softheart

Softheart Full

🐼🤍🎱🖤11:11🖤🎱🤍🐼

i hate highways (second version) prod. sorrow bringer

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

fffuck Y3aaah!!!

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

(prod sorrow bringer)
@sorrow_bringer

its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
im not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it 
i know that they staring
i dont care a bit
and i know that i love to my own detriment 
can we just talk about something else instead
and every time i think about u i just drop dead
and now im just standing there holding my head
i dont wanna miss out if im not there
i dont wanna leave the house when your haunt it
i dont wanna leave the house when u ----
its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it

drop dead

lights camera action
stars in my circle black magic
all of my friends make shit happen
if im with you im somewhere laughing
baby ur my favorite habit 
baby in my head its all havoc  
in a big puff of smoke im clouded 
when i disappear its black magic
though its shortlasting
all the memories stay forever
dont u know its all just black magic
they look at my love like its all badness
oh everything bout it
they look at me sour   
more for me ill have it  
but its not like im counting 
can you feel it all around us? 
let me know if you found it 
im a little voodoo doll
you can move me as you wish 
lights camera action
stars in my circle black magic
all of my friends make shit happen
if im with you im somewhere laughing
baby ur my favorite habit 
baby in my head its all havoc  
in a big puff of smoke im clouded 
when i disappear its black magic

black magic

mindless little conversations
i can see you hiding what youre thinking about 
im sick of you staring at me
like youre tryna figure something out 
i fucking hate grocery shopping
sometimes i cant tell if they wanna kill or fuck me
i left my keys at your apartment
and i think i forgot to pay for the parking
i feel so much its impossible
cant describe without sounding obnoxious 

but the world looks different from outside of the love
outside its rough
all scars and flaws
my heart shaped glasses they distract enough 
i saw the glow the light shines in dark 

they said someones gonna rip ur heart out if ur not careful
either if its someone else or it just gets dull
never cared that much about all of that pessimism
rather get the flood now then see how long the dam holds
lets go make ourselves whole
see how long we can hold
lets make something special 
keep it just for us two
i hate people so much
but i fuckin love u
because i just do

porcelain mask

prod. nevrfall and branwen  
@nevrfall 
@branwenmusic

i take this small one and bend 
its like this battle dont got a end
i can get so in my head but still fuck what they say 
i dont know you and you not my friend
i know that i said i wouldnt get fucked up today
but look at me here i am 
i always end up just going the opposite way
if they try to tell me that i cant 
ill do that shit just to spite you and laugh
fuck out my face bout that i give a damn
i dont know you i dont trust you thats facts 
that shit is just how it is 
i would change it if i could but i cant
i let the world try to make me abandon myself
just to be something for them 
just to be something for somebody else

i push away
everything because i need help
bleed out
on the tile i left a big puddle
i love something
and it gets me into big trouble 
do u need enough 
all these tests i hope i bleed enough 
i left that old part of me where 2016 was 
reasons 
i dont need to ever speak of
leave me 
in a big clump
ima big cluts 
bleeding 
from these thick cuts
i can get rid of 

when i stretch
and this conflict eats me to my bone
cant this toxic world leave me alone 
its ingrown 
if its wrong 
let me reap what i sow

dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died 
and it goes like 
dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died

dont go, closing your eyes

carousel

my god i feel like im heartless 
dont go im too broke to call it 
love me you know that im hopeless 
feel weak im losing my focus 
leaning over the wall it looks warm 
feel like ive got to die to get home 
feel the rough in the sea but i know 
its not unusual for me to be alone 

i know i could do it do it if i wanted 
feels like someone else is in my body 
its so easy i dont have to live this life 

im so gone you dont notice 
your brains fried im so bored of it 
im a disgrace 
yeah and baby i know it 
two faced let me turn what youre showing 

tell me im no good 
am i not good enough ? 
six three but theyre looking down 
thought this shit would make you proud
are you not proud enough? 
its not fair you dont tell me how

guess i have to be erased so you can take away 
your ownership of someone such a disgrace 
you wont have to do me another day 
youre so dumb who you tryna save 
every breath that i take a waste of o2 
and every tear that i shed i wasted on you 
all this dna 
swear its pretty dead now 
from the blood i circulate 
it sorta bled out

im not a creep 
im obsessed with being perfect 
on no sleep 
pretty sure that makes me worthless 
dont try thinking you can resurrect this 
no light hope i see you when i surface

i know i could do it do it if i wanted 
feels like someone else is in my body 
its so easy i dont have to live this life

Wanted

theres something in this world 
i feel like 
no one even wants me here 
calm along the surface 
deep inside ive got my layers of fear 

theres something in this world 
i feel like 
no one even wants me here 
calm along the surface 
deep inside ive got my layers of fear 
i promise everybodys doing better than me 
stuck here cutting losses so you can watch me bleed 
fuck that im burning money 
give a shit what it means 
my bad i pray to god you bring some comfort to me

you're safe here don't worry
i'll come back as quick as i can
rush, i'm in a hurry
can't see anything on my end
my end
haven't been the same since the last time
my peripheral is gone, there's twitching in my left eye
i think i go insane, hear the war cries
strike it down, i can't be seen neither dead and neither alive
why all of the sudden now you believe in me
"i had no potential" is what you'd think of me
now ur switching sides and wanna be on my team
i'll be the better man and just cut you off and leave

i swear youre only doing it out of spite
you got a question
ima bite
i cant believe im still alive
your bullshit is the reason ima die

you can keep on picking me up 
and putting me down slowly
youre too close 
for someone who dont know me
im too far motherfucker dont bro me
bro me bro me bro bro

something in this world 
i feel like 
no one even wants me here

here w/heylog

Made a puppet
That paper mache's now cracking
In the ocean
These waves keep pulling me deeper
It's a teacher
It's a book in how both sides open
Waves crashing
I swam down and just said fuck it 
Years are passing
Like a flashes when I get past 'em
In the fountain
I'm sinking but i'm not drowning 
In the mountains
35 miles from where the border is
In the ocean
saw blackness and i swam towards it
In the whirlpool, I move through the endless darkness
In the hourglass, I watch as it turns to nothing
In the pitch black, big waves pull me in by force now
In the vortеx, I fall back out to the surface

03 and the view from the bottom of the ocean

art by kirinhara 

oh 
breakdown 
when does it hurt less 
say i’m sorry
give my head a rest 
all frowns 
could the year just end 
i lay under trees
forgive me love for i’m hopeless 

i feel the thoughts arising as i sit in the dark
i don’t have the words to say what’s wrong with my heart 
people treat me like we don’t all bleed the same 
i guess we don’t bleed the same 
cause i spill blood all on the stage  

oh 
and i hate being sober 
guess i’m the pumpkin now
the way they carve me in october 
yeah oh 
aim your knife a bit lower 
cause it feels like i swallowed my heart how it’s over 
 
but the night’s still yearning 
sky falls apart 
waits for you 
it’s darling 
said i’m fine 
just hurting 
i’ve felt so much worse 
but i still made it to the morning 

it’s cold
don’t let me go 
just take me home 
i can’t be here alone :/ 

so cold 
like ice makes up all my bones 
i try so hard to let go 
but what’s life without a home

i've felt so much worse but i still made it to the morning [prodsecre x heyrick]

happy halloween! thought i'd hit y'all with a fun one for the holidays!
s/o to @siemspark + @rjpasin for brining this to life!

lyrics
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wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

and i don't think that you're alright
it's the little things about you i've been noticing on site
you've been howling all night
inconsistencies will always be attached to your life
if you're running don't hide
cause the probability of getting caught is so high
oh and at least i fucking tried
a corrupt intervention when your truth is just a lie
so throw this away
flush it right down the drain
you've perfected your aim
looks like nothings changed
so maybe

wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

music video

half baked (prod. siem spark x rj pasin)

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heartache

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

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