rainmaker (prod. sorrow bringer)

song name (prod. sorrow bringer & boyfifty)

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

rest in peace to everybody i love you all 

i’ve finally had enough 
baby won’t you grab your coat
and go home 

if you’re not happy, stop
baby just take the jump
or you’ll never know 

“and oh he’s such a cunt”
well if that’s the case
then why’d you stay for? 

and she loves him so much
she gets on with his mom
yea they still talk 

and i promise i’m tryin my love can u see it
“i swear to god that ima make it this year”
but this music it comes and it goes like the feelin
of missing somebody you want but can’t see em
when i’m in the zone think i’m one of the meanest
4 years in this game, im still new, ima realist 
i been sippin for years 25 i’m still geekin
think it’s time to grow up, i wrap up the bleeding
i’m skating to work fuck your friends ima kill em
still feelin 18, pick these pills up n spin em 
i miss my friend collins he couldn’t stay here
so he took his own life, hug your friends when you see em 
shoutout to nickisgonenow, rest in peace 
shoutout to jd, pvscale, joe and sleep
we still here please try remember the key
i got family and friends yea what more do i need 

so stop right there
lay your head here 
on my chest 

and i’d jump 
i swear 
if you want it 
giveth you my best 

and i’m fucked
i pray
that god looks down with pity
on my head 

so just go
i’ll be okay :( 
just give me a year
before we talk again

i’ve finally had enough 
baby won’t you grab your coat
and go home 

if you’re not happy, stop
baby just take the jump
or you’ll never know 

“and oh he’s such a cunt”
well if that’s the case
then why’d you stay for? 

and she loves him so much
she gets on with his mom
yea they still talk

a song for the angels (branwen + nevrfall)

maybe ill leave, take a trip out of state for a while

sewerperson - looking4love

Supri

9TAILS - im sorry (prod. killedmyself)

Questão de crescimento (DoubleGun)

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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just happy to be here