Gates and fences

Featuring @Sewerperson

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https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xelfiy/trend-chaser-feat-sewerperson-2

Lyrics:

Xelfiy:
quit doubting your self ur just making it worse ya
quit doubting your self baby i know that it hurts
ur just making it harder your thinking even more
just listen to ur gut baby its a war up here in my head
but lately i been trying so hard to get out of my bed 

fucked up! cuz i had ran out of my meds (my meds)
but its okay i just got them again (got them again)
i swear this is the reason i have no friends (no friends)
its prolly cuz im out getting the bag 
and they out chasing a trend (trend chaser)
we are not the same why you telling him were friends (fake friended)
im not the one to blame your the one playing pretend (play pretender) 
she left me for lame just cuz he had a benz (had a benz)
but thats okay we all know who gonna make it in the end 

fuck this and fuck that im so over it
she pulled the k over her shoulder an folded him
falling to the ground his tears hes holding in (holding in)
his heart hes still holding it (holding it)
praying he'll be forgiven for his sins (his sins)
hes worried now that he'll die here in the end (in the end)
all his favorite moment ina time lapse (time lapse)
now how lucky do you feel to have time left
your hearts not really broken its still deep in your chest (yaya)
its okay if ur depressed (yaya) we could all use some rest (yaya)

Sewerperson:
I could use that rest
I could use that rest
This the 5th time that i didn’t go
And I tried to call u and let u know
Now ive been tryna call all night
Hit me back as soon u see this lemme know u alright
Shit stained walls under the washroom lights
Puke green water on these dive bar nights
At least I know that it couldn’t hurt me twice

And I remember waiting in the snow too much
Feel like all December u had just gave up
But maybe u did care and really I like that thought
So that’s the one I've picked that ill remember until im gone

I cannot let go 
I cannot let go
Its a habit of mine
That i had formed on my own
the worst of the nights that I had lived back home
Couldn’t compare to the words u spoke
Last year
I thought I was being nice I swear
I guess not

But when the sun goes down
My heart repairs
But when the bottle runs out
It all comes back again
I guess all that we could be is just friends
I guess all that we could be is just friends

Trend Chaser (feat. Sewerperson) (Prod. Ross Gossage)

the-man-that-breaks-mirrors-still-looks-no-different

mirrors

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

lyrics:

Pcp and lsd we turning it up in here
Naked bitches swinging off the top the chandeliers
Project x its project sewer I walk the plank in here
I been with my scallywags im with my buccaneers
Fuck off with these shots cause I might down the whole handle
We was not invited but we show up and dismantle
White boy off those liquor shots they calling me jack Daniels
Faded I got a driver whipping for me out the phantom
I made 20 bands in a day and spent it like hot potatoe
Said I had got the sauce gatekeep the sauce I guard the mayo
 Half the bitches geeking off my music I spit yola 
His bitch gimme stick drift like a Playstation controller
Pour me up im turnt bitch im lit up like a candle
Quagen inside my cup I triple up Im going Rambo
Remember all these days I had spent up in the trap 
Cash inside my jeans talk to me said im never going back
Way too much inside me Imma stab off I  gotta yack
Boosting up my dose I am rapper so im smacked 
Even if I could I swear im never going back
I am inside the middle of my second relapse
 pour it outI will suck up all that venom
Winding down I was shaking I was shitting out blood
Puking when I wake up its the opposite of fun
Laughing in the face of death had left my soul numb
Fuck off with these shots cause I might down the whole handle
We was not invited but we show up and dismantle
White boy off those liquor shots they calling me jack Daniels
Faded I got a driver whipping for me out the phantom

blind/deaf/mute  (splashgvng)

prod. nevrfall and branwen  
@nevrfall 
@branwenmusic

i take this small one and bend 
its like this battle dont got a end
i can get so in my head but still fuck what they say 
i dont know you and you not my friend
i know that i said i wouldnt get fucked up today
but look at me here i am 
i always end up just going the opposite way
if they try to tell me that i cant 
ill do that shit just to spite you and laugh
fuck out my face bout that i give a damn
i dont know you i dont trust you thats facts 
that shit is just how it is 
i would change it if i could but i cant
i let the world try to make me abandon myself
just to be something for them 
just to be something for somebody else

i push away
everything because i need help
bleed out
on the tile i left a big puddle
i love something
and it gets me into big trouble 
do u need enough 
all these tests i hope i bleed enough 
i left that old part of me where 2016 was 
reasons 
i dont need to ever speak of
leave me 
in a big clump
ima big cluts 
bleeding 
from these thick cuts
i can get rid of 

when i stretch
and this conflict eats me to my bone
cant this toxic world leave me alone 
its ingrown 
if its wrong 
let me reap what i sow

dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died 
and it goes like 
dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died

dont go, closing your eyes

been trying to not rhyme lately lmk what u think!

madness art by Raid_E

2017

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