't
how the fuck can i help you,
i can't help myself

bleed through the bandages (w/ scapegoat)

She Tell Me Im Dyin  (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

https://www.soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/shikixo

amv:
https://youtu.be/6PVfJgVxxXc

lyrics:
i guess i'll see you for a night
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, you’ll have to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i’m so used to tryna finish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

trying my best
you'll be better off alone
cause im a mess and i just stare at my phone
you can find another one
he’ll treat you better than i ever could  ohh
kissing in the shower, i'm missing you after
you should see my head love
i'm such a disaster
ohhh you'll stay for awhile
it cuts me deep everytime that you smile

i've
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, you’ll have to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i’m so used to tryna finish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

i'll regret it when you're gone
getting tired of writing the same songs
i can't help but worry that you'd leave
there's no way that anybody could want me
almost breaking apart
too many nights in the dark
i love the way they hurt me
it's kinda turning me on
one day in the park
i want to kiss in the car
i want to hear that you love me before breaking my heart

i guess i'll see you for a night
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, i'm learning on how to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i'm so used to trying to vanish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

almost breaking apart
too many nights in the dark
i love the way they hurt me
it's kinda turning me on
one day in the park
i want to kiss in the car
i want to hear that you love me before breaking my heart

i'll regret it, when you're gone

skele - it's my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
produced by kassgocrazy & thislandis
vocals performed by sewerperson

She Hates Me (feat. sewerperson)

its complicated ..

lyrics:

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated its complicated
All I know these drugs help me out with thinking i swear they save me oh I know they save me
I just need a push to wake up and take em just to motivate me now im motivated
Pouring out my soul is too hard when conscious so I do it faded and the product pays me 
She tell me that she loving on me regardless but I know she faking oh I know she fakes it
Tell me how u really feel off this ace I swear I could take it promise I can take it
With everything in my life im complacent if I was here now id be crying shaking
Im searching up effects for the shit im taking and its all just bad but damn still I take em
 
I cannot bank on myself cause I couldn’t tell u how long I’m breathing
Process the words that the masses tell u and prove them weaklings
I’m at the point where only god can save me cause I reject the treatment they propose to me cause I’m happy bleeding
The devil told me I was born to demon
Crawl forward on ur fractures
I can feel the wrath of god thru her bullet words
Time and time again I am stripped of rest and happiness
But we all got our pain so ill shut up cause mine is nothing special

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated its complicated
All I know these drugs help me out with thinking i swear they save me oh I know they save me
I just need a push to wake up and take em just to motivate me now im motivated
Pouring out my soul is too hard when conscious so I do it faded and the product pays me 
She tell me that she loving on me regardless but I know she faking oh I know she fakes it
Tell me how u really feel off this ace I swear I could take it promise I can take it
With everything in my life im complacent if I was here now id be crying shaking
Im searching up effects for the shit im taking and its all just bad but damn still I take em

complicated (sorrow bringer)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

orignal song "pale blue, pt. 2" written, recorded, and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
Can't get it off my mind
Why do I even try?
The lights are turning green
And I can't drive away just
Highways and vacant streets
3 in the morning and I can't drive away
I know we never talk much

Told me that since you left
Darling have you forgotten the sound of my name?
All this ash in the air starts to turn every blue into different shades

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

I've been away some time
I come and I go just like cold milwaukie rain
then sunny the next day
Walking vacant streets at 3 in the morning 
With friends I'd never leave
Ended up leaving me

Told me that since you left
Honey have you forgotten the moments we shared?
looking back on the past feels like most days it's like you were never there

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

pale blue (pt. 2)

pale blue, pt. 2

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

We had built upon the rubble here
Brick by brick
Just to watch it fall to enemies
It makes me sick
Half us part with our extremities and sanity admits
Now our hearts dont feel and our legs dont kick

Way before I was a boss
I was a heathen I made it my job
Trench rot all on my arm
I turned to charger I fell out my zone
Im Mixing up Fanta blueberry patron
I love my brothers too much to condone
Any of this under me in the stone
If its bout me I will go on my own
This Snow works its way down to nerves round our bones
Just As god works his fear down to food for our souls
I speak out of place from a place made of gold
We all work the same but our land  favours chosen

''yuga
I see their face in the phone like they worship the beast 
i gotta wake up cuz i was chosen 
all of this energy is setting me free 
but all of them look hopeless
i can turn around 180 degrees 
and they thought that I wouldn't notice
that behind my back they were talkin shit
we get face to face they seek solace
I'm on the front line against riot shields I'm gonna die just like a martyr
fuk these governments that bleed us dead they're gonna lead us like lams to the slaughter
I'm in black robes hidden ninja stars bohemian grove I'm posted up
I bet these old fuks wouldn't know it's us imma pull up and make em bite the dust

snow works its way up the limbs in my bones
and I'm left to fight here but I'mm not alone 
we sing out of a place of a place made of gold 
I see bodies in the river as you lead me home

the_ Rumbling ft sewerperson (prod:eric godlow)

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

shoutout kais for making this with me 
follow him: @https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

lonely eyes (w/ kais) (prod. caspr)

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

thank you for listening 
<3
@jolst


 i just wish you were here 
holding me 
cause my thoughts hurt less 
when you lay next to me 
but u don’t care at all
blame it on the alcohol
is there something there that i can’t see 
how the fuck am i supposed to breathe 
like oh
it’s okay if you wanna let go 
i know you probably need a little more 
i just miss when you were close
i know how this shit go
fall apart when it gets cold 
n i start to get feel real low 
know you’ll leave me when it snows 

when it snows 
iced out had to put on a coat 
neck cold but my hearts on froze 
fucked up i can’t do this alone 
baby why u gotta do me like that 
n still ask why my songs so sad 
everyday gotta put on a mask 
happy eyes with a knife in my back 

i say i love you 
“i love you too” 
most days i can’t get enough of u
when you leave i feel it 
it’s hard to deal with 
the crushing weight of this lonely feeling
rain it trickles 
cry a little 
nothings real 
it’s so artificial 
“you’re too brittle”
how i am supposed to feel when you speak in riddles 

i know i’m cold sometimes 
but i could never lie to you
i always say i’m fine 
i really don’t know what to do
i need you a little too much 
i’m scared that i’m never enough 
when you get distant it feels like i probably fucked up
get a little too scared i don’t mean much

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

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