mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
produced by kassgocrazy & thislandis
vocals performed by sewerperson

She Hates Me (feat. sewerperson)

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

its ur mess
figure it out

produced by neverforever 

completely non profit

lyrics

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
I just live inside my head
I won't let me out

walk around like an apartment complex
scenes of loss n abandoned objects
mental blocks feel like shallow tar pits
I got the keys but forgot where the car is
here's a song for the truly sharded
fucked around n got broken hearted
itchy arms when asked where the scar is
who u r is not at all important

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
I ain't really got much else
so I'ma give it out

even when I'm down count on me I got it
lemme write this down then tomorrow drop it
name another coming up that can match
I'll top it
I get on the beat n watch the heads start boppin 
I don't wanna sing on the same old topic
while I'm on the flow lemme shoutout tropic 
running low on time so it's hard to lock in
I go to work in the morning exhausted

still the cold air of the mountain somehow always catches up to me
I could feel the past go up in flames as smoke rolls over me
I will never get that back, yet still, has such a hold on me
there's nothing, I'm just fucked n u can't save me from my -

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
why u listen to me whine
u should kick me out



mountain dweller (neverforever)

....
I sit still in the tall grass
I breathe in as much as I can hold inside my chest
I trust in the sun to beam and lungs to catch my breath
Sometimes it gets hard for me but I still try my best
I'm stuck in the yard right by the broken water fountain
I just saw somebody in the window of that house
I gathered my courage and walked in to check it out
I went to the master bedroom and I looked around
I saw the closet open slightly towards where I was standing
I think I hear someone inside it and it's very scary
I gather all these skeletons up like a cemetery
I swear I didn't wanna lie but it was necessary
I wake up from a bad dream and I go to start the day
I forget about what exactly, just that there was pain
I act like nothing even happened and I'm all okay
I see a new horrible image and I look away
I'm inside the woods way out 
I'm swinging my head, jack-o'-lantern around
October in this ******** town 
Got big leaves lit, I let the rest fall down
And the pines, only thing that survives
Once this winter arrives
And this cold season start up
... ur only sorta right
You make me mortified
And I don't wanna fight
And I'm still someone's daughter
.
.
Like some bands i count the spirits in this monster house
I ain't slowin down im on the highway to hell 
Fuck my opposition smile like I wish you well
I got information that I won't ever tell
I take up to 2 but any more would put me out
I won't face it now, in the morning put me down
Stuck all by myself-

Don't know how it happened, it's a force in this house
Don't know how I keep a forest in this mason jar
I'm so lucky that I told her meet me in the car
Could've turned out so bad, thank god
4 AM in Boston walking with this magic wand
It's cool, you'd think that i was totally cool
With thinking bout bad things 
I'm thinkin bout bad things 
Unwillingly

monster house - Copy

been trying to not rhyme lately lmk what u think!

madness art by Raid_E

2017

Silently all night
Write notes app paragraphs
To get the words right I gotta make a draft
And I get afraid of accidentally pressing send
I would rather do it here and copy paste it in
I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

Tie me like an anchor to the floor
Or you can drag me all around like a bad dog owner
I don't wanna live like this no more
I'm just standing too high at the store
Yeah
I stay still and as I walk the ground moves under mе
This package hit my lungs like UPS trucks as I cross the street
And baby I'm your doll
I swеar that I'm just your dummy
Swear the way you love me, hurts so much it's funny
Tapped and always dumb and I'm so beautifully ugly
Throw me on my back, make me feel my body numbing
495 ways to tell me that I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
How could I do something else with myself
If it's all decided and its not in my hands?
I don't know, I just wish I'd calm down
And be someone else that doesn't like just always fucking hiding
Got nowhere to go
I'm just camping out by myself
Some place I can find that
Lets me feel like I'm there 

Im a wasteaway
Watch me waste away next to you
Just a waist away

I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

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[Intro]
I been—

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (I just wanna feel alive)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine
I won't find another human like you in my life, yeah (In my life)

[Verse 1]
Catching photos, where'd the time go? (Where'd it go?)
Facebook memories from the last snow (Last snow)
Strive for times where I won't answer to employers (No employers)
Work and music keep me busy, I don't know her (I don't know her)
Baby, get to know me, I wish we'd get closer (Get closer)
Gain connection then start breaking down the borders (Breaking down the borders)
Way back, way, way back (Way back)
I forgot the loving and I never got it back (Never got it back)
Playlist, crybaby face tat
Knew that you were something special
When you told me that it slap (R.I.P.)
I keep tasting shit when I breathe (Tasting shit)
Pull it nice with the bong, need it to be clean
Gold ring on my nose, gold ring on my finger (Ring on my finger)
Ballin' up in the Northface, loud hit the coat and it linger (Linger)
She said she wouldn't call me a singer
But all my shit fucking slaps
Baby, call me whatever
Fuck the neutron, I gotta blast

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (Ooh)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side (Ayy, woah)
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine (Yeah, yeah, ayy)
I won’t find another human like you in my life, yeah

[Verse 2]
What would you call me (What would you call me?)
Smoking on palm tree (Palm tree)
Hair look like shiitake (Mushroom)
Bars icy like hockey

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - connect (prod. yusei)

9tails - your head ft tddy bear

Got to see what this prevails
Sure I'm gonna talk about it even if I fail
Pour my fucking heart in this shit
I don't follow trails
Never gonna walk without this crutch until I'm pale
Deep inside the forest, take a tour
I'll see you there
Empty bottle snoring, rain be pouring
You'll forget that
Only course of action is to step beyond the tree lines
These pines hold
The might to unmold

You're just a fraction of perception
Everything you know deception
Ego craving that intention
Overthinking that inflection
Loving every each obsession
But it's all in your mind
Nothing really fucking matters
I'm not lagging behind
Spending every waking second
Ask me how could I pass judgement on another
If I stare up in the mirror
Scared. Don't suffer
Crazy but it's all in your head
Project your fucking consciousness to where you will head

Stay afloat
Thoughts flow down stream quick
Choosing what you focus on
Let decay the other songs
Too much get you sea sick
Throwing up Hennessy; quick
Tomorrow got work at three; quit
Learning nothing with my time
I'm tired of trying to fit in line
Scared of not succeeding
Must learn to walk all on my own
Fear sets I faulter
Mask my tone
We all living on this planet till we're cold like stone
Better learn to love yourself
Conscious melts off the cone
Everything is fake, there's no meaning to it
You're your own god, best believe it
Cause we look back to the past

Try to grasp, running fast
You are leaving from the place you once knew
Now the sky isn't blue
And you cry every night wishing that you had knew
Things forever changing
Always temporary
Look past all the pain
It's only memory

The Forest (bonus track)

The Ghost of My Past" is a 10-track album that takes you on a raw and vulnerable journey into the soul of an artist haunted by his history. In the style of Rod Wave, this LP is a blend of soulful melodies and heavy trap beats, providing the backdrop for a story of survival and success.

The album opens with the title track, setting a tone of emotional turmoil, and explores themes of broken trust on "Empty Promises" and isolation on "City of Strangers." The narrative shifts from pain to hope in the second half, with the pivotal track "New Wave" marking a conscious decision to heal. The album culminates with a final sense of peace on "Where I Belong," showing that while the past never truly leaves you, it can be a source of strength.

City of Strangers

https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic
https://soundcloud.com/tothegood
<3 

lyrics:
(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

(guardin)
that's just how it goes
yeah that's how i roll
seven gram blunt & she's taking off my clothes
kissin on my tattoos leave me feelin froze
got my pistol in her grip cock it back & watch it blow 
i can't fall asleep so i've been staring at my phone
read a couple tweets until i leave that shit alone
noah sent the open all the way from buffalo
i'm just waiting for the green light hit the gas & go

(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

if you’re a bills a fan then lemme hear ya shout,
cuz i’ve got plenty other problems that i’d rather scream about,
like how ive been good for a minute now i’m not,
i talk about my feelings way too much instead of smoking pot,
so i’m screaming that i love you but
i hate that i’m so brutally honest
i know this world could be much better if i stop being on it,
i’m just never in the places i hoped,
who say do i need to be?
i’m doing everything that i can what else you want with me

(guardin)
lost in my head all the time
i'm not alright
i guess it's fine

Spotify <3

wicked w/ guardin (prod. tothegood)

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just happy to be here

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