prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

i was picking something off the vine 
working with what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret it
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling 
i been tryna chase this feeling
all this time and space that its stealing
my life its like if i let you inside 
know it meant the most that you were in it
i was picking something off the vine 
working what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret 
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling

Grapevine (prod. sorrow bringer)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

i love you more and more 2 (prod. vuksai)

pork tenderloin prod. luvmarko

MONEY SHOWED ME

these days they dont make sense
but its okay 
know its gon be worth it in the end
might as well wear my heart out since she ripped it out my chest 
but now i know that bitch just bad news petty as it gets
but its okay
hope she knows i still wish her the best
theres power in the peace i dont feel angry or upset
no its okay
its hard not to hate you
when i know you hate me
it's so hard to care
when youre so fake

lost with the wind like  
everybody get lost set the mood right hey
baby watch me get lost in the midnight rain
need someone who likes to dance in the moonlight rays
in the moonlight hey
(x2)

i bet your boyfriend bite me in his raps
i aint impressed
im packing bowls with your bitch i think we might just have a sesh
want the gold on my neck 
want this weight up off my back
ay
imma make a check and turn the pain right into cash 
repping that 508 but
living like im upstate
imma get high today
i felt the high one day
and i been high to date
if the show aint tomorrow
you can bet im up late
double cross me one time
bitch thats all it take

lost with the wind like  
everybody get lost set the mood right hey
baby watch me get lost in the midnight rain
need someone who likes to dance in the moonlight rays
in the moonlight hey
(x4)

Lost in the Wind

Put My Things Down

There's A Monster Inside Of Me

Support Venus: https://www.youtube.com/c/venusboy

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Lyrics:
missing all the late nights snuggled tight
Had one glimpse upon that face, I know the feelings right
I cannot forget the taste of your tongue
I'm so drunken in love
I think I might know the meaning now
~ (ohhhh)
can't you just feel it now
it's been a year since you apeared a head above the crowd
you're something special
you are simply picture perfect
and I'm sure your embrace will be worth it
to fight through all the sleepless nights
and I remember last december you entered my life
you brought me hope again
and filled me from within
brought love to my life, shine bright girl
~
and I think every single night
I apprciate ya
sorry if i'm distant
you and music are my mediators
so I thought I'd put together a few songs so I can just show
how much I really love you, come together and we just soak
~
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)

5 AM [prod. venus]

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Grapevine (prod. sorrow bringer)

Softheart