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softheart

Softheart

skate mix

sadness

2024zzzzzz

awsomeness2024

A Collection of Softheart Songs
Guest Starring: Truett, Participation Trophy, and SalemJournl [diary]

softheart [and friends] <3

im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Jade Ghost

Walking With Fire

I Have So Much Love Inside Of Me To Give

Sunray, the thunderstorm

i hate highways (second version) prod. sorrow bringer

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

fffuck Y3aaah!!!

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

RAGE ADDICTION (MOR FLID)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

fuck me 
fuck that 
i’m tortured now 
baby don’t hate me i’ll fall back down 
i’m saying don’t save me go find yourself 
one day i’ll lose it and drop myself 

rain drops falling too fast now i’m drowning in the snow 
flashback to the nightmare now i’m down bad and i’m cold 
breakdown in the bathroom, it’s shitty i know 
right back to zoloft and prozac oh no 

baby don’t save me i’m going to hell 
there’s no fucking need to worry i don’t need your help 
like what the fuck is the point if i’m losing it all 
life’s going on, pray i make it to fall

trapped in my head again how will i make it out
i can’t feel my heart, so please just show me how
i don’t believe in god but fuck i’ll pray right now 
but through war and death, i’ll always lose myself 

fuck my life, maybe i know too much. 
laid to rest, god i’m finding new cuts. 
adderall xr just to get my mood up. 
why the fuck do i have the worlds worst luck

baby don’t save me i’m going to hell 
there’s no fucking need to worry i don’t need your help 
like what the fuck is the point if i’m losing it all 
life’s going on, pray i make it to fall

fucking stab me in the back and then you’ll tell me that you love me baby
so when you pull me out the wreck, then you don’t even have to blame yourself

prozac

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void yuuuuhhhh


stabbed m e in the back again
everything u said was problematic
never rly cared enough 2 ask me how my day been
bad as shit
every single f unctions automatic 
everytime im smilin just know that i been fakin it

fake shit thats all u ever gave me
u would fuck wit all of my emotions on the daily
baby u were toxic thats all u ever were 2 me
thought that i was tripping but you really did me dirty
i see all the red flags
wish i saw em back then
u can keep my hoodies ion even want em back bitch  
only cared about the bag
all that u was chasin
wish it woulda worked out but that shit was makeshift
i been restless
cant sleep
all this fuckin weight on my chest i cant breathe
and the fuckin way that you left me with ease
made me really feel like im dying in peace
nah

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void

restless II (metlast)

Yard

Slugs

@lileffort

whatever goes wrong 
I want you to know 
That it’s not your fault, 
that it’s not your fault 
blame it all on me
Take it all from me 
I don’t deserve you 
I don’t deserve your love 

2x
Your my home, your my safety
Think of all the times that you saved me 
Think of all the love that you gave me 
Your my safety baby your my safety 

If I had one wish before I turn to dust 
I’d ask you to go dance with for one last time, for one last time 
cuz every second feels like heaven when I hold on to you 
Trust me I’m not acting, you can’t imagine 
How you make my heart move

safety「lileffort」

Craterellus Tubaeformis

It's Real

IM BORED OUT NOW + VIDEO ON YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-X-sbDSEZjQ

MUSIC VIDEO

im bored freestyle (prod. Dae Wylder)

WATCHU SAYIN' FEAT. BELIS (PROD. VEIXX)

digital crush (feat. Ouse x Ryan Librada) Prod. SMLE

thanks for listening. i didn't just abandon this page, just have other stuff i enjoy a little more right now. but i appreciate everyone on here <3 love u mfs

nothing i can do

BURNT DIARY (FEAT. LIL PEEP & KAIYKO) [PROD. OMENXIII]

all i see is trouble
i dont see the love 
yeah i dont need to know
yeah i dont need the truth
i just stay alone between these four corners
i just stay alone making beats in my room
and i cant get back those days spent 
dazed and chasing around with you
and i cant no i wont pretend
every single day i would waist it again
i would waist it again

sometimes i wanna die
but i dont like to think about that
cause of fear for it
and sometimes i cant recognize 
the face thats looking back
in the mirror x3

wanna end the pain so bad 
but im scared and i dont wanna let all these people down
every time i come around smell the weed in the air 
yeah my lungs are full of loud
yeah
i just wanna know
baby i just wanna know
no wait i dont wanna know a thing

repeat

all i see is trouble

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

jealous mess

nothing much

Music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctOyErSZ4Wk

guitar by noah walker and chris p
bass by coleman
violin by mohini 
lyrics: 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

I just look up in the mirror thinking god damn how the hell did I get here 
Says she sincere but I look and can't see her
Wish I woulda back then now I see it so clear 
Ooo 
Walking with a hole in my heart
I know that im over my head
why I'm always upset  
If i told you know youd say you wanna help
But I look around and the only one i see is myself  
Oh well
I really don't understand anymore 
No I don't even really know who I am anymore 
Letting go and falling back 
If youre ever holding out your hand 
I Bet you could understand its just
So much easier to
Hate us just
Moving through the cold like it
Ain't nothing 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

spooky! (video in desc.)

Can you hear my voice through the storm?
Tell me what it is we're fighting for...

ANA
I love you </3

Stream / Save on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5jvnEE9aPgPXh9UgjvYMLw

Must always credit in title (prod. Zaini)
Lease Beats: https://zainibeats.beatstars.com/

Stream on Spotify

can you hear my voice

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-the-next-morning-lyrics

free download

the next morning

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-the-first-time-i-met-a-ghost-lyrics

guitar done by @noahwalker

the first time i met a ghost

sample: gert taberner - fallen 
https://soundcloud.com/gerttabernermusic

Instagram

you don't love me anymore

Sonic Generations Disc 3 (Modern Era)

Crisis City Act 2

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-growth-spurts-lyrics

Growth Spurts

lyrics:
https://genius.com/Softheart-still-dont-know-what-im-running-from-lyrics

this song is from around 2017 and it's one of the first songs i made under softheart, i deleted it a long ass time ago and thought it was gone forever but someone happened to upload it to youtube and a fan sent me the link asking about the song so i decided to redo it.

still don't know what i'm running from

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-insecure-lyrics

guitar by noah walker!

Insecure

Melon ▶ https://bit.ly/387IVwp
Genie ▶ https://bit.ly/34SOHQp
apple music: https://music.apple.com/kr/album/maybe-itll-be-the-last-time-single/1490222395
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3qunMNEfMJ67WCHrzjbFCW
amazon music: 
Bugs ▶ https://bit.ly/2Lo1Clw
FLO ▶ http://flomuz.io/s/a.Bwusf
VIBE ▶ https://bit.ly/2DOFjBz

앨범 소개(Introduction to Album)

삼키기엔 너무 아쉬운 말들이 모여
서성거리다 
멈춰선 순간들.
Too many words to swallow.
hang about
stopped moments

누구나 한번쯤은 겪어 볼 법한,
어쩌면 또 마지막이 될 지도 모르는 
그 찰나의 순간에 담긴 감정을 그려낸 노래 입니다.
It's a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
Maybe it's the last time.
It's a song that depicts the emotion in that moment.

-Credits-
Dept(뎁트) - 어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐 (Feat. XulianX(율리안) )
Executive Producer : 뎁트 
Presented by Dept Music 
작곡: 뎁트(Dept), XulianX
편곡: 뎁트(Dept), 황예, XulianX 
작사: XulianX 
vocal by  XulianX 
chorus by   XulianX 
Midi by 뎁트(Dept)
synth by 뎁트(Dept)
Drum by 뎁트(Dept)
Piano by 뎁트(Dept)
Bass by 뎁트( Dept)
Guitar by 황예
Mixed by 강다나, XulianX 
Album cover by @ heeeesoo_ 
Mastered by 배재한@등대사운드 
 
Thanks to
항상 응원해주시는 부모님과 동생 호영이, 지안, 흑기사.
그리고 저를 응원해주시는 많은 분들께 감사드립니다

Lyrics

A) 
특별한 사이는 아니지만  
It's not a special relationship
매번 네 앞에선 불안하고 초조해져
but I get anxious and nervous in front of you every time.
애꿏은 날씨 탓인가 해 Uhm
Maybe it's because of the bad weather.
산으로 가는 얘기들과 
we can't concentrate on the our conversation properly.
물거품이 된 바람까지도
And Even my hopes has gone up in smoke
온통 네 곁을 멤돌아 
My mind is All around you
이런 나의 마음을 아는지
Do you know my heart?

B)
늦은 오후 해질녘 꿈을 삼킬 때
When you swallow your dreams of sundown in the late afternoon,
널 보고싶은 마음에
I wanted to see you.
애처로운 얼굴로 달려가는 길은 여전히 왜 멀어보여 아득하게 
Why does it still look so far to run with a my pathetic face?

Hook)

서투른 내 마음은 널 마주보지 못하고
My poor heart can't see you look face to face to face.
계속 아웅다웅대
And arguing with each other over trifles.
Why don’t you know
don’t you know 
don’t you know about me 

이렇게도 가득한데 
It's so full.
서두르는 마음에 또 너무도 쉽게 네 맘 두드리면 안돼
in a hurry, and i can't beat your heart too easily.
Better slow 
Better slow
Better slow down, bae

어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐
Maybe it'll be the last time.

A)

아무런 말도 못해 또 난
I can't say anything again.
매번 네 앞에선 못 본 척 만 척 겉 돌기만 해
Every time I see you in front of me, I just turn around and pretend I didn't see you.
미소를 띄운 너를 보며 Uhm
I'm looking at you with a smile on your face.
새로 산 배색 목도리가 잘 어울리냐는 너의 그 손짓도
That hand gesture of yours asking if your new colored scarf looks good on you.
똑바로 쳐다보지 못한 
not looking straight
이런 나의 마음을 아는지
Do you know my heart?
B)  
하얗게 내려온 첫 눈 사이로 
through the first snow white
무얼 빌었냐는 물음에
When I asked what I begged for,
난처로운 얼굴로 달려가는 길은 여전히 왜 멀어보여 아득하게
As my awkward face, Why does it still look so far to street ?

Hook)

서투른 내 마음은 널 마주보지 못하고
My poor heart can't see you look face to face to face.
계속 아웅다웅대
And arguing with each other over trifles.
Why don’t you know
don’t you know 
don’t you know about me 

이렇게도 가득한데 
It's so full.
서두르는 마음에 또 너무도 쉽게 네 맘 두드리면 안돼
in a hurry, and i can't beat your heart too easily.
Better slow 
Better slow
Better slow down, bae

어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐
Maybe it'll be the last time.

Dept(뎁트) - 어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐(Maybe it'll be the last time)(feat. 이아율(Ayul))

slow down
breathe
what’s in the ground beneath your feet?
get out that screen and let it go
a blue check screams
i always whispered what you want
and it was right here all along

cos i found something with a taste you can’t describe
you take it in and all your roots get intertwined
and every time i call you back you’ll know you’re fine
i know you’re fine

there’s no cancer in the water
it’s not an answer or a dream
your mother and your father would rather blow it all on ginger tea
more than offer than a feed

you’re ready for it
think it’s for the best you leave this town
you’re ready for this now

breathe
slow down
breathe

terrified when i’m bout to be brave
since danny hit me i been killing the game
power to you if you’re riding the wave
could give a fuck about the money or fame
take you and your girl right back to my place
cos man or woman i’ma fuck you the same
picking me up when she’s back in my state
a quick flight to nyc for some cake
touch down 50 came in the clutch
my boys bound for something bigger than us
cuts deep like a knife it’s some shit you can feel
my momma love me and her willpower steel
ex’s heart bouda beat out my chest
i’m sorry bout me and i wish you the best
i just wanna fuck
the marajuana got me scared of trauma but i’m gon be okay
good sex every day
green checks life ain’t grey
this is fate
fill my plate with acid salad and breaks
i get drunk and she gets stupid high
i just chilled cos I don’t wanna try
when i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say

ginger tea

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just happy to be here