new place, same scenery (prod. sorrow bringer)

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

Lyrics:

[Yokai Dreams]

something's been eating me up as of lately
i'm never enough and i feel like they hate me
can't blame anyone but myself
i don't have no one else
i don't take no ones help
i won't take yours
after it all i am still just the same me

weak
maybe i'm an asshole
i'm scared but i won't let that show
no king
sick of this castle
i'd leave but it's too much hassle

got a tortured mind and a broken heart
i barely recognize me
u wouldn't understand a thing
mind over matter but both mine are weak

[hero]

if it's really what you wanted then there's nothing to forgive (AAAA)
trapped in cells of condemnation my mind is gonna give
depression comes in cycles
2nd guessing come in sweeps
what my friends are spouting
you'd have to torture outta me

everything
i think
i say
and all i said
i meant
i'm not jus gonna skim right past it
go get fuckin bent
"you wouldn't understand it"
bitch it's happening to me
"mind over matter"
but both of mine are weak

mind over matter w/ yokai dreams (prod. vowl x brothel)

prod. caves x hero

Lyrics:

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

[NAVYXOWER]

i cried
while leaving
and now 
im leaking 
my blood out the needle that you left
im so tired of lying to myself and my friends
floating on a cloud
it felt like i was dying when you walked out the house
i made it my mission to keep you 
but i lost it
my anxiety is running like a faucet

hold
my hand
as we walk 
through the open end
of the world
i hope to see you again
when its over ill dream of you my friend
cutting it close
really dont know what to think about it
my body and heart
were going out i feel it happening
what is it worth
continuing life
without you here next to me
ill meet you there 
in the end of it all i cant believe this is happening

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

and maybe i never will find it
and maybe i never should want to
maybe i miss all the writing
but maybe i'm just missing you

~

AND I CANNOT LOSE WHAT WE'VE GOT
I'M CLINGING TO THREADS WEANING OFF
MY BODY AND MIND START TO ROT
IN SEARCH OF ALL THE REASON THERE WAS

irreplaceable (ft. navyxower)

[Intro]
Huh (Huh)

[Chorus]
Oh, oh, sundays blues
Vintage gas (Ay, ay), pool shoes
Rainy nights (Rainy)
In the stu
Give me beats, give me drugs, let’s make a tune (Let's make a tune)

[Verse]
Off a mushroom, figure myself out
This shit send me to the moon to lay the verse down
The weed I smoke like updates, that shit make shut down
7 grams to a blunt, smoking on a touchdown
I won't date you just because we go to your house
Pants come down like prices at a Walmart blow out
I don't think I like you, why do you think I bite you
I release so frequently, it shock you like a Raichu
I go to fancy places order what I want to
Eat it by myself because there’s no one I want to talk to
Spend so much time alone and you can grow enough to like you
But step into the world and there will no one you’ll relate to
No one you’ll relate to (Relate to)
Yeah, no one you’ll relate to
I’m guessing that’s a con when you’re the only one that made of you
When you act like yourself, I guess it’s real easy to hate you

[Chorus]
Oh, oh, sundays blues
Vintage gas (Ay, ay), pool shoes
Rainy nights (Rainy)
In the stu
Give me beats, give me drugs, let’s make a tune (Let's make a tune)
Oh, oh, sundays blues
Vintage gas (Ay, ay), pool shoes
Rainy nights (Rainy)
In the stu
Give me beats, give me drugs, let’s make a tune (Let's make a tune)
Oh, oh, sundays blues
Vintage gas, pool shoes
Rainy nights
In the stu
Give me beats, give me drugs, let’s make a tune (Let's make a tune)

[Outro]
Ohh, ohh
Ohh, ohh
Ohh, ohh
Ohh, ohh

9TAILS - for after a long day (prod. stillvanishing)

9tails - toronto lodge freestyle

"When this heavy heart lays down" - Idan Saban 

Every road you burned behind
Just cleared the way for mine 

I’ll wear the sun like a crown
When this heavy heart lays down

And the dust settles on your name
I’ll be miles past the pain

The night tried to keep me here
But I’m done drowning in those years

Every road you burned behind
Just cleared the way for mine    

Every road you burned behind
Just cleared the way for mine 

I’ll wear the sun like a crown
When this heavy heart lays down

When this heavy heart lays down
When this heavy heart lays down
When this heavy heart lays down
When this heavy heart lays down
When this heavy heart lays down

ALL LYRICS AND MUSIC BY IDAN SABAN 2025

When this heavy heart lays down ❤️

In A Box Freestyle

I Will Never Feel Like I Did In 2016

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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just happy to be here