Rainclouds

(prod sorrow bringer)
@sorrow_bringer

its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
im not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it 
i know that they staring
i dont care a bit
and i know that i love to my own detriment 
can we just talk about something else instead
and every time i think about u i just drop dead
and now im just standing there holding my head
i dont wanna miss out if im not there
i dont wanna leave the house when your haunt it
i dont wanna leave the house when u ----
its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it

drop dead

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

pillow pit

Silently all night
Write notes app paragraphs
To get the words right I gotta make a draft
And I get afraid of accidentally pressing send
I would rather do it here and copy paste it in
I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

Tie me like an anchor to the floor
Or you can drag me all around like a bad dog owner
I don't wanna live like this no more
I'm just standing too high at the store
Yeah
I stay still and as I walk the ground moves under mе
This package hit my lungs like UPS trucks as I cross the street
And baby I'm your doll
I swеar that I'm just your dummy
Swear the way you love me, hurts so much it's funny
Tapped and always dumb and I'm so beautifully ugly
Throw me on my back, make me feel my body numbing
495 ways to tell me that I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
How could I do something else with myself
If it's all decided and its not in my hands?
I don't know, I just wish I'd calm down
And be someone else that doesn't like just always fucking hiding
Got nowhere to go
I'm just camping out by myself
Some place I can find that
Lets me feel like I'm there 

Im a wasteaway
Watch me waste away next to you
Just a waist away

I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

we made a heart farm o* + notes app drafts  .o*

nothingmuchEST2016 (prod.grimgar-dx)

Its Never The Same Place (prod.aresden)

[Intro]
Fate custom made (Custom made)
So I blew out the bank (Bank)
Fate custom made (I'ma make this money)
Ever since I picked out the way (Way)
Fate custom made
All this runnin', maybe I should keep pace
Someone got a hose to clean my brain (Clean my brain)
Clean my brain
(I don't know, it's.. ahh, fuck)
(What I'm feeling)
Clean my brain
(What I'm feeling, it's what I'm feeling, fuck you what you feel)
Fate custom made
(Heard you was into fate)
Yeah

[Verse 1]
Heard you was into fate custom made (So)
So I blew out the bank
I need faith, I need strength (Strength)
Ever since I picked out the way
Keep me focused, keep me sane (Sane)
All this runnin', maybe I should keep pace
Someone got a hose to clean my brain (Clean my-)
Doc' had said I think too many things
Fuck, I think I took too many things (Too much)
Animal, they'll put me in the chains
Flyin' level headed to the bank
I could blow expensive weed and still it fucking stank, yeah
Eat you with a Pedigree and spill my fucking drink (Yuh)
Try me with the business, I'ma need a name in ink
Meet me in the city, as I meet me in the old 41150
I don't really ever slow down

[Chorus]
Fate custom made
So I blew out the bank
Faith, I need strength
Since I picked out the way
Focused, keep me sane (Sauce)
I should keep pace, yeah
Clean my brain
Think too many things

[Verse 2]
Poster fell off my bedroom wall
Hennessy drink, got the alcohol
Nothing you said could've held me on
Spitting out weed, while I zombie walk
Flew in the home, later flew in the ghost
I scratch the surface and hurried out
Three to a comb, bread me the toast
It's good to be back on my cold- (It's all)

[Chorus]
Fate custom made (So)
So I blew out the bank
I need faith, I need strength (Woah)
Ever since I picked out the way
Keep me focused, keep me sane
All this runnin', maybe I should keep pace
Someone got a hose to clean my brain (Clean my-)
Doc' had said I think too many things

9TAILS - fate (prod. whoisdro & nativetradeproductions)

90 day run

Ou Ayeuh!

It Was Nice Seeing You

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just happy to be here

nothingmuchEST2016 (prod.grimgar-dx)

Softheart