everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

love song 4 the ghost i see in my room sometimes 

original beat by killedmyself (chopped and pitched)
additional violin by my good friend Mohini 

its not somethin else
its exactly whats the most obvious
its so easy to tell
and im no good at hiding it
its rly not that hard to figure out
the obsessions not mutual 
i know u like me but not as much
i wanna be what you think about
i cant help but fall in one sided love 

and im stuck in it  
i get so dumb in it 
there might be something
to make me feel more whole 
somehow 
your touch that feels like home 
but then u cast me off and i end up more alone
strung up
im just a puppet
u can make me dance 
im happy to perform 
in ur bed
im nestled up and warm
hoping 
the night can last more long 

ive been numbed up i dont feel it 
i dont feel the touch im too hollow
can u help me get more human 
maybe some emotions to borrow 
i think im the worlds best escapist 
back then i just didnt wanna exist
so i buried my head in the sand
look at all the time i wasted

. . . . .

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

thanks for listening. i didn't just abandon this page, just have other stuff i enjoy a little more right now. but i appreciate everyone on here <3 love u mfs

nothing i can do

Trailblazer

100k weekly

this life aint what it seems?

Faced should be finished and out by the end of the month!
prod. rodger @lilrodger
9tails @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

call me loveless, i don't wanna fuck this
up for the two of us, don't you know it'd ruin us,
nothing to discuss, who's really to trust,
staring at me with that feeling of disgust,

tried to warn you, bitch i get toxic,
it starts out perfect, maybe i'm not fit,
to have a girlfriend, someone to hold at night,
cus when the world ends, you know i won't put up a fight.

could we sail away at the end of the day,
might be the only way you'll get me to stay,
out in the pouring rain, home to all this pain,
throw your troubles away, bitch, just get faced.
x2

catch me laughing, between these verses,
levity never really hurt this,
thing i called a heart, like did you even notice,
me screaming at the top of my lungs, shoutouts to lotus,

call me loveless
faded like the sunset
weak chest
red eyes
but no emotions make me upset
im not coming down
cause this is not an ego death
ill placebo you
and show you just how real it gets
you could feel the stress
thoughts that strip your happiness
strike your mind down to the core
and force a hard reset
ive entered the deep end
you not in the stream yet
im not in the industry
but workin like a branch head

could we sail away at the end of the day?
might be the only way you'll get me to stay,
out in the pouring rain, home to all this pain,
throw your troubles away, bitch, just get faced.

never felt so alone and I don't pray anymore,
I havent felt more at home since we layed on the floor,
you kept your own pace, just to save face,
honey, did you win the race, did you reach that place,

and are you living well, I know this life, it gave you hell,
but when you're never heard, you feel you always gotta yell.
but keep your distance, i don't coexist bitch,
call me loveless, i won't really miss this.

Loveless (feat. 9tails) [prod. rodger]

Spitfire (prod. jody)

Timeout

My Childhood Dog

Dancing With The Devil

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just happy to be here

nothing i can do

Softheart