Silently all night
Write notes app paragraphs
To get the words right I gotta make a draft
And I get afraid of accidentally pressing send
I would rather do it here and copy paste it in
I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

Tie me like an anchor to the floor
Or you can drag me all around like a bad dog owner
I don't wanna live like this no more
I'm just standing too high at the store
Yeah
I stay still and as I walk the ground moves under mе
This package hit my lungs like UPS trucks as I cross the street
And baby I'm your doll
I swеar that I'm just your dummy
Swear the way you love me, hurts so much it's funny
Tapped and always dumb and I'm so beautifully ugly
Throw me on my back, make me feel my body numbing
495 ways to tell me that I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
How could I do something else with myself
If it's all decided and its not in my hands?
I don't know, I just wish I'd calm down
And be someone else that doesn't like just always fucking hiding
Got nowhere to go
I'm just camping out by myself
Some place I can find that
Lets me feel like I'm there 

Im a wasteaway
Watch me waste away next to you
Just a waist away

I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

we made a heart farm o* + notes app drafts  .o*

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just happy to be here

I live in pain for other people happiness

Just leaving something behind for when its my time.
Emotrap-indie - lofi -
SingerSongwriter 


Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

we made a heart farm o* + notes app drafts .o*

Softheart