Its Gone (Prod. Trench Boy)

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

this is kindaaa old, so ignore the mix LMAO but I decided I'd add some stuff and go ahead and release it <3

prod. by afterlife

distort (afterlife)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

Unearthing

lyrics:
girl ill be right here drowning in my pain
hope you fucking feel it when you hear my name
yeah but whyd you have to go make me feel insane
all this fucking mental anguish all thats in my brain

i dont give a fuck you can blame me
ima push my luck with this codeine
hope im never waking up so i stay sleep
if you wanna keep me here gotta make me

frosted windows, give way to the light
of mornings so cold think ill curl up and die
ill go back to sleep cause i dont wanna fight
another day living this cycle of life

im never alright, im not coming home
ill stay out all night, puke blood on the floor
ill damage myself, and ill rot to the core
im breaking inside dont want to anymore

Make Me

make me

[Intro]
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can see the process
It's take place in her face
You don't have to think that hard
This is a safe place, baby (Safe)
At least as safe as I can make it
And I fear the same as you
You know that (You know that)

[Chorus]
Melissa, Melissa (Melissa)
Here we have everything we ever wanted (Wanted)
Since we started
But when it's in our reach, like this is not important
It's just not as golden (Golden)
Maybe we just wanted this because it gave us both a little something
Dodge the fear of death and cling to heart strings (Heart strings)
Or rather cling to someone
Fiend me hope when I had none

[Verse 1]
I can smell you on my clothes (Yeah)
I feel your love from my phone
I'll let you enter my home as long as nobody knows
Some of the blessings in life (Yeah)
You're never allowed to show (No)
Melissa, you're somebody else's, but I just might make you my own (My own)

[Bridge]
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
You make someone else as your own
Yeah, yeah
You'll never feel more alone

[Verse 2]
Don't you think we've been through enough?
We're still hoping that we'd cuff it up (Cuff)
The waiting list still a ways away
And every day tends to fuck it up (Fuck it up)
It's a constant game
Hoping the other one wants it still and would show some love
But life is busy, no time to miss me
There's newer pussy, you fall to dust (Fall to dust)
Think about it, I was never much
Couple teens feeling summer love
But it didn't stop
It was autumn love
It was winter love
It was more than love
It was all of us (All of us, ayy, ayy)
If I blow, and put on a show
I still hope that you showin' up, damn (Showin' up)

[Chorus]
Melissa, Melissa (Melissa)
Here we have everything we ever wanted (Wanted, yeah)
Since we started
But when it's in our reach, like this is not important
It's just not as golden

9TAILS - melissa (prod. ocean beats)

Closure

All the time

main sample taken from this youtube video: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXU_Q_i3-So&t=819s

Crying Wolf

I drove all the way here for this? (prod. homesick)

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just happy to be here

I drove all the way here for this? (prod. homesick)

Softheart